Chapter 10

Lying on the bed soaked and stained with my fluids and sweat got my mind racing with everything that had just happened. 

Logan laid beside me, breathing heavily as he slept. 

What the hell just happened? I muttered to myself, grabbing the bedsheet to cover my naked body. 

My lingerie and thing were flung to different sides of the room. Shyly, I crept under the bed, trying to recover from the shock of the action.

“Don't you think it's time to leave for your room?” I didn't know for how long he had been awake but I was certain he had seen me smiling to myself as the dirty thoughts clouded my mind.

“Leave for my room?”, I asked, puzzled. “Can't I start sleeping here with you?” 

I thought whatever we shared meant a thing to him. Will I be just a breeder without any form of love and care from him? Am I just going to be a vessel for his semen deposit and his baby making factory. I tried to keep a starught expression as these thoughts rummaged through my mind.

“You haven't answered my question Logan!” 

“Do you think anything tangible can happen between you and I? I respect you Freya but I don't think we can have any intimate relationship”. He said without looking towards me.

Letting out a sigh, I rubbed the bridge of my nose trying to keep myself calm. I was just Eighteen, not yet transformed and he was older, an alpha, a strong one at that, I was no match for him and truly I didn't have to expect anything from him, nothing at all.

“But I thought after last night… I mean you were different, the way you spoke, the way you acted, everything.” 

“Freya”, he called, taking my hand in his. “You're still quite young so I don't blame you for thinking we have anything going on after last night. Have you forgotten you're just a breeder, my breeder, due to your unique qualities?”

His words pierced through my heart, burning through it like hot coal. Slowly, I got up, picked up my wears that were on the floor and ran out of the room fast before the tears fell.

***

Looking out through the window, it was a chilly morning, quiet and foggy except for the sounds of cricket and the singing of the birds outside. 

I stared hard at the empty space ahead of me thinking of how my family were probably enjoying the wealth they had gotten from selling me off as a breeder. 

“Can I come in?” Samantha smiled, staring at me from just behind the nearly opened door. 

“You're almost in”, I chuckled, adjusting myself to face her directly.

“It's been a week and you're barely seen outside…” Samantha asked with a concerned look on her face.

“I just want to stay indoors, sam…”, I heaved. “There's no point going outside.”

“Is it the remarks from the ladies? Don't worry about that, they're just jealous the alpha likes you.” Samantha smiled.

Likes me? I doubt it. Logan seems to be so strick about love, romance, relationship too and I feel that's why he brought me in as a breeder knowing there won't be any emotions attachment between us. 

He seemed like he was holding himself back from showing love and being loved too. This must be connected to his past or the lady Samantha wanted to talk about.

“Sam”, I turned towards her, hoping to get her to talk this time. “You were saying something last week about Lucia, can you tell me about her? Please!!!” 

Samantha hesitated for a while then cleared her throat,” Lucia… Tall and pretty, she used to be the Alpha's diamond as he fondly called her. She was the alpha's lover and wife to be but she cheated on him with his brother and leaked a secret about him to his rivals which nearly got him killed.”

I listened carefully as Samantha spoke, gathering the bits of knowledge I could have regarding Logan's strict behavior. 

For some seconds, I felt pity and empathetic towards him as Sam and I continued talking.

“Do you know at some point, the Alpha had to be taken to rehab?” Samantha shook her head. “It was a tragic experience for him.”

“Little wonder why he just wants me as a breeder and nothing else…” I groaned.

“You can't be so sure!!!”Sam winked. “The Alpha was against having a breeder before and it took only the grace of the council to convince him to have one, so something can still happen between the both of you.” 

“It's better we remain this way, Sam. There's no need for any strings to be attached.”

“Hmmm, if you say so.”

“Where's Lucia now?”

“She's in Syria, that was the last location we knew of her whereabouts. Do you know the alpha even begged her to come back, he was willing to forgive her, that was how he loved her”.

I was shocked at Samantha's last sentence. How could Logan still be in love with someone as evil as Lucia. 

“What if she comes back one day, what happens to me?” I asked Samantha. 

“That I do not know but then we can hope she doesn't come and even if she does, I doubt the alpha will leave his breeder for her. By then, you should have birthed his children and I don't think he will leave his children and you for someone as wicked and vile as Lucia.”

Taking a deep breathe, I fell on the bed, staring at the ceiling. I wish I had the chance to ask about Lucia from Logan himself, I needed to hear all the details from him.

I rubbed my stomach, an act I had taken a few days ago unintentionally. 

“Care to have some?” Samantha stretched a red apple she took from the pocket of her dress towards me. With one look at the fruit, my stomach churned, and I immediately felt nauseous.

Clutching my stomach, I ran straight for the bathroom before the contents in my stomach poured on the floor.

I sat on the bathroom floor breathless, my whole body drenched with the water I had poured on myself.

“Do you think you're okay, Freya?” Sam asked, staring at me curiously.

I could not shrug, am I really okay or not?