What This Feeling Novels & Stories

I tell myself. I still try hard to remember, even though I can not. I shake my head and hit my hands with my head. Just then, a weird feeling starts to kick in as it seems I start to feel something. However, what I feel is grief and sadness. I have this overwhelming emotional pain like I have never had before. It is really deafening.

We keep our heads down throughout. The closer I get, the more my skin begins to tingle. Fear? Yes. I am afraid. This is a dangerous mission; who wouldn't be? But this feeling is different from fear. It's like my weak wolf is scratching beneath my skin, itching to be released. It's the same feeling I felt before I shifted a bit. However this one is more intense. Like I can't breathe or think. Blood is rushing to my head and I feel a little light. What is this feeling?

It’s just the feeling of gaining a new friend. Just that feeling. Tickly.

My heart beat wild. My eyes blurred. The music blasted louder, the lights flashed harsher, but inside me something else grew. A feeling I didn’t know. A feeling that wasn’t just anger or jealousy or sadness. It was bigger, stranger, darker. It filled me until I felt full, too full, like I might break apart. I whispered again, voice shaking, “What is this?" For a moment, I didn’t feel empty anymore. I felt full—full of something I never knew existed inside me.

It feels like a promise. This is going to be a glorious day. The biting winter chill has finally given up, or maybe we’ve traveled south enough to just hit summer early. Maybe The Towers, that miserable, suffocating cage, is finally losing its hold on the world. I don't know, and honestly, I don't care. All I know is this feeling is new. I feel good. Happy. Truly happy for the first time in… maybe ever. It’s terrifying and beautiful all at once. “Lyric?”

Why… am I feeling like this? What is this weird and dangerous feeling?

I know the adrenalin feeling of winning over and over, and I know how it feels to have a joint and to zone out, but this feeling I don’t know. It’s a feeling of wanting someone or something so bad that you’re willing to give up everything for that. It’s a feeling that you can’t see or touch, but it stares at you brighter than the sun and cuts you deeper than a knife. It’s a feeling that you beg to hold on to, but it’s slowly slipping away into the darkness, and the only way to grab it is to climb down the lather and pull it up. *meet as, at the club, drinks on me XOXO* the text reads from Vicky.

And why do I get this strange feeling telling me something is about to happen? ***

It feels like there's a bomb within me that is waiting to explode, and I don't know what this feeling is. "What's wrong with you?" I ask myself as I gulp down the sudden lump that forms in my throat. I have read a lot of books, and I can say that everything I'm feeling right now should be because I'm horny, or what do they call it? I've never done this before, or I don't know if I've done it before now, but I just know that I'm suddenly feeling like doing it.

A strange, foreign feeling. Jealousy.