After that, everything lost its edges.There were white lights overhead, voices crossing over one another, the hard chill of a table beneath my back, and pain that came in violent waves while people pressed on my body and shouted for blood. The monitors would not stop screaming. Someone said my pressure was dropping. Someone else told them to prep the OR again. I remember Enzo's voice somewhere beyond the noise, raw and breaking in ways I had never heard before, but by then he no longer belonged to me. I let the sound pass through me without reaching for it.At some point the pain changed.It moved beyond screaming and became something thinner, emptier, more final. In that strange quiet, I saw a little girl. She could not have been more than three or four. Dark curls. Bare feet. She stood a few steps away in all that white light and looked at me with Enzo's eyes."Mom," she said.I reached for her at once, but my arms felt heavy and slow.She smiled at me, sad and sweet and already lea
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