I'd expected to feel something.That was the part I couldn't get past. Hour after hour, pacing the long dark length of my living room with a glass I never drank from, I kept waiting for it. Rage, perhaps. The hot, clean, righteous kind. Or the other thing, the cold satisfaction of a man who has seen the trap and stepped out of it in time.*You were right,* I'd tell myself. *You always knew. Trust no one.*I waited for that voice to feel like relief.It didn't.The clock on the mantel said ten past four.The penthouse had gone past silence into something else. A thick, flat, listening stillness, as if the walls themselves were holding their breath. The city lay glittering beyond the glass, wet and black, the lights smeared by rain. Somewhere below, the gala had long since ended. The ballroom emptied. The orchestra packed away.Midnight had come and gone.My phone lay face-down on the sofa, buzzing at intervals like a trapped insect. I'd stopped looking at it around one. I knew what it
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