I dream that Rhys is gone.In my dream, the apartment is the same apartment, the counter is the same counter, the spreadsheet is still glowing red on his laptop, but the coffee mug is washed and put away, and the closet on his side is empty the way closets get empty when a person has taken everything rather than packed for a trip. The hangers are bare. The drawer where he keeps his socks – the one I’ve opened a thousand times looking for the thick grey pair he stole from Cole – is pulled out and vacant, and the vacancy has a sound, a low hum like a freezer running in an empty house.I’m standing in the bedroom doorway with my hand on the frame while the hum gets louder until it fills the apartment and the apartment is just a series of rooms where a man used to live.I wake up at 4 AM with my heart slamming against my ribs hard enough to feel it in my throat.I’m still in the hotel room in Seoul with the jacket on the back of the chair and the ring in the pocket.I lie there with my pu
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