Logan's POV After the conversation I had with Alpha Grey, I went to see Natalie the next day. She had made sure to put Avalyn on a strict diet and rest order to ensure she gained her strength back. A couple weeks had passed, and Avalyn had been improving steadily, both physically and mentally. Natalie convinced me that Avalyn needed to get out of the house. That way, she wouldn‘t feel like she was a prisoner within our walls – of course, she would always need to be accompanied. Usually, I watched Avalyn from a distance. My sister Rebecca had taken over being Avalyn's caretaker when it came to venturing outside of the main house. The two of them got along quite well. I knew that Rebecca's heart would break, though, when Alpha Grey had Avalyn killed. Avalyn was a kind spirit that you couldn‘t hate even if you tried. She did no wrong, and I didn‘t understand how her family treated her the way they did. “Logan!”Rebecca's voice filtered through the air, and I turned in the hallway
Avalyn's POV The graceful elegance of the white and gold piano reminded me of the one my mother used to have. The thought was both painful and pleasant at the same time. It had been so long since I touched any instruments. Until recently, I had forgotten that music used to be such an important and joyful part of my life. Thinking over the memory, I slid onto the golden stool and let my fingers brush over the keys. It only took me a few moments to get used to playing again, but once I did, I was totally immersed in the melody. It was like reuniting with a dear old friend with whom you could immediately reconnect emotionally, no matter how long it had been since you‘d seen each other. I may have been sold to a ruthless Alpha – but this was still my life.The people here were not all awful or hurtful toward me. In fact, many of them cared for me, although I didn‘t understand what I had done to deserve their kindess, especially Natalie and Rebecca. When I was free and left here, I woul
Grey's POVI raised my eyebrow. “Okay.” “The tests all came back fine,” Logan began. “She has managed to put back on some weight, and is doing much better than before physically…” He hesitated going any further, and his uncertainty caught my interest. He seemed to be searching for the right words, which was rare for him. “Based on her reaction to things… you know, due to her previous mental health concerns – I do have a suggestion if you‘d be open to it.” I was aggracated with how everyone kept saying she was messed up in the head or not ready. They made assumptions, and they didn‘t even know how she truly felt about anything. Not that I was worried about it, but it was interfering with my task. “Just spit it out already, for god‘s sake,” I said through gritted teeth as I stared at Logan . “I would simply suggest that you take a slightly different approach to the situation. Perhaps, be slightly gentler than usual. She is a virgin, after all. Logan had a lot of nerves to speak to
Avalyn's POVIt‘s Now or Never However, I wasn‘t alone for long. Night fell quickly over the pack, and soon after Natalie left the room, I heard a knock on the door. “Miss Avalyn, can we come in?” It was Mrs. White again, with two other young girls. “Of course, please!” I replied politely. I was still not used to being served. One of the younger girls placed some salad in front of me. The doctor‘s order had to be followed, so I started eating while watching the rest of the group working on my room. Like last time, they lit the candles, ran the hot water, and added flower petals.Mrs. White noticed that I had put down my plate, so she walked over to help me get into the bath.“I… may I do it myself?” I asked Mrs. White with as much courage as I could muster.“Miss Avalyn, it‘s our job to prepare you…”“I insist. Please?”I wanted to do this on my own. It just didn‘t feel right having other women get me ready to lose my virginity.Mrs. White hesitated for a moment. Then she nodded
Avalyn's POVGeorgia will be Back Particles of dust danced against the rays of light that filtered in through my open window. I opened my eyes slowly, still feeling disoriented. What happened to me last night? Yes… I took the pills, then Grey came, and then… We had sex. My first time. Memories started to flow back to me. It was like a dream beyond my wildest imagination. It was like watching a movie through a blurry window, except for the extreme pain and pleasure that was so vivid that I knew it wasn‘t a dream. The sunshine was too bright. I lifted my hand to cover my eyes when I realized every inch of my whole body ached. There were some light bruises over my skin, and they reminded me that I was no longer a virgin.“Not a virgin anymore.. He claimed me.” I covered my face with my hands. Tears streamed down my face, yet I wasn‘t sure why I was crying. Maybe for the loss of my virginity, maybe for the pain all over my body, or maybe… I was ashamed of the pleasure he brought me.
Avalyn's POV After the night I spent with Alpha Grey, I had expected to see him again, but I didn‘t. He never once came to visit. There was no compassion, no concern, no want or desire from him. I was nothing more than a task – a tool he needed. I was sure how I was going to be able to get past all the waiting, but, eventually, I found small ways to entertain myself. Art had become a big one, and when Rebecca realized I loved to paint and draw, she made sure I had everything set up in my own private art studio – considering the music room was off limits for the time being. Days turned into weeks, and, before I knew it, I began to lose track of time. The vast green fields around the Draco pack were beautiful. The peaceful village could be seen from the pack house, and the golden sunshine made everything seem upbeat and hopeful. I loved to draw the sunny sky the most — it reminded me of his clear blue eyes. A soft knocking at the door to the art room had me turning my head to see
Avalyn's POVI could try again.. She said it could still happen… “How many more times…” I knew my voice could barely be heard, but I still asked. Then I regretted my question immediately. How could she possibly answer that question? The memories of his touch flooded my mind, and the idea he would touch me again made my heart race.Natalie hesitated for a moment. “Well… It depends. But, as many as it takes.”The past few minutes had been like riding on a roller coaster. I was heartbroken and scared one moment, and was filled with hope the next.Then… the thought of him bedding me again… I had tried not to think about that night, but found myself more than once late at night wanting to touch myself to the memories he and I had created. I felt torn between the emptiness of not being pregnant and the desire to be with him again. “May I go back to my room?” I had a lot to think about, and one thing for sure was that I couldn‘t give up. I had to remain hopeful that I could fulfill this for
Avalyn's POV A few days passed, and I found myself not wanting to do much. Logan, Natalie and Rebecca had all taken tums to check on me and encourage me to stay positive of the situation. Rebecca had told me about the library, and, after much debate, I agreed to go with her. Thinking about her closing argument made me chuckle. ‘Ava, if you don‘t go, I will carry you there. Do you want me to carry you?‘ She could be quite persuasive, I had to admit. The laughter we shared when I told her I definitely didn‘t want her carrying me did make me smile. The library was a three–story–tall building, and it was even grander than she described. Being there really did change my mood. Rebecca and I wandered the shelves for hours until I had selected a few books to read. The entire time, she made jokes about the romances I selected, while I tried to convince her they were beautiful stories. As the sun began to set off in the distance, I enjoyed the cool breeze that was drifting in through t