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To Love is To Let Go
To Love is To Let Go
Author: Flightless Mii

Chapter 1

Author: Flightless Mii
The one thing Bella Ramsey regretted most in life was falling in love with her late father's friend.

She was ten the first time she met Seth Rogan—a tall man who held the newly orphaned girl in his arms and promised to protect her for the rest of his life.

He adopted her, raised her, and treated her like a real uncle.

At fifteen, when Bella was being bullied, it was Seth who showed up and made her tormentors kneel and apologize.

At eighteen, when one of Seth's missions failed and he was on the brink of death, Bella ignored the doctors' warnings and donated part of her liver to save him.

That same day, she stole a kiss from him, only for Seth to wake up at that very moment and see it happen.

There was no sweetness, only shock in his eyes—and a distance that never seemed to close.

Later, when Seth's one true love, Faye Walters, was critically ill, Bella was the only compatible donor.

The usually aloof Seth came to her then. He said that if she agreed to donate her kidney, he would do anything she asked.

Bella gave no reply. Her silence was her refusal. Faye died on the operating table.

Seth didn't shed a single tear. Life continued as if nothing had happened.

But on the seventh day after Faye's death, Seth made Bella's diary—filled with the secret longings of her teenage years—public.

He nailed her to a pillar of shame for loving her uncle.

On Bella's birthday, Seth drugged and kidnapped her. She was assaulted.

He stood by and watched, saying only, "Don't even think I'd touch you. You disgust me."

Just before she lost consciousness, Seth threw a bucket of cold water on her.

Dazed, she saw him walking toward her, knife in hand.

Then came the blade, swift and cold as ice. "This is what you owe Faye."

When she opened her eyes again, Bella found herself back on the day he had asked her for the kidney.

"I'm begging you. This kidney might mean nothing to you, but without it, Faye will die. If you agree to donate it to her, I'll do anything you ask."

Seth's pleading voice rang in her ears, snapping Bella fully awake.

She had come back to life.

In her past life, she had turned him down on this day and ended up suffering a fate worse than death.

But she had already lost part of her liver for Seth. How could she survive losing a kidney too?

Yet now, living this day again, Bella understood everything.

If not donating meant death anyway, then this kidney would be repayment—for eleven years of care from Seth. After that, they'd be even.

Gripping her hands into fists, she answered firmly, "I'll do it."

The words caught in Seth's throat. The doctor beside him looked stunned.

"Bella, are you sure?" the doctor asked, alarmed. "We usually don't recommend a second organ donation—it makes the surgery far more dangerous, even life-threatening."

Bella nodded. Of course, she understood the risks. But if it meant staying away from Seth forever, she was willing to die.

Watching her sign the agreement with his own eyes was the only thing that finally eased Seth's heart.

He had feared she was lying to him. He hadn't expected her to go through with it, without hesitation.

His gaze softened as he looked at her. "Since you agreed to donate, I'll keep my word. Whatever you want, name it."

"I only have one request. I want to sever ties with the Rogen family. From now on, I am no longer one of you."

Seth frowned. "Are you serious?"

He had assumed she would use this to force him into marriage. He never expected her only request would be to cut him off.

Bella met his eyes, her voice cold. "Yes."

Seth studied her for a few seconds, then his expression darkened.

"Bella, I suggest you give up your little schemes. Don't think that just because you cut ties with the Rogen family, there's a chance between us. There will never be anything between us. I only love one person—Faye. Not you."

Bella's lashes trembled. "I know."

The memories of her past life's humiliation were still fresh. Of course, she knew how much he loved Faye.

That was why, this time, she would never love him again. All she wanted was distance—distance and nothing else.

Seth looked at her for a moment longer.

He didn't know why, but something about her felt different now. He couldn't quite say what.

Just as he was about to speak, a voice from the hospital room interrupted them.

Faye.

He rushed inside instinctively. Bella's face dimmed, but she followed.

Faye was coughing, her eyes rimmed red.

"Seth, stop pressuring Bella. I know she doesn't like me. Even if she refuses to donate, I understand."

Before she could say more, Seth grabbed her hand, his voice full of joy. "Faye, Bella agreed. You're going to be okay!"

Faye froze. Her gaze snapped to Bella, stunned—then her eyes turned bloodshot. "Seth, did she make you promise to marry her?"

Before he could answer, Faye slapped Bella across the face.

A red mark bloomed instantly. Clutching her chest, Faye shouted, "Bella, do you have no shame? Seth is your uncle—how could you suggest something so disgusting? Seth, if you marry her, I'd rather die right now!"

Her outburst didn't even make Seth glance at the bruised Bella. He only held Faye tighter.

"Faye, the only one I love is you. I'll marry no one else. As for anyone else—don't even think about it."

Bella touched her burning cheek and let out a small, bitter smile. She took the hint and quietly left, but just as she stepped out, she heard their voices.

"She already donated her liver to you. Would donating a kidney now be dangerous?"

Bella paused mid-step. A part of her still hoped for his answer.

But it shattered the next second.

"You know me, Faye. I don't care what happens to anyone else. I only want you to get better. That's all that matters."

Bella stood still for a moment, then calmly pulled out her phone and made a call.

