I FOLLOWED Gian out of the offices towards the elevator banks, and due to the argument, we were both quiet.
No one else was there, so the clacking sound of the heels of my stilettos as I walked across the floor echoed between us. It somehow made me feel as if I was being castigated for daring to disobey Gian about the dress. We didn’t exchange words until we’d reached the end of that hallway, where the discreet and private elevator for family members and VIPs was located. It was also what a current date would use to visit him in the office. And boy, she could still feel the trauma of what happened when his last ex came to visit him.Or, more like, she managed to sneak in through the guards to get up here.I’d secretly nicknamed Gian’s ex-dates. I called them Ex’d, for ‘ex’ and ‘date,’ because he’d never ever gone past dating since I started working here. In fact, no one could tell me if he’d ever had a girlfriend aside from that first and last one when he was still at school. That was controversial, and I thought that was the only reason why it was even heard of. It was because it produced one scandal after another until the very last, tragic one. But anyway, the ones that I was at least aware of, and I’d actually met, remained friends with him post-dating. And more than friends. Gian might have mastered the art of the poker face, but the girls did not. My staff and I witnessed when they do the office version of the ‘walk of shame’—walking into his office immaculately, coming out dazed, flushed (especially around the lips), and walking a bit wobbly-like. Plus the rumpled hair. And one time, there was a bra cup a little bit sideways. But they were all smiling in wondrous bliss. Gian was a professional but clearly not a saint. I’d been here more than a year and these happenings were far-in-between for me to call him a jackass. He’d never acted like one, either. Even on a day when another one bit the dust, he’d come out of his office as if he’d been serenely mulling over new financial sheets but was called to a meeting. And as I’d already said, those women looked happy, so what could I say? I didn’t have any business saying anything at all.Except for the last one.Her name was Shiela and Gian dated her from the end of last year to the beginning of this one. He stopped going out with her in January. And since then, she’d hounded him with calls until she got blocked here in the office. Yes, I was instructed to block all numbers she used from our phones.But Shiela wouldn’t give up. When she couldn’t get through me or my assistant Janet, she somehow got through the security and reached the floor using Gian’s private elevator.But when she came down that day, she was escorted by grim-looking guards and red-faced Jason, pale as paper.That day was the worst that ever happened to me here. Thinking about it could still put the flush of anger on my cheeks.Shiela was beautiful, a spoiled rich brat, and her grandmother was close friends with Madam Soniah. You wouldn’t really expect a woman with that background to behave like she had no refinement.“I know what people are saying! Don’t you dare deny it! He must fuck you in the office behind locked doors!”“Madam Soniah and Shiela’s grandmother are still friends, right?” I asked as we waited for the elevator car to arrive.His face couldn’t get any darker as I reminded him of this.He knew. He’d seen the guest list for the party then.The lift finally arrived and the doors slid to the sides. He let me in first before he followed, the ultimate gentleman. I was careful not to show my back, and thankfully he did not reach out to hold me like he would usually do because he was holding my bag.In our silence, while the car slid down its chute, I couldn’t help but remember more of that day…So, the bitch did manage to sneak up and demanded to see Gian who was in a meeting during that time. Yes, it sounded cliché, but it was the truth. There was an important contract signing for a merger of the marketing of two different small businesses that VerraCom managed to procure a week before. Everyone knew that no one disturbed this kind of meeting. Even his mother wouldn’t. So, as far as I was concerned, Shiela could do cartwheels and back flips right in front of me, but she would get no Gian.So, I said, No Gian for you, baby. Go home now.Not exactly, of course, but something to the effect of me talking to a three-year-old. The result was she cussed, cursed, and vilified me from my hair strands down to my toenails in a screech that carried over the whole, shocked floor.I stood there and endured long minutes of the dirtiest accusations I had heard in my entire life just so she couldn’t get through. I secretly suspected she was high of something then because she was simply not in a lucid state of mind. I endured because nothing was true in what she was screaming about. Surely, no one else believed her. They were so dirty, so trashy, and even if my identity was a secret because it was what the elders wanted, I had been honest in my relationship with the people I worked with in the office. Shiela was so occupied with her screeching and I was guarding her like a hawk that we both didn’t notice that Gian was there.And when we both saw him…Nooo… he wasn’t screaming. One look at him and it was like a tantrum switch was turned off and Shiela abruptly stopped. Gian’s face was so dark when he ordered the woman to his office, using the coldest voice I had ever heard from him. It drained the blood from Shiela’s face. And then she started crying and made pathetic excuses for why she was acting like a crazy person.