All Chapters of I'm Letting Go of Us: Chapter 1 - Chapter 8

8 Chapters

Chapter 1 Jerk

This was my 99th confession. I was hoping Shawn Smith would marry me, but the moment I finished speaking, silence followed. The whole hall of guests said nothing.An awkward pause later, Shawn came up to me, looking impassive. "Do you have any idea how awkward you're making this for me? I was supposed to be hanging out with my friends, but now everyone's laughing at us."Shawn's ex-girlfriend, Helga Steele, approached him and held his hand. "Queenie just wanted to surprise you. Just let it go."Someone laughed derisively. "This party was meant to welcome Helga, and yet Queenie still tried to steal the spotlight. She had it coming." Everyone giggled, and some whispered among themselves. I was still holding the bouquet, embarrassed but refusing to budge. My eyes were glued to Shawn, and I was hoping he would say something.That only stoked his disdain for me more. "You're embarrassing all of us. Leave."I blurted, "You said you'd marry me if I confessed to you ninety-nine times."

Chapter 2 Scheming Woman

I was thrown out of the venue, but I didn't try to get back in. I didn't even want to argue with Shawn. Instead, I rushed back to school to work on my thesis. Studying was how I would pull myself out of my misery.Shawn's parents called me. They wanted to know where their son was, since he hadn't gone back the whole night. I played dumb and said I didn't know.My agitation calmed down soon enough. Then, after I was done with work and came out of the campus, I ran into Helga. She was leaning against the entrance, waiting for someone.And then she raised her head, staring at me. "I'm having dinner with Shawn. You coming?"I ignored her, but she held up her arm and stopped me in my tracks. "Please, can you give Shawn to me?"Well, that was an odd request. I grabbed her hand and swung it away. "You shouldn't be asking me. If you fancy him, win his heart back yourself."It was just a slight push, but Helga took the momentum and fell to the ground, then she put on a crying mask. "I kno

Chapter 3 The NDA

When I got back home that night, the military zone's compound was in a living state. Everyone was sitting around the bonfire, teasing Shawn and Helga, who was the center of attention.My peers were giving me knowing looks. Someone asked, "Want to join in, Queenie?"They just wanted to see me humiliated again, but that was the old me. This time, I ignored them and went back home. I closed the door, cutting off the noise outside."Mr. Weeks? About medical research… Yeah, I'm in."Shawn and I were military families. My father was his father's most trusted lieutenant. Since I was a child, I would stay beside him, just like how my father guarded his father.But during a mission a few years ago, my father was hit with a rare disease after shielding Shawn's father. There was nothing they could do, and he succumbed to his illness. It was my father's death that pushed me into medicine when I got into university.Mr. Weeks was an old friend of my father's, but it'd been years since they la

Chapter 4 Arrogant Guy

Shawn's parents got up from their seats and checked out the NDA. They seemed happy enough. "Oh, this is great news!"Everyone else went in for a look."Is this confirmed?""That's Mr. Weeks' writing. She wouldn't try to forge his stuff, unless she wants to get herself killed."Someone clicked their tongue. "Congratulations, Shawn. You finally got what you wanted. You hate Queenie, and now she's going to stay away from you."Finally, after all these years, they said one thing that I agreed with.There were only hours left before my flight. I checked my phone. "Is there anything else? I have to go."I told my mother I would be alright. "Just have your dinner, Mom."Shawn wanted to come after me, but Helga held him back. She said softly, "I know saying goodbye is hard, but you need to do this. Come back soon. I'll be waiting."She was the epitome of grace, unlike me, who was the pinnacle of troublemaking. No wonder Shawn took a liking to her.He quickly followed me. The sun was

Chapter 5 Shameless

I went back inside to get my NDA and spared not a moment for Shawn. Night came. Right before I boarded my flight, I got a lot of texts from Shawn."There is no way you're cutting me off.""I'll be waiting. I'll give you a few days before you come crawling back, tops."I sneered and blocked his number. It was fine. I would show him how wrong he was with my actions.…At the same time, Shawn could only watch as his messages failed to reach me. Frustrated, he kept trying, but the messages still couldn't be sent. He'd moved out to live with Helga, and she had just gotten out of the shower.Gently, she called out, "Shawn."Helga was only covering her top with a bra and the rest of her body with a piece of a towel. Her hair was half-dried, and the air around her was refreshing. She huddled closer to Shawn and bent over, wrapping her arms around him."It's late. Why are you still texting her?"Shawn froze and locked his phone. He turned around. Helga was inches away, trying to kiss h

Chapter 6 Calling Mr. Smith

I was about to finish the meeting before the research when Alex called me. "What is it?""Queenie, it's me." That was Shawn's voice. "They told you I moved in with Helga today, didn't they? That's why you sent me this box. You wanted to make me mad, didn't you?"I paused for a while, and then I laughed mirthlessly. How was I supposed to know he was moving in with Helga? I had no idea what he was doing at all. His friends hated me. All of them hated me. They would never tell me anything about him.Even if they did, it was only thanks to me spending big money on information."Medical research, my foot," he continued. "Everyone knows the real project has started."I really didn't want to waste my time on this. "What do you want?"Shawn said, "If you want the doll, you're taking it yourself. Don't mess up my place. Take your stuff away.""No thanks. Tell Alex he can throw them away if no one's taking the box.""You… The doll is the only thing your dad left for you!""Yeah, I know!

Chapter 7 Into New Work

Shawn was about to close the door, but then his father showed up."You idiot boy!" Mr. Smith roared.Shawn was stunned, wondering why his father was yelling at him. "Dad?"Mr. Smith put his hands on his hips, his breathing ragged. "Queenie told me what you did! Give that doll back to her!"Shawn didn't expect that request from his father. He couldn't believe Queenie, famous for being reluctant to trouble anyone, would ask for help from so many people. She would do all that just to avoid meeting him. He would not stand for this.His father's adamant request only fueled his fury further, but then Mr. Smith said, "If you don't give that doll back to her, I'll freeze all your cards."That was the ultimatum. No matter how much he refused to, Shawn had to give the doll to his dad. The sight of my father's shirt evoked something within Mr. Smith. He sighed and looked at Shawn."You've dated her for years. Do you really have no feelings for her?"Shawn leaned on the door and snickered.

Chapter 8 Complete

By the time I came out, ten years had passed by. The research was a big success, and the industry players held a big celebration to welcome us back.Shawn's parents and my mom were there. Some reporters tried to sneak some photoshoots, but the guards chased them away.My mother sighed when she saw me. "Ten years. You're looking like an adult now. I'm proud of you."Even Mr. Smith cried tears of joy for me. "Congratulations. Your father would be proud. It's been ten years. I still wish you had married my son. Alas." He patted my hand, sighing relentlessly.Ten years was more than enough for me to forget my love for Shawn. Even so, their words got to me, and I felt a little down.I ran into Shawn at the entrance after the celebration was over. He was gaunt and sallow, a far cry from who he used to be. If it weren't for his parents who immediately supported him out of worry, I'd never have recognized him.He was holding a cane, and even though he was only walking, Shawn was tremblin

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