My Cold Magazine Prince
The train arrived with a screech of metal on metal, and subconsciously I boarded and found a seat and gazed out the window as if somehow, the tunnel walls rushing by was the only thing that could grant my wish.
"I wish you could see me," I whispered the deep words, picturing his face as I spoke. "Like really see me. I wish you could love me just the way I love you."
Closing my eyes, I began to feel the weight of the unshed tears behind my eyelids.
But just before I brushed them off I murmured again.
"Just once, I want to know what it would be like if you truly loved me back."
With a final sigh, I wiped the tears fighting to breakfree.
Little did I know, some wishes come at a terrible price.
When Asher Smith's boyfriend, supermodel Xander Fauler, wakes from a car accident with amnesia, their cold relationship transforms into something passionaate and real.
For six blissful months, Asher experiences the love he always craved—until Xander's memories return, along with his icy demeanor.
What was once six month's of undeniable love and pleasure just as he had always wanted, slowly turned into a nightmare that he had dreaded so much for the longest time.
Amidst the uncertainty of his spot in his love life, Asher began to notice some odd changes in Xander, making him question if their relationship was ever real.
As he tries to get a grip of his love life he uncovers a dangerous obsession lurking in Xander's inner circle and a traumatic secret from his past, putting him no way further from his recent doubt, now Asher must decide: walk away from heartbreak or fight for a love trapped beneath scars?
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Chapter: Chapter eighteenAsher's POVThere are two things I never thought I’d do this week.One: take in a street cat like a lonely cartoon character.Two: call the flirty bartender whose name I didn’t even know.And yet, here I was. Sitting on my bed, Smile curled up beside my leg, and my finger hovering over the contact card he gave me at the bar.It had been sitting on my desk since the night I almost got flattened by a speeding bike. I kept looking at it and putting it down. Picking it up again. Then pretending I was too busy.But now?I had no more excuses.I had finished every single task on my laptop. Checked all the emails. Sent every file. Double-checked the layouts. Replied to Sophia even though I hated her guts. And still, I felt this weird restless feeling buzzing in my chest.Smile let out a little yawn and shifted on the blanket.I glanced at the clock. 6:47 PM.Screw it.I picked up my phone and punched in the number.He picked up on the fourth ring.“Hello?”I cleared my throat. “Hi. It’s me.
Last Updated: 2025-05-23
Chapter: Chapter seventeen Xander’s POVThe flash went off again, straight into my eyes.“Xander, just a little more to the left,” the photographer called out.I turned slightly, adjusted my jaw, narrowed my eyes, and gave them the usual expression. Cold. Confident. Unbothered.I was none of those things.My knees were shaky. My hands were sweating. My chest felt tight like a belt had been strapped around it. I tried to blink the feeling away. Maybe it was the lights. Or the layers of clothes. The heat in the studio was unbearable.“Hold that pose,” someone yelled.I tried.But the floor shifted under me.It didn’t actually move, but it sure as hell felt like it did.I took a step back.Too late.My ankle wobbled and I almost tipped over. I caught myself, but it wasn’t smooth. Everyone noticed. Sophia especially.“Xander?” she called, walking over with that usual panicked look in her eyes. “Are you okay?”“I’m fine,” I said quickly, but my voice didn’t sound right.Too thin. Too hoarse.She reached for my arm.
