Novel-novel oleh Miquila Mitchell

SHE WENT INTO THE KITCHEN AND PUT ON THE KETTLE, SHE DECIDED TO MAKE SOME TEA TO CALM HER NERVES. SHE TOOK OUT A CUP AND TEASPOON, ADDED THREE SUGARS TO HER CUP AND TOOK OUT A JOKO TEABAG. SHE POURED IN THE BOILING WATER ADDED MILK AND STIRRED. PERFECT! JUST THE WAY SHE LIKED IT. SHE TOOK HER CUP AND WENT TO THE BALCONY. THE BALCONY HAD A COMFY SOFA SEAT, FAKE POT PLANTS AS SHE DID NOT HAVE GREEN FINGERS AT ALL. THERE WAS A SMALL COFFEE TABLE WITH BOOKS FOR HER TO READ. HER OTHER SAFE SPACE. THE WEATHER WAS LOVELY, NOT TO HOT AND NOT TOO COLD JUST RIGHT. IT ALWAYS AMAZES HER HOW CAPE TOWN WEATHER CAN CHANGE IN AN INSTANT. ONE MOMENT IT IS RAINING THE NEXT MOMENT THE SUN IS SHINING, SOME PEOPLE SAY CAPE TOWN WEATHER IS LIKE A WOMAN'S MOOD, ALWAYS CHANGING. SHE WENT TO SIT DOWN AND PLACED HER CUP ON A COASTER ON THE COFFEE TABLE. SHE TOOK A DEEP BREATH IN AND SLOWLY BREATHED IT OUT AGAIN. SHE WANTED TO CLEAR HER THOUGHTS. SHE NEEDED TO DECIDE WHAT SHE WAS GOING TO DO. SHE COULDN'T KEEP

"I HAVE NOT BEEN FEELING WELL LATELY, SO MY MIND HAS NOT BEEN FUNCTIONING PROPERLY. SORRY BABES, PROMISE WILL DO BETTER IN THE FUTURE." SHE RESPONDED. SHE WAS HOPING THAT WAS ENOUGH TO FOOL HIM FOR NOW. SHE WAS THANKFUL HE WAS AWAY. SHE WAS SCARED HER FACE WOULD HAVE GIVEN HER AWAY. SHE HAD NEVER BEEN GOOD AT HIDING HER EMOTIONS ESPECIALLY FROM HIM. HE WAS VERY GOOD AT READING PEOPLE AND THAT HAS LEAD TO HIS SUCCESS IN THE BUSINESS WORLD. HE KNEW HOW TO CONNECT WITH THE RIGHT PEOPLE AND COULD ALWAYS READ THEIR EXPRESSIONS TO KNOW IF HE WAS BEING LIED TO. "I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT BABE, I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU. TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AND TO KISS YOU. I REALLY MISS YOU." HE SAID. "I MISS YOU, TOO." SHE RESPONDED. SHE DID MISS HIM. SHE WISHED SHE COULD BE HELD IN HIS BIG STRONG ARMS LIKE SHE ALWAYS DID WHEN SHE NEEDED COMFORTING. HE WAS HER SAFE SPACE. HE WAS HER ROCK, HER SAFETY NET. TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN HER FACE. SHE DID NOT WANT TO LOSE HIM. WHAT WOULD SHE DO WITHOUT HIM? WHAT W

"MY LOVE, WHAT TOOK YOU SO LONG TO ANSWER THE PHONE?" JAMES ASKED ON THE OTHER END OF THE LINE. SHE WAS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HIS MOOD. SHE HAD HOPED THAT HE WAS CALLING HER JUST BECAUSE HE MISSED HER AND NOT FOR WHAT HAD JUST HAPPENED. SHE KNEW IF HE KNEW HE WOULD GO BERSERK. SHE HAD SEEN HIM ANGRY BEFORE, HE RARELY GOT ANGRY BUT WHEN HE DID IT WAS SOMETHING TO FEAR. ONE TIME HE HAD FOUND THAT SOMEONE CLOSE TO HIM HAD BETRAYED HIS TRUST AND SOLD COMPANY SECRETS TO A RIVAL COMPANY. HE WAS SO UPSET AND STARTED DESTROYING EVERYTHING IN THE SURROUNDING. HE HAD SPECIAL CONNECTIONS WITH THE UNDERWORLD; HOW SPECIAL SHE HAD NO IDEA BUT WHAT SHE DID KNOW. WHAT SHE DID KNOW WAS THAT THAT PARTICULAR PERSON WHO HAD BETRAYED HIM WENT MISSING ALONG WITH HIS FAMILY. SHE HAD TRIED PROBING HIM ABOUT IT BUT SHE NEVER GOT A STRAIGHT ANSWER OUT OF HIM. SINCE THEN SHE HAD ALWAYS BEEN VERY CAREFUL AROUND HIM TRYING TO ENSURE HE NEVER GOT TO THAT STATE AGAIN. ALAS HERE SHE WAS FRESH WITH BETRAYAL AND HE

