What Heroic Acts Does 'In My Hands' Describe?

Every time I pause on that unsettling image of him — the pale face half hidden beneath a clutch of severed hands — I get pulled right back into the messy, brutal origin of his character in 'My Hero Academia'. Those hands aren’t just a gothic costume choice; they’re literal remnants of the life he destroyed and the way his mentor twisted that trauma into a purpose. As Tenko Shimura, his Quirk spiraled out of control and killed the people closest to him. All For One found the broken kid and, in his warped way, made those deaths into talismans: the hands from Tenko’s family were placed on him and turned into a symbol to never let him forget what happened and why he should burn the system down. It’s layered storytelling. On a surface level the hands are trophies — a grotesque display that marks him as a villain and makes people recoil. On a deeper psychological level they’re both a comfort and a chain. He clings to those hands like mementos, because they are the only remaining link to what little emotional life he had left; simultaneously they force him to stay consumed by rage and grief. All For One isn’t just grooming a weapon, he’s training a mind, using the hands as constant, tactile reinforcement of Tenko’s hatred and isolation. Beyond lore mechanics, I love how the imagery doubles as thematic shorthand. The hands are a physical manifestation of decay — not just the Decay Quirk he wields, but the decay of family, innocence, and humanity. They visually narrate his distance from normal society and the people he once loved. And later in the story, as his power and ambitions evolve, the hands also evolve into a sort of makeshift armor for his identity — a reminder that what he is now was forged from oblivion. It’s grim, sure, but it’s effective storytelling: every time he adjusts a hand on his shoulder or covers his face, you’re watching someone hold on to trauma while using it as fuel. I’ll admit, seeing him with those hands still creeps me out, but I can’t help admiring how the series uses a single, haunting visual to carry so much emotional and narrative weight — it’s horrifying in the best possible way for character design, and it sticks with me long after the episode ends.

What fascinates me about Shigaraki is how the physical costume — those grotesque hands — keeps working as storytelling long after his quirk changes. To me they’re not just a creepy fashion choice; they’re a walking museum of trauma, identity, and control. The hands began as literal reminders of the awful accident that shaped him, and even when his decay becomes something far more devastating and hard to contain, he keeps wearing them because they anchor him to the “Tomura” persona that All For One helped forge. They’re memorials and trophies at once: reminders of who he was, who he lost, and who taught him to direct his rage outward. On a practical level, the hands also function like restraint and camouflage. After his quirk evolves into the instantaneous, widespread decay that makes him a walking weapon, he still needs ways to limit accidental contact with allies, civilians, or the environment. The hands can be worn in layers, tied down, or used to cover his real skin, creating a buffer between him and whatever he touches. They also let him pick and choose when to activate that terror; if everything were bare and exposed, he’d be a walking hazard to anyone nearby — including his own troops. In battle choreography and animation, that physical restraint helps explain moments when he hesitates or targets deliberately rather than just annihilating everything in sight. Beyond utility and symbolism, I think there’s a theatrical motive. Villains in 'My Hero Academia' often cultivate an image, and Shigaraki’s image of clinging hands is unforgettable and nightmarish. It announces his philosophy: the world is broken, human touch is death, and history clings to you. Even after gaining terrifying new power, he keeps the hands because losing them would mean losing the story everyone has already accepted about him. For me, that mix of psychological scar, crude safety device, and brand-building is what makes him one of the more chilling characters — the hands are both his wound and his weapon, and that duality sticks with me every time I rewatch or reread his scenes.

Watching Shigaraki shuffle across a scene in 'My Hero Academia' always hits me with a weird mix of pity and dread. The hands plastered over his body aren’t just a creepy costume choice — they’re literal pieces of his past and the most obvious symbol of what shaped him. Those hands are the severed, preserved hands of people connected to his childhood trauma: family members and victims of the accident that birthed his quirk. After that catastrophe, All For One staged him into villainy and gifted him those hands, turning intimate loss into an outward, unavoidable identity. The hand over his face? It functions like a mask and a shackle at once, keeping his human features hidden while keeping the memory of what he lost pressed to him constantly. Beyond the grim origin, the hands work on multiple symbolic levels. They’re a badge of guilt — a wearable reminder that he caused devastation, intentionally or not. They’re also trophies in a twisted sense: to observers it looks like a villain who collects a morbid souvenir from every casualty, but the real sting is that those trophies were forced upon him as psychological chains. They represent manipulation by his mentor, the way pain can be weaponized to control someone. Stylistically, they make him look like a walking corpse or a living reliquary, which screams about dehumanization; he’s been objectified by his history, and by the hands’ presence he becomes less a person and more an embodiment of ruin. On a narrative level, the hands are brilliant because they communicate story without dialogue. They tell you about generational trauma, about how a child’s mistake can be exhumed and turned into ideology, about how villains can be manufactured by those who exploit wounds. I also see a darker reading: the hands as a grotesque mirror to society’s refusal to heal. Instead of burying pain and learning, it’s put on display and used to justify more violence. For me, that makes Shigaraki tragic rather than cartoonishly evil — every step he takes feels heavy with history. I love that the design provokes sympathy and horror at once; it’s rare for a character to get both so cleanly.