Last Updated: 2025-05-22
Chapter: Chapter sixteenAsher's POVThe first thing I did when I got inside was drop my keys and stare at the little cat that had followed me all the way home. It didn’t look scared. Just calm. Like it belonged here.I knelt down and stroked its fur again. Up close, it was worse than I thought. The fur was matted with dirt, paws were rough, and I was pretty sure something was stuck in its tail.“You really went through it, huh?” I muttered.It meowed like she agreed.I grabbed an old towel and took it straight to the bathroom. It followed me in like it had always lived here.The bath wasn’t easy.It squirmed a bit at first, but once the warm water hit it, it settled down. I lathered it up with the safest soap I had, mixed in a little antiseptic to be safe. It purred and started licking the bubbles off its paw.“Hey, no, don’t eat that,” I said, gently pulling the paw away. “It’s not candy.”It blinked at me and meowed again. It was small. Almost like a sigh.I couldn’t help but laugh. “You’re trouble.”I too
Last Updated: 2025-05-08
Chapter: Chapter fifteenAsher's POVI didn’t plan to go out that night.I was supposed to head straight home after errands, but my feet had a mind of their own. Maybe I was trying to escape the silence in my apartment. Maybe I just didn’t want to think about Xander. Again.Either way, I ended up at a bar not far from my new place.It wasn’t packed, just a few people scattered in booths and on stools. The music wasn’t too loud, and the lights were low enough that no one looked too hard at anyone else. Perfect.I walked up to the counter, took a seat, and waved down the bartender.He was hot.Tall, broad shoulders, with a smirk that looked like it had gotten him out of trouble more times than it should’ve. The kind of guy who could get away with anything just by flashing that smile.He leaned on the counter as he handed me my drink.“You look like someone who needs a good night.”I gave a short laugh. “Something like that.”“Rough day?” he asked, wiping down a glass.“More like a rough few weeks.”He nodded li
Last Updated: 2025-05-08
Chapter: Chapter fourteenXander’s POVI woke up to the blaring sound of my alarm clock.The shrill noise stabbed into my ears like knives. I smacked it off the nightstand and sat up, groaning. The sun was already bleeding through the curtains, too bright, too loud. My head was pounding and my chest was tight. I didn’t even check the time. I already knew—I was late.Photoshoot.Shit.I kicked off the blanket, rushed into the bathroom to freshen up. When I came out, I pulled on the nearest clothes I could find, and didn’t even bother checking if that annoying human was sprawled out on my couch like usual.In fact, I had made sure that wasn’t going to be a problem anymore.I had already asked Sophia to assign me another editor. I didn’t want to see his face. Didn’t want to hear his voice. Didn’t want to feel that tight knot in my chest every time my mind wandered back to the soft moments—the ones I didn’t remember making.The ones that felt too real to be fake.I didn’t have time for that.I drove like the stree
Last Updated: 2025-05-05
Chapter: chapter thirteenAsher’s POVI cried myself to sleep.The pillow was damp. My throat felt raw. I had pulled the blanket over my head to muffle the sound, but I knew he probably heard me. The silence in this apartment didn’t leave room for secrets.Sometime in the middle of the night, I felt it—movement. The faint creak of floorboards, the soft hush of slippered steps. A shadow passed the couch. Slowed near me.I didn’t open my eyes.I didn’t want to.I didn’t want to look up and see Xander watching me. Not like this. Not in this pathetic, broken state. If he was going to feel anything, I didn’t want it to be pity.The shadow lingered for a moment… then moved on.By dawn, I was already set for work but I couldn’t bring myself to take the car.The thought of sitting behind the wheel, stuck in traffic, trapped in my own head—it felt like a death sentence. I needed air. Space. Something different.So I walked.The morning wind bit into my face as I left the building. I wrapped my coat tighter and shoved m
Last Updated: 2025-05-05
Tamed By My Master's Moon
Adams Martin does everything humanly possible to avoid people after surviving COVID-19 and suffering from PTSD. Following his therapist’s instructions, he adopts a dog from the shelter to help him navigate being around people. The only problem is, that his dog occasionally shifts from dog to man and back.
Kehan Gammy (Alex) is the embodied soul of the first Inugami, created by the gods. When he was sent to the human world as punishment for letting a powerful, dark soul escape into the human world, he didn’t expect to have to be bound to a human and have to blend in as one, learning everything like a baby and adapting to his new-found body. But Adams was easy to bond with, giving him a human name, Alex, he’d appeared as a common dog.
When his exit from the underworld set off strange events happen in New York. He has to devise a plan that doesn’t involve Adams Martin in
Will he be able to protect everything he wants to preserve or will he return with yet another failure?
