Mag-log inGwen
Morning came too quickly. I had not slept. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw Kayla falling, crying, bleeding. Her tiny arm in a cast. Her voice calling for me. I kept watch by her bed until the door opened, and the air in the room turned heavy. Mason. He filled the doorway like a storm cloud in human form, expensive cologne, silk shirt, charming smile that never reached his eyes. “There you are,” he said softly, like we were lovers in some tragic film. “My poor Gwen.” My stomach twisted and I could not answer. He crossed the room, his movements fluid, obviously rehearsed. He bent down and kissed my forehead. “You shouldn’t be here, love. You’re not strong enough. You need to rest.” “I can rest here,” I whispered. “I need to stay for Kayla.” He smiled, but there was a flicker of steel beneath it. “I’ve already arranged for her transfer to City Hospital. Better facilities. Top pediatric unit. She’ll get the best care there.” My heart froze. “Mason, please...” He brushed his fingers over my lips. “Shh. You’ve been through a lot, Gwen. The miscarriage took a toll. I can’t watch you wear yourself out. I’ll take you home after we see Kayla settled. You’ll be comfortable there. Peaceful.” Home. That word had become a cage. Dr. Higgins tried to intervene, insisting I needed medical supervision, but Mason’s tone was smooth and unyielding. “I appreciate your concern, Doctor, but my wife will be fine under my care. She’s fragile and emotional right now. I think we can all agree she needs a familiar environment.” He always made me sound insane. Within an hour, an ambulance was ready. I was not even allowed to ride with Kayla. Mason said it would “distress” her. I watched through the hospital window as they loaded her in, her tear-streaked face pressed to the glass, her good hand reaching for me. I pressed my palm against the window, mouthing, Mommy loves you. Then she was gone. Mason slid his hand around my shoulder as we walked to his car. “This drive will be good for us,” he said lightly. “A little couples bonding. Fresh air. Time together. We need that, don’t we?” I wanted to scream. Instead, I whispered, “I just want to be with my daughter.” He gave a low laugh. “You will. Don’t make this harder than it has to be, Gwen.” The car ride was silent except for the low hum of the engine and the faint scent of roses from the bouquet he had left on the seat. I stared out the window, counting the seconds, wondering how many more I could endure before something snapped. When we reached City Hospital, Mason’s mask slipped a little. He guided me through the glass doors, his hand firm at the small of my back. Before we entered the pediatric unit, he leaned in close, his whisper sharp as a blade. “You’ll smile, Gwen. You’ll thank me for bringing Kayla here. You’ll tell anyone who asks that we’re fine. Understand?” I nodded. “And none of your pitiful dramatics today. The last thing we need is people thinking our marriage is falling apart.” I forced a brittle smile. “Of course.” He squeezed my arm too tightly. “Good girl.” The pediatric unit was bright and colorful, murals of cartoon animals on every wall. Kayla lay in a small bed by the window, her arm still in its cast, her eyes lighting up when she saw me. “Mama!” she cried. I rushed to her side, tears threatening to spill. “Hey, sweetheart.” I brushed her curls from her face. “How’s my brave girl?” “I missed you,” she whispered. “Can we go home?” I froze. Before I could answer, Mason chimed in, his tone syrupy. “Soon, princess. Daddy’s just making sure you’re in the best hands.” Kayla’s eyes darkened. “I don’t like City Hospital.” “Now, now,” he said with that smile that terrified me. “Don’t be difficult like Mommy.” I flinched, but said nothing. I couldn’t. When a nurse came in to adjust Kayla’s IV, Mason pulled me aside. “We’ll give them space,” he said, steering me toward the hallway. His grip on my arm was iron. As we walked out, I lagged a few steps behind. My body was heavy, every breath an effort. He was already on his phone. I heard the change in his voice, the soft, honeyed tone he reserved for someone else. “Yeah, baby,” he was saying, “it’s almost done here. I’ll pick you up later. You look gorgeous in that dress? Can’t wait to see for myself.” My stomach churned. He looked back and caught me watching. His smile vanished. “Pick up your pace, Gwen. You look like the world’s pressing you down. What now?” I swallowed hard. “I’m still healing, Mason. I’m sore. You know that.” He stopped so abruptly that I nearly collided with him. Then his hand was around my throat, his voice low and seething. “Still holding grudges, huh? I said I was sorry. I bought you roses. I brought your favorite éclairs. I’m trying here, Gwen. Why can’t you stop playing the victim?” “Mason, please...” “Why can’t you forgive?” he hissed. “Why do you need the whole damn world to know we’re having a fight?” I trembled. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” His hand tightened, his face inches from mine. “You make me do this,” he growled. “You make me the bad guy.” Then, from behind him, I heard a cry. “Daddy, stop!” Kayla. She was standing barefoot in the doorway, IV trailing, her casted arm shaking. “Please don’t hurt Mommy again!” Mason turned, startled, then snarled, “Go back to bed!” When she didn’t move, he shoved her aside. She fell to the floor with a choked cry, clutching her arm. Something inside me shattered completely. “MASON!” I screamed, lunging towards her, but he caught me, slammed me against the wall. The breath rushed out of my lungs. His fingers clamped around my neck again, harder this time. “Why do you make me do this?” he shouted, his face red, veins bulging. “WHY?” I clawed weakly at his hands, my vision swimming. Kayla was screaming, tiny voice hoarse, begging him to stop. And then..... There was a blur of movement. Someone yanked Mason backward, his grip tearing away from my throat. The next second, Mason hit the wall with a sickening thud. The man who had grabbed him stood tall, broad-shouldered, dressed in a leather jacket and worn jeans. His eyes which were cold and furious, locked on Mason. “Touch her again,” the stranger said, voice low and lethal, “and I’ll make sure you can’t use your hands ever again.” Mason gasped, clutching his chest. “Who the hell are you...” The man took a