One small obsession of mine when drawing Deidara is getting those mouths and hands to feel functional, not just decorative. I start with gesture: quick, loose lines that capture the flow of the fingers and the tilt of the jaw. For the face-mouth I think about the mask of expression — a very narrow upper lip, a slightly fuller lower lip when he smirks, and the way the chin tucks back with his head tilt. For reference I always flip through pages of 'Naruto' and freeze frames where his expression is dynamic — that little asymmetry makes it read as alive. When I move to the hands, I build them like architecture: palm as a foreshortened box, fingers as cylinders, knuckles as a simple ridge. The mouths on Deidara’s palms sit centered but follow the surface planes of the palm — so if the hand is turned three-quarter, the lip curvature and teeth perspective should bend with it. I sketch the mouth inside the palm with lighter shapes first: an oval for the opening, a guideline for the teeth rows, and subtle creases for the skin around the lips. Remember to show the tension where fingers press into clay: little wrinkles and flattened pads sell the grip. Shading and detail come last. Use darker values between teeth, a thin highlight along the lip to suggest moisture, and soft shadow under the lower lip to push depth. For hands, add cast shadows between fingers and slight fingernail highlights. I also find sculpting a quick ball of clay myself helps me feel how fingers indent and how a mouth in the palm would stretch — it’s silly but effective. That tactile practice always improves my panels and makes Deidara look like he’s actually crafting an explosion, which I love.

I got curious about 'Murdered by My Memories' and did some digging, so here’s a clear roadmap for watching it legally. First, check the big subscription platforms: Netflix, Hulu, and Amazon Prime Video often carry documentaries and true-crime specials, but availability varies by country. If it's not on a subscription service in your region, look for digital purchase or rental on iTunes/Apple TV, Google Play, YouTube Movies, or Amazon’s buy/rent store—those are usually reliable legal options and let you download for offline viewing. If you prefer free legal options, try library-based streaming like Kanopy or Hoopla; many public libraries provide access to films at no extra cost. Also scan free ad-supported services like Tubi or Pluto—sometimes titles rotate through those platforms. Finally, check the film’s official social channels or the distributor’s site; they often list licensed streaming partners and any upcoming physical release. I usually end up renting from a store so I can watch with subtitles, and this one hooked me more than I expected.

I still catch myself thinking about how the finale of 'Murdered by My Memories' lands—it's a gut-punch wrapped in quiet moments. The people who make it to the end are mostly those closest to the protagonist: the narrator themself survives, battered and changed, carrying the weight of what happened. Their romantic partner also survives, which makes the ending feel like a fragile, earned peace rather than a false happy ending. Beyond that core duo, a handful of secondary characters pull through. The loyal friend who stuck by them through every setback ends the story alive, scarred but steady. A formerly antagonistic figure finds redemption and is alive at the close, having made atonement in a way that felt earned. Some peripheral allies who provided crucial support—like the streetwise informant and a doctor who patched wounds—also survive. Several villains and important mentors do not make it, which keeps the tone bittersweet. I left the last page thinking about how survival in this book is less about escaping unscathed and more about living with the memories, and that stuck with me.

My favorite image from 'A Mashup of Memories' is the crowded memory market where everyone barters flashes of life like trading cards. The plot follows Mira, who wakes one morning with gaps in her own past and a single, stubborn memory of a boy laughing by a rooftop. She learns that in this world memories can be extracted, altered and blended, and that a shadowy institute—Mnemosyne Collective—sells idealized pasts to the highest bidder. Mira’s quest is part detective story, part road trip: she tracks down memory-smugglers, confronts people who remember her differently, and stitches together fragments that don’t quite fit. Along the way she teams up with an archivist named Eli and a street-smart coder who calls himself Patch. The stakes escalate when Mira discovers that her missing memories aren’t just personal loss but a deliberate erasure tied to a larger conspiracy: people’s memories are being recombined to manufacture consent and rewrite local histories. The tone shifts between tender flashbacks, tense heists to recover raw data, and ethical debates over identity. By the end, Mira chooses an imperfect truth over a beautiful lie, and the finale left me thinking about how fragile and precious memory really is.

Fingertips warmed by a mug, I hold that phrase like a photograph—'death in her hands' is both literal and wildly metaphorical to me. On the surface it can mean power: she has the ability to decide life and death, like a judge or an avenger in stories such as 'Death Note', but it also carries the weight of responsibility. When someone literally holds another's end, they carry guilt, mercy, anger, and an impossible choice. I think of a mother comforting a child through illness, a surgeon making a split-second call, or a warrior paused before a fallen opponent. Each image reframes what that handful of words means. Deeper still, it can be about transformation. To have death in your hands might mean you are the midwife of endings—the person who helps a chapter close so something new can begin. That kind of grief-crafting is tender and brutal at once, and it leaves a mark on whoever performs it. I find that idea oddly consoling: endings are human work, and the hands that hold them are sacred in their flawed tenderness.