After Gabriel was discharged, I went to see him.The room was very quiet, an electric keyboard by the window. His right shoulder couldn't move yet, so he played "Elena's Morning" slowly with his left hand alone. The melody came in fragments, nothing like it had sounded in the college chapel."The doctor says you'll recover," I said."Yes." He stopped. "Thank you for coming."He didn't use that bullet to ask me for anything.Instead, for the first time, I brought up the past myself."Do you know why, in the end, I only asked for money?""Because money doesn't break its word.""Not entirely." I looked at him. "After that fight, you said we'd talk when I was calm. I waited all night, and you didn't come back. The next day Noah was diagnosed, and I discovered that my insurance, my housing, and my accounts all depended on you. If I kept crying, it would only convince you I was out of control. All I could do was pretend I didn't care, and turn every abandonment into a number that could take
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