All Chapters of I'm an Outsider in My Own Home: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

My family had always been strict with their rules, and the weekly family long-table dinner was the most direct expression of that.Papa always sat at the head of the table, the seat that symbolized absolute dominion. On either side, arranged in order were Mamma, Fabio, Luca, and the utterly spoiled Francesca.Fido sat on the handwoven rug at Fabio's feet, Neve rested on a velvet-cushioned chair, and the spot next to Francesca was Pico's exclusive high chair.Even the three pets had their own seats of honor at the table, as Mamma said this helped them integrate into the family.Meanwhile, I—the eldest daughter—had to huddle on a folding chair shoved at the very end. The seat was so far from the dishes that I usually had to half-stand like a fool, stretching my arm out as far as it'd go.The humiliation from the party had lodged in my heart like a thorn.Today, for the first time ever, I felt a flicker of rebellious defiance.Half an hour before dinner, I dragged the folding chair

As for Mamma and Papa, it wasn't that I never tried to win them over.Back in school, desperate for Papa's approval, I studied from dawn till dusk and finally earned the top score in my grade.When I excitedly handed him my report card, he was on the phone discussing business. He just gave it a cursory glance and then casually placed it into a pile of scrap paper.That same day, Fabio merely tossed his exam paper—which also had the top score—onto the table with indifference, and Papa was so delighted he cracked open a good bottle of wine."Now that's my son."Papa raised his wine glass and looked straight past me at Fabio, not sparing me a flicker of attention.…Last night, I had a sudden, severe allergic reaction.Large red hives broke out all over my body, my throat swelled severely, and even breathing became incredibly difficult.Fighting the agony of suffocation, I dialed the number for the family's private medical team to beg for help.But the line that was supposed to

A month later, I found a job at a small local ad agency.The base pay was meager, and after I did the math, I found that it barely covered the rent for the basement.My boss, Stefano Pavan, talked a big game about flexible working hours. But in reality, he treated me like cheap labor around the clock. If an email came in at 3:00 am, I had to drag myself out of bed and get to work.Still, I kept posting on my blog. In fits and starts, I wrote about the quiet bitterness of those on the margins of society and the moments they were made to feel invisible.One day, I typed out, "In that lavish estate, all the applause and spotlight belonged to them. I was nothing more than a superfluous ornament—fit only to stand in the shadows and watch in silence."That post went viral without any warning.Within moments, tens of thousands of comments flooded in. Countless people wrote that my words mirrored their own feelings of being abandoned by their family.As I read those comments, I suddenly

I looked Fabio straight in the eye."Every time you worked late at the office until 3:00 am, I was the one who stayed up to bring you coffee. Once, while you were on a transnational video conference, someone on the other end happened to ask about the girl bringing you coffee in the frame."And you answered in fluent Briton, 'Oh, her? She's just the new cleaning lady the family hired. I gotta tell you though, she's clumsy as hell.' Did you really think I couldn't understand a single word?"Fabio's face went rigid in an instant.I turned to Luca. He instinctively took half a step back, his gaze darting away."When you were 15 years old and had just joined the national team, a heavy rainstorm hit during training. I ran several blocks to bring you an umbrella. You thought I looked too shabby and embarrassing."So, you snatched the umbrella from my hands and told your teammates I was some poor relative of the bodyguard. I ran back home in the pouring rain and came down with a raging f

In that shabby old apartment building, I built a life more fulfilling than anything I'd ever known.The hallway leading to my basement entrance was now strung with the stained-glass lamps I'd made with my own hands. At night, each one of them glowed with warm, colorful light.I fixed up an old bench my neighbor had thrown out, painted it a vintage deep blue, and placed it beneath Isabella's windowsill.She grumbled about all the racket I was making. But the very next day, she brought out a cushion and sat on that bench, reading her newspaper in the sun.Later on, I also posted about this chapter of my life on the blog.I wrote about the apple pie that warmed me to the core, about the hallway light left on for me late at night, and about the eccentric old woman who always left me late-night snacks whenever I worked overtime.That post shattered every viewership record on the internet.The comment with the most likes read, "Turns out, family isn't defined by blood. Instead, it's s