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Owen's coworker Maria showed up at his desk the next morning with a container of meatballs. She was always doing things like bringing food from her mother's kitchen, her sister's bakery. Food was how Maria showed care. "Try these," she said, setting the container down. "My mom made them yesterday." Owen opened the container. The meatballs sat in a rich red sauce, steam still rising. They smelled good. He took one and bit into it. It was fine. More than fine. Well-made, flavored with herbs and something he couldn't identify. But as he chewed, his mind went somewhere else. To Roots. The way that pasta tasted was like someone had put thought into every element. "These are good," Owen said. "But you know what's better? This place I went to. Roots. The food there is different." Maria raised an eyebrow. "You've been there once and you're already comparing?" "The pasta I had was the best thing I've eaten in months," Owen said. "The way everything was balanced, the freshness of it. It's not just good food. It's something else." He stopped himself, noticing how he sounded. How passionate he was getting over a single meal. Marcus, the coworker who'd originally recommended Roots, walked over and leaned against Owen's desk. "Wait. Did you go to Roots yesterday? How did it go?" "It was fine," Owen said, trying to backtrack. "Just a good meal." But Maria was watching him now with that knowing look people got when they noticed something you didn't want noticed. "How do you know their food is better if you've only been there once?" she asked. "You can't compare a single visit to a place you've never tried before." "The pasta was perfect," Owen said. "I can tell when something is made with care and for Lucas. He caught himself. Getting emotional about a person he'd met for maybe ten minutes total. Marcus and Maria exchanged a look. "Owen," Marcus said slowly. "You met Lucas three days ago when you went to eat?" "We just talked for a minute. He came to clear my plate." And? "And nothing. He was friendly. The food was good." Maria set down her coffee. "This is more than just food, isn't it? There's something you're not telling us." Owen felt heat rise in his neck. "No, there's not. I'm just saying the restaurant is good." But even as he said it, he knew they could see through him. The way he'd lit up talking about Lucas. The way he'd gotten defensive. "Oh my God," Marcus said, grinning. "You like him." "I don't know what you're talking about," Owen said, turning back to his computer. "The chef," Maria said. "You like the chef." "I don't. I met him for thirty seconds." "And you're already talking about him like you've known him forever," Marcus said. "I've known you for three years. I've never heard you talk about anything like that." Owen didn't respond. He just opened his email, trying to signal that the conversation was over. But his hands were shaking slightly as he typed. The thing was, they weren't entirely wrong. Something had shifted. In the car, listening to Lucas talk about permission and proving and belonging, Owen had felt something crack open inside him. A door he'd kept locked for years. And now, thinking about Lucas, remembering the way he'd smiled, the careful way he drove, the way he'd listened but Owen couldn't pretend it was just about good food anymore. By lunch, Owen found himself walking toward Roots without consciously deciding to. He told himself it was just hunger. But he knew the truth. He wanted to see Lucas. The restaurant was busy, the lunch crowd filling the tables. Rosa was working the front. When she saw Owen, she smiled as she recognized him. "Welcome back so soon," she said. "You must have really liked the pasta." "It was good," Owen said, his heart already beating faster. "Is Lucas in the kitchen?" Rosa's smile got bigger. "Always in the kitchen. Let me tell him you're here." "Wait" Owen started, but Rosa was already disappearing into the back. A few minutes later, Lucas emerged, still wearing his chef's jacket, his hands probably still warm from cooking. When he saw Owen, something shifted in his expression. Recognition, relief, or maybe something more. He was having mixed feelings if he would come back but he eventually did and that alone has lifted his mood for the day. "You came back," Lucas said. "I wasn't sure if yesterday was just a moment." Owen sat at the bar, suddenly unsure what he was doing here, what he wanted to say. "I couldn't stop thinking about it," Owen said. "About what you said. About permission and proving. And about the food. It was the best thing I've tasted in a long time." Lucas rested his back against the counter, his eyes on Owen. "That's good to hear. Are you hungry now?" "Always," Owen said, and something in the way he said it made Lucas smile a real smile, not the professional one. "Then let me make you something special," Lucas said. "Something I've been thinking about since I dropped you off yesterday." As Lucas disappeared back into the kitchen, Owen sat at the bar and felt something emerge inside him. A feeling burned inside of him and he was ready to release but it was as though he didn't know the