“I’m sorry that I said those th-eeeee-ngs! She wouldn’t let me see you… She wouldn’t let me see you and I love you and I can’t live without you, Gian. Ple-eeee-ase… I know you love me, too, Gian… Please come back to meee!”Gian pulled her from the floor to his office without a word while the insane woman moaned and groaned like she was being overcome by a seizure. After just a few moments, the elevator spewed several of our security people, and a trembling and quiet Shiela was escorted back to the elevator and out of the building. She looked so shaken up that I wondered what Gian did to make her look like that in such a short time. But I was glad to see that it looked like we would not be seeing her for a long time, if not ever.I expected to be called next. I obediently went inside his office, confidently expecting he’d be grateful and he would apologize for what happened out there.Well.I was scolded down to my bone marrow. Can you believe it?He was so angry at me because if Janet had not run to him to tell him what was going on, he wouldn’t have any idea we’d been attacked by a mental case.Yup.That’s what he said about his ex.I WAS shocked at first. I had never seen him that angry with me or anyone else. In the back of my mind, I still wondered what he’d said to Shiela to make her look truly sickly and pitiful, even to me, after everything she had shouted at me out there. But then I got very angry because I wasn’t the one who sneaked through professional security guards to get to someone who didn’t want to see me anymore. I had to admit to the woman’s ingenuity. But she was still bat-crazy. Who the hell would do what she just did if not a crazy person?And then he tells me it was my fault?“It’s my job to filter your guests when you are busy with something important,” I explained, but I was already scowling back at him.“Your job isn’t to let anyone speak to you like that! You should have called me!”“But Gian—”“If you ever do that again, you’ll go back to your parents. You can’t cut it here!”I was shocked. Okay, so I was also a personal friend. I should have expected his anger. But I didn’t expect
I COULD hear the happy sound of her laughter and I hadn’t felt relief for a long time until then. It had been awkward and solemn in the days following that scandalous incident with Shiela, mostly because I had been too guilty and she, I could just imagine, had so many questions to ask but wouldn’t dare do.I fucked up. That was the truth. And I knew it.But she hadn’t laughed like that for a while. I hope it continues this way.She really liked that red dress and she looked so good in it, too. I knew I was over-reacting. But I didn’t like Elise on something as daring as this cocktail dress. She looked so good. I could just—Stop.My mind felt all muddled. I couldn’t be thinking like this. I didn’t need this. I was already so biased, what with the way I favored her? Elise had a special place in my heart. She was the little girl I was most fond of when I was a little man in love with the widow Rosamia von Schiller—the very first love of my life.I was so glad Elise was too young to r
SHIELA attended the party with her grandmother, Doña Lucia, in a slinky black dress that left nothing to the imagination.She also brought a date—handsome, tall, younger than Gian, and, most probably, a rich heir to one of the old money.I pitied him. He almost got choked a few times by the way the woman would grab and cling to him whenever Gian was near. Technically, I was, too, since I was by his side since arrival.But kudos to him, it did not take long for him to realize what was going on and he couldn’t get far away from Shiela fast enough. He flirted loudly with other women for good measure, too.And me?If the initial reason to stay near Gian was for guys presumably attracted to the sexy dress, that’s not it anymore.Shiela’s poisonous looks thrown my way were efficient enough to glue me by Gian’s side.If looks could kill, I would be over ten times murdered.So, instead of focusing on the conversation about real estate properties worth investing on that the guys were talking ab
