It was the morning after the birth, and my body felt like it had been torn apart and stitched back together all wrong. The incision burned with every shallow breath I took. I couldn’t sit up without help, couldn’t walk without a nurse gripping my arm like I might collapse. This was motherhood. The brutal truth no one ever told you, the wreckage it left behind. The nurse helped me shuffle to the bathroom. Each step sent humiliating fire shooting through me. I gripped the IV pole, teeth clenched, fighting back tears from the raw sting between my legs and the deeper, heavier ache low in my gut. Back in bed, the breast pump hummed mechanically beside me, cold and clinical. I lay there alone with tubes and beeping machines, aching for a baby I hadn’t even held yet. Eleanor arrived and handed me my phone. The NICU photos loaded. My chest caved in. “He’s so tiny,” I whispered, my voice cracking. “What if I can’t protect him?” “You already are,” she said softly, squeezing my should
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