Novels by anniesodar

AlejandroThe city hall does not have an actual ballroom. This is why I find it stupid they actually called tonights gathering an actual ball and the fact that people around town think it is something fancy and important just because some big players organised it as a disguise to ask for more funding for the island that is definitely not going to go for people’s good but into some rich asshole’s pocket.To say Katerina looks underwhelmed by the whole thing is an understatement. I can see her sharp eyes making one sweep around the second we are out of the car, to know she made her assessment and came to the same conclusion. From the tacky walls draped in gold and the heavy velvet curtains with golden tassels at the ends, to the big pompous chandeliers and the people looking like they all came out of a cartoonish comedy, it’s just it - a pretence for something this is definitely not.“Lele,” she whispers, unimpr

KaterinaIt’s nice having someone tell you you are perfect on the daily. Even more so when you know they mean it on all the notes that matter. It’s nice to know it’s not just words people throw at you to make you do whatever they want or to shut you up or whatever the hell it is they want from you. Alejandro is not a man of many words and the ones he decides to gift you with are usually important, heartfelt, meaningful.When I finally peel myself out of the bed, the same one that seemed to be so big and lonely when I first got here, but now is crowded with Alejandro’s large body, it’s an effort to go take a shower and leave him alone there.It’s a miracle on its own that he’s just as relaxed around me as I am around him. Compared to the guarded man, whose temper used to be the one of a starved guard dog, my man is slowly starting to understand that life is not all about hustle and bustle, and belie

KaterinaSomething’s changed between me and Alejandro. Now with the secret of us being together out in the open, with that hot as fuck not-conversation we had behind the house a few nights ago, things feel… more real, more like everything I never knew I needed and even more.It’s all new and strange, even more so because of the situation we are in, yet it does feel normal, and this is exactly what I needed. To find my ground and start feeling a little bit like myself again. I am a creature of habit, I have always been. For me to function properly, I need peace and order and not run from one crisis to the other, and put down fires I have no business dealing with. Not that I am not good at it, not that I don’t know how to survive them, because damn it, but I do. The problem is, this is not something I want long-term, which it was for months. Ever since I arrived here, it’s been drama all over the place and I felt like

AlejandroWe decide to get back to the house separately after all. Not for hiding, but because we need to regroup. At the front door it is Eva who intercepts us, a smug look on her face the minute she notices our swollen lips and the fact that we are still holding hands. We are all dishevelled, but honestly, it would be a miracle if we weren’t with the day we had. I don’t want to think about it - about the bliss and then the pain, about how I almost lost my mind in the few hours since Katerina left me. No more, I am done with all this. She’s mine and nothing will change that.“Well, look at you lovebirds,” Eva chirps, looking more than excitedly at us.“Oh, cut it,” Katerina replies with a roll of her eyes, but instead of letting me go, she holds my hand tighter and pulls me to her side. As close as it is appropriate at this point.“Okay, whatever,” her friend waves us off, even

AlejandroIn the new silence that stretches between us, my heart barely deafens me. I am thrown so off-centre, I don’t even know what is real anymore, what is the true me and what are my fears.All I know is that she holds my future and my heart in those trapped hands of hers.It’s not even defeat when I say it. It’s a fucking liberation. All my life I struggled with who I was, where I belonged to. Now that I finally know, I am scared and I hate it because it makes me extremely irrational. It makes me go against everything I fought for so long.“It’s in your hands, my princess,” I tell her, everything in me shaking with fear that it might not be enough even if I am the one pinning her against the wall, not the other way around.Her big blue eyes search my face, for what I don’t know, but I feel it, the moment she slightly gives in.“Then never forgive those

AlejandroKaterina’s eyes are wide against me as she studies me with an intense gaze. I realise this is a scene we probably shouldn’t be doing here, but I am too exhausted to focus. The last few days have been an emotional roller coaster and I’ve been out of my mind from the moment she left earlier.And here she is right now, not saying a word, confirming this way what I feared - that with my stubbornness I managed to push her away. That she’d never understand my reasons and one way or the other, she’d never want to be with me again.This is what made me stay away from the house today, because in the state I was once I realised she wasn’t coming back, I was not to be trusted I wouldn’t do or say something stupid. like some wounded animal who doesn’t know better than to attack every time it’s hurt.The silence stretches again between us, and there are not even birds chirping to ta