"Hello, Counselor? About the Caledon Volunteer Program you mentioned last time—I'd like to join."
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    Two years later, Bella and Danny completed their volunteer assignment in the Caledon Volunteer Program.They returned to the city and got engaged almost overnight.Danny held her hand, his face lit with happiness."Good thing I joined that program," he said with a grin. "Otherwise, I wouldn't have found a wife this amazing.""We haven't even had the wedding yet," Bella replied, feigning irritation. "Who's your wife?"But Danny didn't mind. He just tightened his fingers around hers and whispered in her ear, over and over, tenderly, "Wife."The wedding was grand. Every detail of the decor had been chosen according to her tastes.They exchanged rings under the gaze of a crowd, and when someone yelled out for a kiss, they turned to each other and kissed.At the banquet, Danny wrapped his arm around her and told their friends with quiet pride, "If you want someone to drink with, come to me. My wife's stomach can't handle alcohol."In that moment, Bella felt something full and warm

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    Seth had returned to the city, but he couldn't stop himself from keeping tabs on Bella. Each photo the detectives sent him—every single one—had Danny in it.Ever since learning Bella was with Danny, it was as if something inside him had died. His eyes lost their light. The man who once stood tall and proud was gone, replaced by a hollow version of himself.He moved through each day like a machine—eating three meals on time, attending to his work—but never smiling, never truly present.His confidence had vanished.He obsessively restored Bella's old room, arranging every item exactly as it had been.He built a replica of her presence, as though pretending she never left could soften the pain.But the further he sank into this illusion, the more unstable he became.He started sleeping in that room every night, whispering her name under his breath.Again and again, he called her number, though it was always switched off. Still, he kept dialing.When he missed her most, he'd regi

  • To Love is To Let Go   Chapter 16

    Tears streamed down Bella's face, unstoppable now. She covered her face with trembling hands and choked out a single word."Okay."Hearing that, Danny couldn't contain the joy that flooded his eyes. For a moment, it all felt too surreal—was Bella really his girlfriend now? The realization hit him like a delayed wave of warmth. When it did, he wrapped her tightly in his arms, as though afraid she'd disappear.He whispered in her ear, "I'll treat you well. For the rest of my life."…But Seth wasn't one to give up so easily, not even after being rejected by Bella.After everything he had done to her in the past, what did it matter now? He returned to the city, filed for a month-long leave, and then flew out again—traveling a long, winding road to reach the remote fishing village.When he finally arrived at Greendale Village, what he saw froze him in place.In a shadowy corner against a cracked wall, Danny had one hand braced beside Bella's head. She was pressed into his arms, the

  • To Love is To Let Go   Chapter 15

    "Yeah, I'm with him. So what?" Bella's voice was icy, her expression colder still.Seth didn't flinch. He said sternly, "I won't allow it. Don't you know what kind of person Danny is? He's had more girlfriends than I can count. Guys like him—spoiled, reckless—they don't take anything seriously. He's not going to love you the way you deserve."Bella let out a quiet, mocking laugh. The corners of her lips curved up, but it didn't reach her eyes."You're right," she said, "I don't know what kind of person he is. But I know exactly what kind of person you are. Do I need to go down the list of things you've done to me? And besides, who I'm with now has nothing to do with you anymore, does it? So do us both a favor—go back to wherever you came from. You're not welcome here."Her words hit harder than any blow. Seth couldn't hide the hurt in his eyes."You'd really say that to me? For him? I'm just worried about you, Bella. I would never hurt you."Her laugh was sharper this time. "Righ

  • To Love is To Let Go   Chapter 14

    By the time Seth arrived at Greendale Village in the back of a four-wheeled delivery truck, he could hardly believe his eyes.Even during his military days, he'd never seen conditions this rough. Mud passed for roads, and everything around him looked like it had been forgotten by time. He couldn't understand why Bella would come to a place like this—to suffer like this.But when he reached the village's small school, for the first time, he found himself looking at Bella like a stranger.The Bella he remembered had been pampered from childhood—an heiress who never lifted a finger. A girl born to live a good life.But now, through the classroom window, he saw her standing at the front of the room, speaking with quiet confidence. Her eyes were bright. Her clothes were plain and coarse, the kind you'd find on a market stall. But her words were crisp, beautiful, flowing—turning dull textbook prose into something living.He stared at her, dazed. It felt like he was seeing her for the fi

  • To Love is To Let Go   Chapter 13

    The sunlight fell across Danny's shoulders, making the brightness in his eyes seem even more pronounced.The bell rang.Without missing a beat, Danny took off running toward the distance, turning back once to wave at her with that same easy and radiant smile.Bella stood still for a moment, caught off guard.In that instant, she found herself thinking—Danny shone brighter than the sun.The Caledon Volunteer Program would last two years, and by now, Bella had grown close to the people of Greendale Village. She knew their names and their quirks.The villagers welcomed her warmly, and on weekends, some even invited her to ride on their boats, letting her experience the rhythm of their fishing life firsthand.This was the kind of countryside life she had always dreamed of.Now, it had become real.…Far away in the city, Seth was hospitalized for excessive drinking.The incident with Faye had shaken him more than he could say. It clung to his thoughts like thick smoke. He regret

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