Chapter 449SILVIA"Why," he said, careful, the way he always got when that particular subject came up, which wasn't often, not anymore, not after so many years."I don't know," I said, and that was true—I genuinely didn't know, couldn't trace the thread that connected the thought to whatever I'd actually been looking at. "Standing here, looking at all these pictures. I just felt it. That same ache. The one I get sometimes, out of nowhere, that I've always attributed to her."Xena. My daughter. Lost so many years ago now, in circumstances I still couldn't think about too directly without my chest tightening, some old grief that had never fully healed, just scarred over thick enough to bear weight most days."I still miss her too," Samuel said quietly, pulling me a little closer against his side. "It doesn't surprise me that it comes up sometimes, unprompted. Grief does that. Sneaks up when you least expect it.""It's strange, though," I said. "It doesn't feel like it usually does, whe
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