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 Sitted on thé balcony of her window Hanan watch thé man of her dream drive out of the house in thé familiar Mercedes benz, she releases a heavy breathe and stare at the gloomy cloud with a sigh, never did she thought she will be in such situation.Growing up hanan always had this weird feeling wheneverr she is around him she decided it was just a silly crush that teenagers have on a good looking guy because honestly speaking we all have that one cousin we find very attractive she would say to her self.   But as she grows up thé crush escalated into an insatiable desire, a desire she know can only be fulfill in her fantasy. Because she do know that Hafiz hardly noticed her presence sometimes she wishe she is as beautiful as her mum maybe he will notice but nevertheless anytime hé is with her brother she do eavesdropped into there conversation and it always revolved around a girl "Nadia" who hafiz is in love with.

 Hanan!Opening my bedroom window i climb on and sit on the balcony giving me the full access to the view of our street, the morning cloud is a little chill yet the sun has started to rise, my mind drift to 5days days ago at the hospital and i smile, just seeing him makes me alright and everyday i see him he just look handsome than i last saw him, i always pray that God should make him mine i don't want to pray to God to remove his love in my heart because honestly i just want to be with him the man of my dream.I want God to fulfill my wishe even do that is the only wishe he will grant me in this life."Hanan."i snap out of my thoughts and turn to face my mum."Good morning mummy."I say jumping back inside the room."Morning.How are you?"she ask worriedly and i nod."I am ok mum."I say she nod and sit on the edge of my bed."Come and sit hanany."my mum say patting the space next to her on the bed.I sit,she sm

Hanan!"I know that will happen i wasn't expecting him to say yes."I say to Amani after she finish telling me how her parents talked to ya hafiz about our marriage and he declined."But mummy say she doesn't care if he wants to be with you or not , I am just worried about you hanan when ya hafiz is forced into doing something he doesn't want to,it usually ended up into a disaster."she say worriedly and i smile."I don't care Amany,I love ya hafiz for a very long time and i don't care if he doesn't love me back in return I will be with him until he learn to love me."I say and my bestfriend sigh."Hanan let's not fool ourselves here and by now you should know this is real life not all those novel you're reading, you can't convince someone to love you in as much as that person is already in love with someone else it's difficult, you're crazy."she say and i smile just in time my bedroom door open."Hanan.Hafiz is here to see you."my m

.Hafiz!Entering the hospital with the food bag on my hand i ignore all the weird stare everyone is giving me and head straight to the familiar room,   Ofcrse they will stare.How will a handsome guy wearing a suit instead of holding a laptop bag or something professional he is holding a fucking food bag thanks to my mum for wanting me to be a good fiancee and prove to her i really care about my so called fiancee."Hafiz."the familiar voice say and i turn to see my soon to be mother inlaw."Good morning mummy."I say squating and she smile."Morning hafiz, How are you doing?Give me the foodbag and you don't have to bring her food all the time."she say collecting the foodbag from my hand and i smile."It's nothing Anty,I am going to the office just want to check on her before going."I say as we walk sideway."It's fine hafiz we're actually leaving this morning the discharge papers will soon b

Hanan!Arranging my clothes for thé pré wed photoshoot i sing along "my hearthurt by Dax" i dont know what is actually going on, all i know is that ya hafiz is a good guy even do  his mum was thé one that pressurisé him on this marriage but he is also trying to make sure things work between us, Hé could visit me and we discussed alot to get to know each other he is a very nice guy with an amazing personality.Thé knock on my door make me sigh and i yell a come in to whoever is knocking."Hanan.Get ready we'ré going to thé hospital, Jasra just called me that hafiz is in thé hospital he is seriously sick."my mum say making my heartbeat to accelerate."W....What happen to him?"i ask confuse and my mum sigh."I don't know hurry get ready i'm waiting for you downstairs."my mum say and leave thé room.What happen to him? Hé was fine yesterday when he