Thirty minutes into the class…
"I didn't get your name," I said to him, not looking up to meet his gaze while still scribbling notes in my notepad at the end of the class. "Would you care to share?"
“Cassiel.” He didn’t break the word into syllables. "What about yours?"
I took a long breath. I needed to extend this conversation. From the corner of my eye, I observed him. “Cassiel, what is that you are scribbling? Is it detailed class notes on Dryden?"
“It’s your name, of course. You should look at this.” He quickly took up his notebook and flung it up in the air for me to view. He retrieved it immediately. "What do you think?"
“Well, that was fast.” I was speechless. "Your penmanship is beautiful."
“It was, not so much anymore.” His long hands formed a protective circle on the piece of paper he was protecting from my eye’s glance. I caught a peep but both of his shoulders moved too quickly and shielded again whatever he was working on. I sighed because he was so fucking agile and handsome. The kind of handsome that makes it difficult to breathe around him unless you were making a conscious effort to make your body function and work properly. "But since you gave me a compliment, I'll take it."
I snatched the piece of paper from his fingers playfully, but then I saw that it really had my name on it. But it was not what you would expect at the very moment. I was surprised like someone had pulled the rug from beneath my feet. Good thing I was already safely seated on a metallic chair.
It said, “An angel from the clashing winds above a tide, with folded wings waiting to fly in those unabated skies.”
“Woah, do you write poetry? That’s-that’s beautiful!” I choked on the beauty of this perfect sentence which sounded a lot like poetry. I haven’t met a guy before who writes poetry or anything creative, so this was really baffling to me. "Have you written more poems?"
“Yeah, sometimes I just write random things. They actually make zero sense whatsoever.” He laughed awkwardly, rubbing the nape of his freckled neck with long fingers. "I am not a poet by any means. It's cute of you to assume that anything I write could be considered poetry or anything resembling it, though."
“By the way, I think I forgot to ask your name?” He raised his eyebrows, crinkling his long, pointed nose, but there was a playful note in his light voice and everything fell easy, whichever way he was going around me. "What was it again?"
“My friends call me Lee. It’s actually Angelique. But yeah, my parents are weird. They chose to name me as a god's messenger, aka an angel.”
“Haha, you got me on that one.” He chuckled. “Because you are one. . .special girl. Angelique. It's such a beautiful name.” He started laughing nervously, rubbing the nape of his neck as Mr. Freyer walked out of the class, trying to attend to a call that had been ringing and interrupting the class a second time.
I nudged him on the shoulder and threw him a crooked smile of my own. “No, really, it’s actually similar and simplifies to being some befallen god’s messenger. But who the hell cares, right?"
“Cool. Yeah. Your parents are the ones who care. That's such a pretty name unless you’re screwing with me here.” He smirked at me with his cool confident persona. "If this is a joke, I'll be bummed out. I like your name."
“I don’t just screw with guys the first moment I see them.” Sassy. Yes. "Especially after they spill hot coffee all over my shoulder and try to give me third-degree burns. I'm not a masochist, ya know?”
“Well, that’s good to know.” His bemused face was on the edge of giving us away as we silently whispered back and forth. "It's a pleasure to know that you don't derive pleasure from pain."
“Why is that?” I bit my lip slowly and evasively. "Why is it such a pleasure?"
“Uh, nothing.” He was trying to be aloof like every other guy I’ve ever met. "It's just good general information. I didn't peg you as someone who was a part of the BDSM community, so you clarifying that fact really cleared all suspicions for me."
There was a sudden wall that built itself between us, and it was as if no matter how hard I would budge it with my sassiness, I won’t be able to get through. I suddenly felt my cheeks get hot so I decided it's better to be sassy than sorry.
“Well, if that’s how you get into girls’ pants by analysing facts like aforesaid, then it must be a long journey down there.”
Get it girl.
“The journey matters, not the destination.”
Wow. I wasn’t expecting this. What do I come back with?
“You’re such a dork.” Lame. I started laughing and he joined me. "I wasn't expecting you to be so witty."
His blue eyes were crinkling at the edges, and they were clearer than when I saw them an hour ago. I was at a loss of words for the first time in my life.
“I just had to throw it out there. Sorry, I had to.” He was wiping the tears from the corner of his eyes. "It was right there, you know?"
“I’m glad. Now I know I’m not the only weird one around my friends, and also, I have gotten enough helpful stuff from this conversation that will give me constant nightmares. Especially, about you trying to find the said destination.”
“At least they will be of a good kind, angel?” He curved his right eyebrow, smirking. "Since I like finding my way to the said destination."
My face turned red.
“I guess so.” I tried to bite away the small smile from spilling on my lips like a waterfall.
“I know so.” He smiled and threw a wink casually at me before going back to his notes as if this kind of shit happens every day.
The Greek God, smoking hot asshole, just winked at me.
Hallelujah!
Mr. Freyer walked back in, tucking his phone in the back pocket of his corduroy pants, while grasping the blue marker as he strolled to the whiteboard. We found ourselves getting back to scribbling notes in our notebooks as our teacher gave another long and monotonous lecture. Mr. Freyer kept circling Dryden on the whiteboard to indicate the importance of the subject for our next surprise quiz. We kept mum for the rest of the class because Cassiel just took my breath away and he had no idea about it.
