Lena’s POVPregnancy feels different this time, and not because my body changed in some dramatic new way but because this time I was supposed to experience it with Ethan beside me from the beginning instead of carrying everything alone.When I was pregnant with Eli, Ethan had already walked away before I could even tell him about the baby and by the time he came back into my life properly, I was already close to giving birth, which meant he missed the cravings, the morning sickness, the fear, and all the tiny moments that slowly turn a pregnancy into something real.He missed everything except the end.This baby was supposed to be different.This time Ethan would have been there from the start.He would have attended every appointment even if he pretended to hate hospitals. He would have hovered over me every time I felt nauseous. He would have touched my stomach every night before falling asleep because lately he looked at me like losing me once had changed something permanent inside
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