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Chapter: Chapter fifteenKehanI blinked back strong light the moment I came to, or a semblance of it.“Alex?” I called at the face that swam into view and the face smiled at me and held my hands before I slipped into the darkness all over again.A king had once said ‘heavens raise a king for the people’ or something corny like that. I probably heard it from a corny movie. A corny line from a corny movie. But that was exactly what had happened the day I had been rescued from that hell incarnate. The heavens had brought me a queen in the shape of my best girl, Jessica. And then a king… Alex?No, Kehan, my brain corrected, slowly coming conscious.“All of these peering, ugly ass faces better be a nightmare, that’s the only explanation for…” I gestured to all of them as my body groaned and protested. “…this.”They all laughed and asked a variant of how I was doing and such. I smiled and nodded in response to them. Some faces, I know well. A few, I know vaguely or in passing, never got to interact with them - yet
Last Updated: 2025-07-03
Chapter: Chapter fourteenChapter FourteenKehan’s POV“Kehan, I think Adams is missing.”That had been Jessica’s welcome to me three days ago after meeting with the deputy. I didn’t panic. No. It wasn’t the right time to panic, I knew something like this will happen.I learnt two things from meeting him. Foremost, he had no scruples whatsoever. Second. He’s desperate... for whatever reason he wanted access to Azurite. He had wanted to “negotiate terms of surrender to government and if I won’t want compensation in anyway.”Kidnapping Adams or any other worker, to make me see reason isn’t exactly beyond him. In fact, I anticipated something like this. I just thought it would take a bit more time for him. I had underestimated his desperation. Carrying out such evil act on the site made things worse and further proved the deputy would do anything to have azurite.I paced the floor of my penthouse suite. Orion from legal and Rita from PR had advised against getting the police involved if we want to keep Azurite. I
Last Updated: 2025-07-03
Chapter: Chapter thirteenAdams POVFrom the moment those bozos walked in, I knew it would get to this. I had worried a bit when instead of standing his ground, Kehan had asked us to leave instead, assigning me a task that felt like a fool’s errand. Jessica had dragged me out by my belt as I held two fingers to my eyes then pointed it at the two men. I had to go on site to check what was going on at azurite.The dust was yet to even settled from the murder investigation, but another storm had picked up momentum and rolled in. With the Simon Pryce case ending with an officially close and Minders now behind bars, we... Well, I, had thought we might just be at the light at the end of a tunnel. Alas! It was a firefly.Instead, we took a hit from a different angle. The deputy mayor had definitely dived in like a hungry vulture circling a half-dead carcass, reaping where he didn’t sow. He wasn’t really interested in justice or the building in itself, I mean it was worth a lot but not enough to go through this ted
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Chapter: Chapter twelveKehan’s POVOf all the things I have done since coming into limelight as CEO, putting Adams in charge of finding Lianne seemed the most right. I couldn’t be more proud of him than I was at the moment Lianne had walked in with evidence. I’ll admit I assumed Lianne was in on whatever was going on. That was a safe assumption considering. But somehow, Adams had found someone who was in hiding and didn’t want to be found.Detective Rhys had taken care of the rest after that. It was starting to become a headache at the point and I was starting to wonder if it would ever end. The movies I had watch and Isaac’s guides had made the whole CEO position seem like it is fun time once you gain the position – like all your problems are solved. Boy, was I in for a treat!It has been from one issue to another. Not that I expected solutions to easily fall into my lap on a platter. But it wouldn’t be so hard for things to sail easier, considering it only gets harder from here. At least that’s what I’ve
Last Updated: 2025-07-03
Chapter: chapter eleven Adams’ POVAfter Kehan had acted like someone who had seen a ghost, which I wouldn’t put past him with all I’ve seen these past few hours, he left the conference hall like the devil was at his heels. The rest of the team sighed and relaxed, attempting to sleep except Orion. Orion hadn’t slept much, neither did I . Not when the image of that cold body and the obsidian obsidian blade ran rent free in my mind. Another thing that bugged was how Kehan had looked when he touched it - tense, like the thing spoke to him. Jessica had attempted to lighten the mood with but failed. The Azurite redevelopment Project was damn near starting to sound like a curse. The only thing keeping me hopeful being news from my contact. I had left out the part about Charles being suspected to eat flesh earlier, though. There were times and places for these things. It was hard to function come morning after gruesome physical labour and thirty minutes of sleep. I could probably get knocked off my feet by the w
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Chapter: Chapter tenKehan’s POVSecrets? Lies?I hate them in equal measures. Coming from me when I was living a lie seems pretty two-faced. But I wasn’t maiming and killing.Knowing I was being lied to when there are people’s life involved ticked me off the wrong way. So I had called persons I could trust – Adams, the kind, honest human he is and Jessica, his friend that Isaac had assured me is loyal to death. I sure would like to put that to the test. Right now, I was at a loss for how to explain away the object vibrating in my pant pocket since we dug out the dagger. I could just dip my hand in my pocket and turn it off but I could feel their eyes on me. So I took it out casually like it didn’t mean anything and turned it off. “Always goes of at the wrong time,” I said casually. Adams was the first to speak as his eyes widened. “Just how did you get an extherion and be so casual about it?!”“I...”. “What the hell is an extherion?” Jessica cut me off, looking from me to Adams. “A light, newest ve
Last Updated: 2025-07-03
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