TWO MONTHS AGOAfter smoking my drag, I stepped on it with the edge of my heels to kill it. I walked back to the store where Daniel was and joined him inside. He was doing some sexy leaning around one of the shelves of fancy dress shirts, and he stared at me as I walked towards him.“It took you a while, didn't it?” He raised his eyebrows as he gave me another brilliant smile. "Aren't you playing hard to get?""Playing hard to get with you?" I licked my lips as I blinked my eyes quickly. "What would I do that for? I have no feelings for you, so playing hard to get would be an absolute waste of my time."He ignored my comment as he opened his mouth to talk again."Do you smoke?" He eyed my lips cautiously. "Are you a smoker?""Yeah. I was taking a drag." Then I zeroed in on the store and took everything around me in. Little middle-class me would never have stepped into a store like this a few years ago. "Why are you always asking me questions?"The grandeur of the store blew me away as
PRESENT TWO MONTHS AGO “All right, all right.” The country singer put his hands up defensively. Then he pivoted to go back to where he came from. "I'm leaving. Are you happy, Angelique?" I nodded. "I can't be any happier." Halfway through his walk on the pavement, he pivoted to look at me, resting his right hand on his slim waist as he looked at me expectantly. “Well, I do have something to say." Then he licked his lips. "I need your help.” “What help?” I stood there awkwardly, gazing bewildered at him. "Weren't you just walking away from me?" He nodded back towards one of the men’s clothing stores on the right side of the street. “Help me find a tux?" “Why would I help you?” I narrowed my eyes at him. "I barely know you." “You owe me. Have you forgotten that?" He smirked at me as he ogled at my face. "Don't you remember that night from the karaoke bar?” He bit his lip, looking at my face for signs of recognition. He thought I’d forgotten all about what happened that night aga
PRESENTTWO MONTHS AGOI was coming out of one of the many expensive stores on Upper Fifth Avenue. I needed to help Jeff find a ring for Carrie. We were both walking around when Jeff tugged at my hand and pulled me to one of the window displays of this luxurious wedding dresser designer brand, Weddingly Beat, and there sat a glimmering white mermaid ball gown. I looked at it while holding my breath because it was so beautiful.“Hey!" Jeff groaned. Just look at that. Isn't it beautiful?"“Isn’t it beautiful?” I repeated his words. "It's more than beautiful. It's probably what all girls dream about when they are little."“It’s gorgeous,” he murmured in awe. “Carrie would look so unearthly in this."“Yes, you’re right.” I coughed as I added more to the conversation. “And not just that ... I guess she’ll even like it.” I threw in a humorous laugh. "It's difficult to match her unreachable standards."“You think so?” He gazed at the dress and then at me with a childlike innocence I had rare
PRESENTThe roads are dark and the concrete shines in the night from the faint light that falls on them from the tall street lights at the end of every long block. I don’t know how I’ll make it back to our apartment without having an honest excuse ready when Cassiel questions me about my disappearance. What would I tell him if he asks me where I had been gone for the past three hours? Or who I was spending my time with for the hours I had disappeared? In a hurry, I left my cellphone on the kitchen table. What if he goes through my phone?But, knowing Cass, I know that he will not. But what if luck is not on my side today? Will he find out about my cheating and my despicable behavior? He won’t go through your phone. My brain answers for me. He’s not like you.From what it looks like given my present circumstances, I know that I have been unlucky for a while. That’s why I almost cheated on Cassiel, that’s why I have developed feelings for Daniel. And also probably why I can’t make u
FOUR YEARS AGOCassiel walked me straight into the mall, holding onto my right hand tightly as he walked ahead of me leading me through the crowd. I couldn’t even stop to breathe because he was hurrying me to a MacYum’s right around the corner. The mall was crowded and people were shopping to beat the holiday rush of Halloween. I saw four kids dressed as cute monsters and mad scientists running out of a costume store, probably as a marketing gimmick for increasing the store's holiday sales, rushing in our direction. One of them crashed right into my stomach as he was passing by us. I took two squeaky steps back in my boots but somehow managed not to sway.Cassiel immediately turned around at the loss of my fingers. “Are you okay, babe?"“Yeah-yeah, I am.” I put both of my hands on the kid’s shoulder as I stopped him in place as he just ran into me a second ago. “Are you okay, buddy?”The six-year-old kid chuckled and nodded his head. Cassiel came in and patted his head. Then the kid s
PRESENT“And what do you need me for?” I try not to snap at him. I keep it curt. Where the hell did this wife come from? Has he been married before? He never said anything about this person in all the days we have been acquainted with each other. "If you have a wife, why don't you hang out with her?"“I need you here with me so we can act like we are dating.” He’s so obvious and persistent in his answers like it means nothing to him. “You know I need you to get her out of my house.”“I can’t do that. I don't think that I'll be available. I'm sorry for saying this, but you need to call one of your model fuck-buddies who can help you out in this situation.” I mimic him in a sarcastic tone. Then I can't control my anger any longer. “And from where on earth did your wife materialise in thin air?” I take a deep inhale. “And why are you calling me? How dare you?”“Please, Lee. I absolutely need your help this time.” He’s taking a pause before he continues. “Melissa isn’t that important. She