WHEN I came to, I was covered by a blanket and I was sitting on Gian’s lap in the backseat of a vehicle.When I started to move, I realized his arms were wrapped securely around me while one of his hands held a towel to the wound in my head. And he growled.That, and that he was in the foulest mood I’d ever felt him in, froze any further movements I might have made.We were silent until we arrived at the hospital.Four stitches were done to close up my wound, and an MRI scan was performed on me. I was in a hospital bed where I never ever wanted to be, and I normally would have been fidgety, except Gian kept glaring at everyone and everything so I didn’t want to cause any more problems for everybody.He was scary, as if he was going to explode if anyone made one wrong move or said one wrong word. The doctor and nurses were walking on eggshells.Madame Soniah was there, too, and she was still in her party gown, worried about me and very guilty because she was the one who had invited Shie
WE parted with Gian’s mother in the parking lot of the hospital after I’d signed a waiver absolving the establishment from responsibility if anything untoward happens to me upon their release of me.Mang Karding, Gian’s personal driver, was going to drive Madam Soniah home while Gian would drive me to my place.And of course, he had to carry me again from the wheelchair even though I protested—err, squeaked, really—that I could walk, and carefully laid me down on the front seat and strapped me in like a recalcitrant child.I felt like an invalid. Thanks to the meds that were still working, I didn’t feel like one, though I must look like a wreck. He reclined the seat so I could be comfortable, and used up about three minutes more to fuss—the works—before he finally placed himself behind the wheel to drive us out of there. If I didn’t know he treated his mother the very same way when something ailed the gentle lady, I would have been pissed off.I secretly loved him for it, to be hones
ACCORDING to rumors, the woman was older than Gian by about five years.The relationship itself started way back in high school, but before then, they were playmates among kids in the neighborhood, so they already knew each other that long and well before the relationship.Her name, again, was Trina Cheng.Like Gian, she came from a wealthy background… and they said she really was so beautiful, and that they looked perfect together.They also seemed perfectly happy and in love from the beginning.But apparently, the relationship wasn’t as perfect under the surface as everyone thought it was.Trina started going out with a wild group in senior high, and she got hooked on drugs. That was the alleged reason for the breakup. That it might have been sudden, but to those close to the two, it was seen coming.The Verrazzanos sent Gian and his younger brother, Paulo, to the UK to continue their studies there. Madam Soniah went with them to personally supervise her boys.Trina was said to be on
Noo… where am I? Why am I here…? I cried inside my head while I walked in the dark corridor of this dank-smelling building. The cold floor where my naked feet walked was black with dirt and dust. The dust in the air clung to my sweaty skin and my face, which was wet with my flowing tears. My eyes had barely adjusted to the darkness but my nose could smell the mold and oldness of the building in the air.The building had been abandoned for a long time. I could feel paper on the floor and peeling paint and plaster on the wall. This place used to be an office before. Or a school? I wasn’t sure. But it was obvious it had been abandoned for a long time.I still wore my nurse’s uniform because I had just come out of my shift from the hospital, and I was sure it had become dirty from my running and from bumping into things I couldn’t see in the dark. My mom always kept my uniforms immaculate before she died.Mommy… am I going to die in a dirty uniform? Please, help. Save me! Oh my god… why a
ELISEThe apartment building was a four-storey building with one unit on each floor. My family owned the building. My mother and stepfather privately invested in real estate— renting houses and apartment buildings—and they owned several in other places. I lived here. Otherwise, I would be staying in one of the condo buildings/towers of the Von Schillers in Metro Manila. My father’s side invested in real estate, too, in partnership with the Verrazzanos. But this particular building was reserved for the family when we visited Manila.The first-floor unit was occupied by my cousin, Jason. The third-floor unit was for guests visiting from the province. The higher level on the third floor was a semi-covered deck. I kept my plants there in container boxes and big pots. On my free days, I could be found there tending to my plants or reading in my rattan hammock. We also do our barbecues there, drink there, and generally relax there at the end of the day. I was talking about me, my cousin Jas