step closer. “Someone who’s seen enough.” He glanced at me, his expression softening for a moment. “Are you alright?” I couldn’t speak. My throat burned, my legs shaking. Kayla ran to me, clinging to my gown. I dropped to my knees, wrapping my arms around her, sobbing into her hair. For the first time, Mason looked small, cornered, disarmed, and speechless. And for the first time, I was not the one trembling out of fear.Gwen That night, I dreamed in fragments. Not the violent dreams, the ones with water and gunfire and the weightless terror of falling, but quieter ones. Disjointed scenes stitched together without chronology. A narrow bed. The smell of antiseptic. A ceiling fan spinning too slowly. Hands I could not see, voices I could not place. Borrowed years. I woke before dawn, my heart steady but heavy, as if it had been carrying something all night and had finally set it down. The room was dark, the villa silent except for the distant hum of security systems doing their tireless work. I lay still and stared at the ceiling, letting memory surface on its own terms. For months, I had told myself the same story. I stayed too long. I did not fight hard enough. I should have known something was wrong. The story had been useful. It gave me someone to blame who was always available, myself. It kept the anger contained, turned inward, where it could not disrupt anything or anyone. Camilla liked tha
Gwen Once I began watching, I could not stop.That was the real danger. Not fear but clarity. I noticed Camilla first in the mornings. She always appeared at breakfast as though summoned by instinct rather than routine, perfectly timed, already composed. Her hair was immaculate, her posture relaxed, her presence reassuring in a way that made people unconsciously straighten when she entered the room. My mother softened the moment she saw her. It was subtle. A fractional lift at the corners of her mouth. A loosening in her shoulders. Camilla did not demand loyalty, she inspired it, the way people leaned toward warmth without realizing they were cold to begin with. “Gwen, you look rested,” Camilla said one morning, placing a gentle hand over mine as she passed. Her touch was light, maternal. Public. Unassailable. I smiled on reflex. “I slept well.” It was a lie, but an acceptable one. Camilla’s eyes lingered for half a second too long, not enough for anyone else to notice, but long
Gwen I watched the video again. I told myself I was only replaying it to notice details, to ground myself in something real, something good, but the truth was simpler and more humiliating. I could not stop. My thumb hovered over the screen like it had learned a reflex my mind had not approved.Kayla stood near a small table this time, her backpack still too large for her shoulders, one strap slipping as she leaned forward to peer at something a teacher was showing her. She nodded, once, decisively, then asked a question I could not hear, her expression earnest and intent.The teacher bent closer and listened. I pressed my fingers to my lips. She did not shrink. She did not look around to see whether she was allowed to speak. She did not check anyone’s face for permission. She spoke. I replayed it. Again.There was a short clip after that, Kayla sitting cross-legged on a bright rug, hands folded in her lap, her posture attentive but relaxed. Another child shifted closer to her, invadi
AdrianI told myself I was only there to observe. That was the agreement, half day, limited interaction, no pressure. Kayla’s first real immersion into a structured world again, and my role was meant to be peripheral. A shadow at the edge of the room. A contingency plan disguised as a father.St. Aurelia International Academy did nothing to soothe that instinct.The campus was immaculate in the way institutions designed to shape future power always were. Pale stone buildings softened by ivy, wide windows meant to signal transparency, manicured lawns that looked untouched by chaos. Flags from half a dozen countries lined the entrance. Multilingual welcome signs. Quiet confidence. Elite. International. Controlled.Miguel had called it “an environment worthy of her mind,” which was his careful way of saying that anything less would suffocate Kayla. I hadn’t disagreed. I had simply delayed. Delay was my specialty.I stood at the back of the observation gallery overlooking the lower primar
Adrian Her reply reached me while the house was still quiet, the hour suspended between night and morning when even my thoughts tended to tread carefully. I was standing in the kitchen, bare hands wrapped around a mug that had long since gone cold. Kayla was still asleep. Miguel, too. The world felt paused, like it was waiting to see which way I would breathe. My phone vibrated once on the counter. I did not rush for it. I had learned, over the years, that anticipation could be as dangerous as fear. Especially where Gwen was concerned. Every word from her carried weight now, measured, deliberate, chosen under pressure I could not touch but felt all the same. I picked up the phone. Her name was there. Just her name. No emojis. No softening preamble. No camouflage. I opened the message. 'Thank you for telling me. She’s incredible.' My chest tightened, sharp and immediate, like a fist closing around something vital. I leaned my hip against the counter, grounding myself, letting
Gwen The message came just after dawn, when the villa was still pretending to sleep. I had been awake for hours. I lay beneath silk sheets that felt more like restraints than comfort, staring at the faint line of light creeping along the ceiling while the ocean breathed steadily beyond the balcony doors. The house held its breath with it, quiet, alert, always listening. Camilla liked mornings. She said they were for renewal. For gratitude. I had learned they were for surveillance. My phone vibrated once on the nightstand. I did not reach for it immediately. In this house, every sound felt borrowed. Every object felt observed. My room. My time. My so-called healing. All curated. All managed. All quietly dictated by a woman who smiled like salvation and hid rot beneath perfume and benevolence. Then I saw the name on the screen. Adrian. My chest tightened sharply, like a muscle pulled too fast. There was no text at first. Just a single video attachment. My fingers hovered above







