Teach me, Mr Blackwood의 모든 챕터: 챕터 161 - 챕터 170

_Aurora’s POV_The first thing I felt when I woke up was regret.The second thing was embarrassment. Pure, unfiltered, soul-crushing embarrassment.I groaned and buried my face deeper into the pillow.God.Why was I alive?Why had nobody smothered me with a pillow during the night?That would have been the merciful thing to do.Because now I had to wake up and remember everything.Every single thing that happened yesterday. From Damien calling me, to Nikolai telling me to cry. And then the fact I had completely collapsed in the kitchen. I let out another groan and rolled onto my back.The memory hit me immediately.His arms around me. His hand on my back. His voice telling me I could cry.I pulled a pillow over my face.No. Nope.Absolutely not.I refused to think about it.Maybe if I ignored it hard enough it would disappear.Maybe yesterday never happened. Maybe I had hallucinated the entire thing.I tried to think of a different explanation that seemed healthier to believe Afte

_Aurora’s POV_The moment Elena announced she was taking over our bathroom for what she called a “self-care emergency,” I immediately regretted every life decision that had brought me to Russia.Especially the one that involved living with two insufferable siblings.“Use the other bathroom,” Elena had said before she gently closed the door, remining me that I was only a few seconds later than shr was. God.How did I get here?I slowly made my way to the other bathroom, one I was vertain the Rwo men in the house used frequently. “Where is Nikolai?” I asked Alexei who was watching me walk to the bathroom. The man shrugged his shoulders, a mischievous sparkle in his eyes as he grinned. “Are you sure you don’t want me in there with you?” He asked and I turned to glare at him. Ever since he got here, it’s been one suggestive remark after the other. When he raised his hands in mock surrender, I stepped into the bathroom, slamming the door shut. The shower had helped. For twenty minut

_Aurora’s POV_ I stood there frozen for a while, his lips moving against mine. Nikolai pressed his lips harder against mine as he pulled my flushed body harder against his chest, his arms wrapping around me. For a moment, I failed to create any coherent thought. My heart thumped hard against my chest as my eyes widened. What was happening? What was happening?Nikolai was kissing me, Thats what was happening. He was kissing me while he was drunk. Should I stop this? Should I go ahead? I couldn’t decide as my fingers tightened by my sides, his arms wrapped against my side.I couldn't forget that he was drunk and that was the only reason he was doing this. This was a mistake. I knew it was a mistake. The rational part of my brain was practically screaming at me to stop.Tomorrow he might not even remember this.Tomorrow he might look at me and regret everything.So why couldn’t I make myself walk away?Why did my heart feel like it had been waiting for this?But the harder I pre

_Nikolai’s POV_Aurora was terrible at hiding things.I had known that for weeks now.The woman thought she was subtle. She genuinely believed she could disguise every emotion behind sarcasm, dramatic eye rolls, and the occasional insult thrown in my direction.The problem was that she was expressive.Painfully expressive.Everything she felt appeared on her face before she could stop it.Which was exactly why I knew something was wrong the moment I walked into the living room that morning.She kept trying to be subtle with her stares, but she was failing terribly. After one last sneaky look at me, I decided to do something. While she had her eyes glued to her screen, forcing herself to focus, I closed the distance between us. My feet moved as I walked silently, leaning against the table towards her. And I waited.Waited as she forced her fingers to move across the keyboard. Waited as her brows furrowed in confusion and her nose scrunched up. Her expressions were my favourite thi

_Aurora’s POV_My heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach at his words, beating at a thousand miles per hour. For months, hearing those words would have been enough.It was just one sentence, but it would have given me so much hope before. And I would have run straight back to him.I would have packed my bags. I would have gotten on the first flight available.I would have gone anywhere if it meant being with him.But that version of me didn’t exist anymore.At least I hoped she didn’t.I closed my eyes and forced myself to breathe. Trying to control my breath and my fast beating heart, I forced out a reply before I could change my mind. “No.”The word came out softer than I intended.Silence greeted me.For a moment, I wondered if the call had disconnected and I looked at my screen to see the time going by. Then Damien spoke.“What?”His voice sounded genuinely shocked I had said no to that, I guess he underestimated how much detached I had gotten. I swallowed hard as I close