right time to burst and what Lucas' reaction would feel like. This wasn't just about food anymore. This was about wanting to know someone. About being willing to let someone know him back. And that was both thrilling and terrifying.CHAPTER FIVE:It happened on a Friday afternoon.Owen was leaving his last session of the day when his boss, Dr. Mercer, called him into his office. Mercer was a man in his sixties, someone Owen had always respected for his professionalism and dedication to the work.But there was something different about his expression today.Something cold."Close the door," Mercer said.Owen did, feeling his stomach drop. He'd done nothing wrong at work. His client reviews were strong. He showed up, did the job, and helped people navigate their grief.So what was this about?"I've noticed you've been spending a lot of time at a restaurant near here," Mercer said without preamble. "Roots, I think that's what it's called?"Owen was surprised. How could this have happened?"Yes. I eat lunch there sometimes," Owen said carefully."You eat lunch there frequently. I've seen you there twice this week alone. And I've seen you with the owner. A man."Owen didn't say anything. His mind was already running t
CHAPTER FOURBy the following week, Owen and Lucas had fallen into an inseparable bond. Owen would find excuses to stop by Roots between clients. Lucas would have something waiting, a special he'd made, a coffee, sometimes just a few minutes to sit and talk in the quiet before the dinner rush.They talked about everything. Lucas told Owen about growing up in Central America, about the journey to the States with his siblings, about the early years when they had almost nothing. Owen talked about his work, about the heaviness of holding people's grief, about his family cutting him off when he came out.He'd never told anyone that before. Never let anyone see how much it still hurts.One evening, after Roots had closed, Lucas invited Owen upstairs to the apartment above the restaurant. It was small but lived-in, with photos on the walls and cookbooks everywhere. Lucas made tea and they sat on the couch, and for the first time, they weren't talking about work or food or loss.They were jus
CHAPTER THREE: Owen's coworker Maria showed up at his desk the next morning with a container of meatballs. She was always doing things like bringing food from her mother's kitchen, her sister's bakery. Food was how Maria showed care."Try these," she said, setting the container down. "My mom made them yesterday."Owen opened the container. The meatballs sat in a rich red sauce, steam still rising. They smelled good.He took one and bit into it.It was fine. More than fine. Well-made, flavored with herbs and something he couldn't identify. But as he chewed, his mind went somewhere else.To Roots.The way that pasta tasted was like someone had put thought into every element."These are good," Owen said. "But you know what's better? This place I went to. Roots. The food there is different."Maria raised an eyebrow. "You've been there once and you're already comparing?""The pasta I had was the best thing I've eaten in months," Owen said. "The way everything was balanced, the freshness o
CHAPTER TWOThree days later, Owen was running.His boss had called just as he was packing up to leave. A client had relapsed. Hospital. Crisis. Someone needed to meet him before the night shift changed over.Owen grabbed his coat and left without hesitation. That was the job. That was the commitment.The rain had started while he was in the meeting. Now it was coming down hard, and Owen's shoes were soaked through. He was trying to flag down a taxi, but it was rush hour. Everyone wanted one. The train station was three blocks away, but there was no guarantee the next train would come in time.He started walking faster, then jogging, his bag bouncing against his side.That's when he collided with someone stepping out of a doorway.Owen went flying forward. His bag dropped. Papers scattered everywhere. He caught himself against a wall, breathing hard, ready to apologize or curse or maybe both.A man was already on his knees picking up Owen's scattered papers, moving quickly despite the
CHAPTER ONEOwen hadn't eaten a proper meal in three days.Between grief counseling sessions and the paperwork that came with the job, he'd survived on hospital cafeteria sandwiches and cold coffee. His life had become a series of other people's breakdowns clients sobbing across from him about parents, spouses, children they'd lost. And then he'd go home to silence. To an apartment that still felt like temporary housing even though he'd lived there five years.Since his family stopped calling after he came out, he'd learned to exist in a specific kind of quiet. Work filled most of the space. Therapy filled the rest. Everything else he'd learned to do without.A coworker named Marcus had sent him a text that morning: You need to eat something that isn't depressing. Trust me on this.The link took him to a restaurant called Roots. Italian-inspired, family-owned, great reviews. Fifteen minutes from his office. Perfect.Owen told himself he was just hungry.The restaurant was smaller than







