Hanan!
Staring at my reflection in the mirror i sigh, maybe if i apply some make up on i will look good and ya hafiz will love me, it's been two days since i last saw him everyday i will find the food Anty jasra sent to us on the dinning table in the evening the warmers disappear and the next morning i see new ones.
Today i decided to wake up early and make breakfast for him maybe that way i will see him and we will eventually bond I really miss him.
I hate applying make up and i hate any clothe that will tight me it just make me uncomfortable, I wear a pallazo trouser and a shirt I tie a scarf on my head and smile at my reflection I look good.
Coming down the stairs the doorbell ring and I rush to the door i open it and Amany was standing there holding the food bag.
"Hanan!
Soo today you wake up early everyday ya hafiz will say you're still asleep, soo now you've start recovering from the new bride stress."she rant and enter theHanan!The next few days pass by pretty quickly and Amany will be leaving tomorrow, I won't say i am happy but she has to leave so i can fix my marriage i don't know what is wrong with ya hafiz this days.sometimes he become super nice even without amany in our presence other times he become aggressive and snap at both me and his sister something is disturbing him and i don't know what, he became pretty quiet and he usually sleep off the day and spend the night doing whatever the fuck on his laptop he is turning into a lychnobite he is no longer the workaholic ya hafiz i can't even remember when last he go to work, he is different and it scared the shit out of me.Ever since the day i passed out in the parlour we begin to share same bedroom with him sometimes he sleep on the bed with me and other times he sleep alone ordering me to sleep on the floor but i don't mind because honestly speaking ya hafiz is a complete different person he is acting weird."Are yo
Hanan!The next few days pass by pretty quickly and Amany will be leaving tomorrow, I won't say i am happy but she has to leave so i can fix my marriage i don't know what is wrong with ya hafiz this days.sometimes he become super nice even without amany in our presence other times he become aggressive and snap at both me and his sister something is disturbing him and i don't know what, he became pretty quiet and he usually sleep off the day and spend the night doing whatever the fuck on his laptop he is turning into a lychnobite he is no longer the workaholic ya hafiz i can't even remember when last he go to work, he is different and it scared the shit out of me.Ever since the day i passed out in the parlour we begin to share same bedroom with him sometimes he sleep on the bed with me and other times he sleep alone ordering me to sleep on the floor but i don't mind because honestly speaking ya hafiz is a complete different person he is acting weird."Are yo
Hanan!"We should eat ya hafiz is sleeping, he is probably tired from work."I say sitting on thé dinning."Oh ok."amany say and dish me thé plate of Rice and stew, i mutter a thank you and began stuffing thé food in my mouth.Showing his girlfriend to my face and later he will come out pretending as if everything is cool, i wishe he can just love me even do is a little."Hanan!"i look up from my food and amany give me this weird look."Are you alright?You are just rushing thé food as if you ré fighting with someone."she say looking at me worriedly."I am fine,I.....ju...s...I need to rest."I say and leave thé dinning.I go to my bedroom slamming thé door shut, i lay on my bed and begin to sob.Why is this happening to me, i love him why can't he see that?Why am i not good enough i just want a happy life with my husband.Th door to my bedroom open i dont b
Hafiz!Thé next morning i wake up early and get ready for office, honestly speaking i just want to speak to nadia yesterday i spend thé whole night regreting why i snap at her like that, i called her multiple times and she didn't pick i texted her this morning i am confident she will call me thé moment she read my message.Coming out of my room i head downstairs and stop when i heard thé familiar voice from thé kitchen i tiptoe and eavesdrop by thé kitchen door."Mummy wlh they slept in seperate room, yesterday night i checked on hanan two times and she slept in her room, this morning again i check and saw her sleeping on her prayer mat, kuma ya hafiz ma didn't ate dinner with us yesterday night,."my sister say and i hide by thé kitchen door."No problèm mummy i will keeep you update insha Allah i will call you later before someone caught me."she say laughing and i quietly drop my laptop bag on th&ea
Hafiz!"What time is the discharge?"my mum ask and I turn my gaze to her."We 've been discharged already i just want to finish feeding her,she will take her medication we will then go home."I say giving the spoonful of the salad to her.Honestly speaking i just can't wait for us to be home, all this fake smiles and pretense is killing me, how I have to feed her, massage her to sleep, let's not mention the PDA little kisses i have to display to make my parents happy, I can't even remember when last i spoke to nadia i have to keep my phone at home i can't take chances because there is no way she won't call and the way my mum is always looking at me suspeciously i rather continue my acting and suppress all the anger in me till we go home."I am ok."she say looking at me and i smile."Are you sure?"I ask looking at her worriedly and she nod."Give her the medicine and let's get going Amany is already at home, I ask her to clean an
Hanan!"Mummy wlh it's not ya hafiz fault, we just had a little arguement about the honeymoon and i went to my room."I lie and Anty jasra just eye me suspeciously."Hanan you're lieing, you're trying to cover up for hafiz the two of you story doesn't even match, i know how to handle the both of you, you think i don't know hafiz, he is a very manipulative, cunning boy i give birth to him so there is no point trying to change a zebra strip."she say and i sigh."Anty please let him in, it's been two days ya hafiz isn't as bad as you picture him, it was just a coincidence and i am at fault please forgive him."I say with a smile and she hold my hands."Hanan.Please if hafiz is doing anything you don't favor tell me don't ever think because he is my son i will support him ,please Dan Allah i don't know how am going to tell your mum this, i know i forced hafiz into this marriage so just because you love him doesn't mean you will endure everything, kinji."s