HE LOOKED AT HER LIKE HE HAD NO IDEA HOW TO RESPOND. SHE WAITED, SHE WANTED AN ANSWER."MAYA, I'M SO SORRY. I REALLY AM. YOU KNOW THAT I REALLY LOVE YOU, I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU. BREAKING UP WITH YOU BACK THEN WAS A MISTAKE, IT BROKE ME MORE THAN YOU COULD REALIZE. BUT I WAS THINKING OF YOU WHEN I MADE THAT CHOICE. I WANTED YOU TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE AND DID NOT WANT YOU BURDENED BY MY ILLNESS. I HAD NO GUARANTEE THAT I WAS GOING TO SURVIVE I WOULD RATHER YOU BE UPSET WITH ME OVER A BREAKUP THAN SPEND YOUR LIFE MOURNING ME. I THOUGHT WHAT I DID WAS THE RIGHT CHOICE AT THE TIME AND I AM TRULY SORRY FOR THE HURT THAT I CAUSED YOU."HE STEPPED FORWARD, TOOK HER HAND IN HIS. HE LEANED DOWN AND KISSED HER HAND GENTLY. HE THEN TOOK HER FACE IN HIS HANDS AND PULLED HER IN FOR A KISS. HE KISSED HER WITH ALL HIS MIGHT. HE KISSED HER LIKE HE HAD A HUNGER THAT ONLY SHE COULD FILL. HE PULLED HER CLOSER TO HIM THEIR KISS GREW INTENSE. SHE GAVE IN AND KISSED HIM BACK. SHE OPENED HER MOUTH SLIGHTLY AN

SHE WAS TRYING HER HARDEST TO TRY TO THINK OF A SUITABLE SOLUTION AS SHE KNEW SHE COULD NOT HAVE BOTH BUT IT WAS HARD GIVING UP HER FIRST LOVE. SHE HAD NO IDEA WHAT SHE WANTED TO DO. HOW WAS IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE TWO PEOPLE AT THE SAME TIME? SHE REALIZED SHE STILL LOVED ALEX A LOT AND WAS NOT SURE SHE WAS WILLING TO GIVE HIM UP BUT SHE ALSO KNEW SHE COULD NOT GIVE UP JAMES. THE MORE SHE THOUGHT ABOUT IT THE WORSE THINGS SEEMED TO GET AS SHE WAS TURNING OUT TO BE SOMEONE SHE NEVER THOUGHT SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN. THEY BOTH HAVE THEIR STRENGTHS BUT IT WAS SO HARD BECAUSE NOW THAT ALEX HAD EXPLAINED TO HER WHY HE BROKE UP WITH HER. SHE SEEMED TO LOVE HIM EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD BEFORE. SHE NEEDED TO FIGURE THINGS OUT BUT SHE ALSO NEEDED TO SEE JAMES, MAYBE IF SHE SAW HIM SHE WOULD STOP THINKING ABOUT ALEX. "I NEED TO GO HOME. WE WILL TALK ONCE I HAVE CALMED DOWN AND HAVE THOUGHT THINGS THROUGH" SHE TOLD ALEX. HE LOOKED LIKE A DEAR CAUGHT IN HEADLIGHTS. "MAYA, CAN WE NOT TALK THIS OUT BEFORE

She tried her best to calm down but she couldn't control her emotions. Everything was getting too much for her. She needed fresh air, she couldn't breathe anymore, she felt like she was getting a panic attack. She stood up and headed for the door, he followed her. Once she was outside she could feel the fresh breeze hit her face, it was a stark contrast to the heat that was filling her up inside. She started heaving as she was crying, she was totally out of control, her breathing was unsteady. She was bent over from being out of control and crying. He tried comforting her but she pushed him away, she needed space and he was not giving it to her. "Please, leave me alone. I need space right now." She tried normalizing her breathing but it was difficult to regain control of her emotions. She tried comforting herself by hugging herself and telling herself it was all okay. Everything was over, she was in a safe space. Finally after a few minutes she managed to calm down. Once she regained