He just kept walking down the driveway and down the sidewalk.
He didn't know where he was going. He didn't have a plan.
He could go back to Uni, his tuition and everything was already paid for and it was non-refundable so Eden and Dean wouldn't get the money back anyway, but the thought of going back there felt wrong.
It felt like he wasn't really leaving and he needed to.
He needed to leave and be done with it or it would end up hurting everyone even more.
He just knew he couldn't stay there.
He had fucked up royally and now he was paying for it.
So for now, he would just walk around until he knew what to do.
He didn't know how long that would be but he was thankful that the weather wasn't being a cliché right now with pouring rain and thunder.
No, it was actually a nice night, a slight breeze that would have given him a slight chill if it weren't for the jumper he had grabb
Cailensat at the bus station, his ticket held firmly in his hand that rested on his knee.His leg was jiggling up and down, the events of the night not allowing him to sit still. His nerves were at an all-time high at the moment. He couldn't believe he was doing this.Most of all,he couldn't believe he was doing this tonight.He figured that he might as well pile all his biggest problems on at once. At least that way,he could deal with them all at once rather than get over one only to have the other blow up in his face.That was the only reason he could think of as to why he had just bought a ticket to Hamdover.So he could randomly just show up at her doorstep and say 'Hey, I'm the son you dumped on the doorstep of an orphanage! Do you remember me?'.He wasn't thinking, obviously.It seemed to be the theme tonight so he decided to just roll with it. He knew this would have to be done anyway. He knew he
"Um, Sir?"She asked because it must have been at least a minute and Cailenwas just standing there, staring at her.He just couldn't find his voice. It was her. She was standing right in front of him, asking how she could help him and he couldn't speak.He didn't know how he knew it was her, maybe it was her nose, maybe it was her eyes or her hair and that she actually did look like him, but he just knew.He had so many questions, so many things to say to her, yet he couldn't make any words form.This was a bad idea.Hell, the whole night had been a bad idea.How did he go from being at a party, to being with the boy he loved, to losing his family, to ending up staring at his biological mother like a fish in a fishbowl?Why did he come here? He shouldn't have come here.Why did he think he could do this? He couldn't do this.Cailen'sfeet were way ahead of his brain, one of them stepping bac
Cailen'seyes landed on a little girl that stood in the entry way, half her body hiding behind the wall with her head poking out. It was the same little girl that answered the door.He thought Arabellacalled her Ava. He tried smiling at her, not wanting to be rude but he's not too sure how that had turned out.Apparently,it was enough for her to stop hiding and step into the living room, another little girl following behind her that looked just like her. They were obviously twins and they were obviously both curious as to who was sitting in their living room."Hello,"Cailenspoke gently, making one of the twins grab hold of the other's arm."Hello,"the one who seemed to be the braver of the two spoke-the one that answered the door.He didn't say anything else because he wasn't sure Arabellawould want him interacting with her children, but apparently the kids were too curious."Who a
"Cailen," Arabellasaid and he could tell by her tone that the happy chit chat was over."Don't take this the wrong way, because I am glad you came.I never thought- I never thought I'd get to see you but, why are you here?" she asked softly, leaning forward so her elbows were resting on her knees. "I mean, do you have any questions? Like, what were you hoping to get from this?" she asked.He supposed it was a valid question, and he supposed he should have an answer, but he didn't. He didn't know why he came here. He didn't know what he wanted to happen."I don't know,"he admitted, still staring at the ground. "I- I just- I came here on a whim. I didn't even really think about it, not until you answered the door and- and then I really had no idea why I was here,"he explained.She took a moment to consider this, probably just as lost as him."Do you have any questions you want to ask? I'll try to answer them,"&nbs
Another silence fell over the room and Cailensuddenly wanted to take it back.He didn't actually want her to kick him out.He knew they only just met but, he's been rejected by so many mothers before. He wasn't sure he could be rejected by her as well."Okay,"she said finally, sounding confused. "What does that have to do with- Oh,"she spoke softly again, barely audible which surprised him.He was expecting harsher tones and much harsher words."I see now,"she said, sighing afterwards."What?" he asked quietly."They don't know, do they?" she asked.Cailenshook his head. Why wasn't she kicking him out?"And you think if they did, then...""Then they won't want me around anymore. I know they won't,"he finished for her."Are they homophobic?" she asked like she already knew what the answer would be."Uh, no- I- don't know,"he answered honestly.
Cailen'sfeet thumped against the pavement, the sun beating down on him making it too hot for his jumper anymore.He awkwardly took it offover his white tshirtwhile juggling his bag and continuing to walk at the same time, tying it around his waist as he hurried down the streets of Beverwood, focused solely on getting home.He didn't know exactly what would happen when he got there but he knew he couldn't leave without any kind of explanation.It wouldn't be fair to his family. It might be hard as hell to say, but he had to tell them.Even if they do throw him out, at least everyone would have the answers they needed. Of course it would suck if that's what happened but it needed to be done.Cailenwas tired of hiding, of lying and pretending. He's been tired for a while now and he thinks he's finally snapped.He was kind of glad he ended up at Arabella's. He doesn't think he would have realized what he nee
Cailenwas pulled into both the room and William's arms.Williamheld him close, bent over slightly, allowing Cailento fit his head over his shoulder to see Ashersitting on his bed looking atthe floor.Noah was standing beside the bed withhis eyes on Cailen. Matthewwas standing at the end of the bed, arms crossed over his chest, his eyes also directed at him."Why didn't you answer any of us?" Williamdemanded, pulling away from Cailento look at him."My phone died.I'm sorry,"Cailenapologized, trying his best to ignore Noah's knowing stare and Matthew's blank stare. "I'm sorry.""I- We thought you were- running and I didn't know what to do,"Williamsaid quietly, somehow making himself look small even though he towered over Cailen.Williammust be a bit torn between his best friend and his brother and Cailenfelt like shit for putting him in
The room remained silent,but the silence was accompanied by a hand slipping into his and squeezing ever so slightly.When Cailenlooked over to his hand,he recognized William's long fingers and looked up to meet his emerald green eyes, slightly shining but mostly just happy."It's okay,"Williamsaid quietly, smiling at him through shiny eyes. "We love you no matter what,"he repeated Noah's words and he could tell he meant every one of them.Cailenmade a noise at that-a noise that was partly a laugh and partly a sob as Williampulled him into a hug. He really couldn't stop the tears that were soaked up by William's shirt and he thinks that he is not allowed to cry for at least a year after this.He just felt so relieved and happy that it was finally out there and he didn't have to worry about losing anyone.Soon,he felt another body press against his side and two more arms wrap a