Near and far at the same time“I would never make you separate from a part of yourself, Margaret," I assured her, moving my hand gently across her face, as being like this was calming me down. “What I want from you is very uncertain; I have no idea what I want, to be honest, but I can assure you that what I want most is for us to be parents, both together, and even though our parenting ideas may differ, we'll figure something out, I'm sure," I said, and she closed her eyes with relief.“I know you probably don't want to answer the next question," she murmured, holding my hand, “but Nikolay, I have to ask. I need to know," she stared at me intently. “Who is Margot? What happened to her?”“She's not someone important enough to even mention, Margaret," I told her seriously, so much so that she recoiled from my touch on her cheek. I withdrew it, feeling heaps of sad memories clouding my mind.Damn it, this was bad, I had to get Margaret out of the office and out of my sight right now.“W
The older brotherThinking about it still gave me chills, especially with the suspicion that this child could be his. I wasn't sure if that mistake would ever change, but I was grateful not to have to see him again and hoped I wouldn't.I just regretted not being there to dance on his grave when he finally got himself killed.The thought made me happy, mostly because I always thought I would die of sadness being married to him and that he would dance on my grave when he finally killed me for betraying him and managed to get everything to go his way, as he always did.If I hadn't left him, by now I would be dead, I couldn't be more sure.I didn't even have to think about Fernando, he meant nothing to me, he was just a dark and bitter memory that appeared from time to time in my mind to torment me.The only one I worried about right now was Mike, despite his screw-ups; I didn't want him to die, I didn't want to lose my only brother, and even though he had done so many stupid things over
Danger I realized she was still staring at the gun in Nikolay's hand, maybe thinking about grabbing it and shooting me, or perhaps she thought I would use it against her."I don't think it's something you haven't earned," she blurted out, still staring at Nikolay's hand holding the gun."You're right, I earned it," I muttered.She raised her eyebrows in astonishment."You don't have your brother's character.""I did," I said, with the corners of my mouth lifting slightly, "and also his temper, but having a daughter changes many things, makes you more patient. I didn't have many options," I said, looking at Nikolay."What's your daughter's name?" she asked."Mia, she'll be four this week. I was with her when I got Nikolay's message; the nanny is leaving in about an hour, and I need to go take care of the little monster," I said with a slight smile. "I heard you two are going to have one of those soon.""Did Nikolay say something?" she asked, puzzled, showing that she had no idea how I
Safe "Crawl to Nikolay's office, press your body against the floor, get there and call Will, tell him what's happening."I shook my head and wanted to explain why I didn't want to do that, but I was only able to vocalize one word."Nikolay," I said between tears, and when the shots started again, Levy covered my mouth again, which was ideal because I screamed again."I'll take care of Nikolay, call Will, and then go to a safe place. Nikolay will find you there.""Safe place?" I asked, confused. I had no idea what he was talking about."He didn't give you a safe place? Damn it, Nikolay is an idiot. How could he not give you a safe place, if you're his woman?" he rolled his eyes. "Are you sure he never mentioned a safe place? Absolutely sure?""I have no idea what a safe place is, Levy!" I exclaimed loudly.It seemed like he was about to respond, but something interrupted him: the sound of the door being kicked in."Go now, time is running out," Levy looked at me, and seeing the seriou
Fights, Moodiness and JealousyI smiled a little, feeling her becoming more real, closer. I wasn't afraid, just excited.Apparently, Margaret caught my gaze because she covered with her hands the small bump that had caught all my attention."Levy isn't bad, Nikolay, you should give him a chance. He just wants to be part of your life, I don't think he's interested in the gang, just getting back into your life. He's alone, he only has his daughter, and he wants his family back."Her words completely snapped me out of my trance, and I looked at her."He made his decision, Margaret, he chose to leave, you don't know what you're talking about.""Then tell me, explain to me once and for all what happened. You're not a damn onion, it's exhausting to find out everything little by little. I want to know, I need to know, this is my family now."Her eyes had an incredible seriousness and determination when she spoke.My family.I liked the sound of that too much."Several years ago, Levy was the
Together again"He's the father of my son," I declared, swallowing hard."There's nothing wrong with falling in love with the father of your child. What are you so afraid of? That he'll reject you, Margaret? He's crazy about you, otherwise he wouldn't have you by his side like this.""He has me by his side because he has a son with me and because of all the drama with Mike, otherwise, it wouldn't happen. He's not crazy about me, I hate to break it to you," I said bitterly, looking away because I felt too vulnerable under her penetrating gaze."Margaret, don't be afraid to love someone just because you've been with trash in the past. You don't have to cling to him; let him go, don't let him hurt you, don't give him that right.""Don't call him trash.""Why not?""That's a very nice nickname for him," I looked at the plants. "The little time I spent in his house was hell, despite him being nice to me at first.""Oh...""The bastard didn't want me for anything but his personal satisfacti
Bewitched by her NikolayDamn Margaret.She and her lips that drove me crazy, just like her eyes, her body, her moans where my name was intertwined...This woman had done something to me, I had never felt like this before. It had been many years since I had felt so calm and satisfied.Having the naked, excited, and beautiful woman in my arms had just made me lose control.We had rough and completely hot sex, I couldn't hold back; I wanted her, I needed her, and I was going to get her. This woman was mine, the baby growing inside her was mine, she wanted to give it a shot with me and I with her; we were giving each other a chance.And there was nothing in my plans to mess that up. No way.You don't harm things that are worth it, you take care of them; when you find a diamond, you take care of it. That's what I intended to do with Margaret, I wasn't going anywhere, and I wasn't going to let go of the feeling she had revived in my chest.During the hour I had been awake, I kept replayin
A relationship of two"When I was around 15, I wasted my time with an older and idiotic guy, he was Mike's friend, who, as usual, was also into stealing back then; they stole cars and sold the parts. I did it a few times too.>>I always liked numbers, never hated math, and was very good at it, which led me to university; to two other boyfriends, each lasting about two months, and to quitting stealing cars."Her demeanor became distant as she spoke, as if recalling that time with bitterness rather than fun."I met a guy named David the same week my parents died, he was in the hospital at the same time as me. He accompanied me to the cafeteria while I waited for my parents to come out of surgery. Mike only showed up for the funeral and didn't even give an excuse.>>I didn't expect anything less from him, but the point is that looking back now, he met me at the worst stage of my life; when I was more vulnerable than ever, and he helped me a lot. Suddenly he made me so blind. When he aske