Shocking reveals in today's chapter. Did you see any of it coming?
Iāve just busted through my third boxing bag. I wasnāt exactly keeping it together before, but I am man enough to admit Iām a thousand times worse now. I finally felt our bond again, and more than that, I was able to link Mei. I know she heard me because I was pushing into her mind and could hear her thoughts and they shattered my heart into little, tiny pieces. I could feel her having a panic attack ā the worst one to date ā and I was doing my best to calm and coach her from where I was. I felt her relief and happiness when she heard my voice, but it didnāt last long. Her panic only seemed to escalate and soon she was drowning in guilt and shame and then for the first time since we marked each other, she shut me out. Axel was in shock and hasnāt spoken a word since. I admit it hurt; it hurt really fucking badly. To be cut off from her for so long only to have her choose to be cut off, itās an unbearable feeling. That being said, I know why she did it and that just stings the open b
Arthwin was the last to enter so he could close the portal from our side, but I was paying very little attention to him, my eyes were completed focused on our new surroundings. Despite this being my first time here, the sense of familiarity is strong. As I glance around I am instantly reminded of Meiās dream. That little home she lived in was clearly here at the Tian Pack and I have to admit this pack is a wondrous sight.The entire Tian Pack is built on top of a vast lake. Everywhere you look there are stone paths and stone bridges and buildings sitting on the water. Numerous stairs descend into the water itself and small boats float on the waterās surface. Lily pads and baby pink water lilies float delicately along the water, and the strong scent of plum blossom hangs in the air, but not the same as Meiās.Beautiful Chinese buildings with turquoise roofs, red wood and gold detailing make up this entire floating metropolis and every structure is surrounded by the most luscious plum b
No one attempts to stop me as I sprint into the packhouse at top speed, following the pull of my bond to Mei. Iām weaving around people, twisting, and turning down corridors and up numerous stairs; the pull getting stronger the further I go. Soon Meiās sweet, fruity yet floral, plum blossom scent is invading my senses in a heady caress, and I know Iām close. I stop in front of a large door and every cell in my body is screaming that Mei is on the other side of the door. Axel canāt contain himself, and neither can I, but with great effort, I will myself to calm down. I can feel and scent her just on the other side, I can hear her breathing and her heartbeat picking up speed, and I have to tap down my instinct to slam the door open and take her in my arms. I take in a long deep breath and gently knock on the door. Iāve never been so nervous in my whole entire life. āMei, itās Chris, please let me in.ā My voice is so shaky itās bordering on a stutter. I hear her heart kick up a gear, b
Heās here. My Chris is finally with me and itās not a dream. When I felt his vibration I thought maybe Iād finally gone insane. That it had all become too much, and I had lost all shred of my sanity. But then his dragon beard candy scent wafted under the door, and I knew I wasnāt crazy. Every word he uttered pierced my soul. I donāt know if souls are living entities, but if they are, then it felt as though mine was suffocating. I was afraid heād be disgusted by me; that he wouldnāt want me. I feared what feeling our bond would do to him, but all my fear was doing was hurting him, and I never meant to do that. I thought I was protecting him from the ugliness around me, but I was wrong. From the moment I met Chris, heās been this warm, guiding light. It kept the darkness at bay and kept me safe from the cold. Heās pure-hearted, with an endless capacity for love and patience and I canāt help but feel like the darkness around me was tainting him. I didnāt want him to carry that burden;
Chris and I walk hand and hand to the āthrone roomā, and I can feel my armpits sweating with each step I take. I want to see my friends, but Iām also extremely nervous. āIām right here the whole time. If it gets too much juāā āJust let you know and weāre out of there,ā I say cheekily. āI remember the drill,ā I smile up at him. He gives me a loving smile in return and kisses the back of my hand sending electricity up my arm. āIf Iām being too much, tell me.ā I shake my head, āNo. This is exactly what I need. Thank you,ā I say earnestly as I squeeze his large hand between both my small ones. 'I tried to tell him we werenāt being too much,' says Axel in my mind. 'You said absolutely no such thing. You were telling me to turn around and take her back for more snuggling, you big furry liar,' Chris chastises Axel. 'Tattletale,' Axel grumbles, and after what feels like years, I laugh. Hearing their silly bickering has me giggling again like it always used to and immediately I feel the
Setia sure has a set of ovaries on her. I say āovariesā and not āballsā because, letās face it, balls are fragile as fuck. Flick āem wrong and you can bring a man to his knees, even if that man is a mutolupus. We supernatural beings were blessed with many strengths, but super balls werenāt one of them. I definitely cussed too much in front of Mei, which is something I try to avoid doing, but between the Tian Packās Alpha wanting to go to war half-cocked, using Meiās trauma as an excuse for his shit decisions and then Setia wanting alone time with my animai after what happened last time, letās just say it took all my will power not to start throwing punches. Resorting to violence has never been my way, but when it comes to Mei I become a livewire that everyone needs to stay clear of. I was grateful she let me shift so Axel and I could stand guard. I was so proud of the way she spoke up to Setia. Mei usually speaks so timidly, never wanting to speak out of turn, always afraid of sayin
Thereās only one other door in here, and I really hope itās a bathroom. I walk over to the door to the right, peek my head in and to my relief, itās a bathroom. Itās small with brown wood lining the walls and floor. It looks more like a sauna. Even the tub is above ground with brown wood panelling around it. But who really cares? A bath is a bath. I get to work running the water. I find some shampoo, conditioner and body wash and line them up along the edge of the tub. I take a look around as the tub fills up and grab some towels, also placing them on the edge of the tub, and then I manage to find a bathrobe, but itās not the robe Iām after. I grab the tie from around the robe and yank it off. This is going to have to do. Once the tub is filled enough, I turn off the tap. Here goes nothing. I take the tie from the robe and tie it tight around my eyes, instantly plunging myself into darkness. Time to let my other senses do the work for me. This must be what life is like for Yildiz, c
Iāve said it maybe a million times, and Iāll say it a million times more. Chris is the greatest thing to ever happen to me and his kisses are full of healing magic, more than my own healing powers. The things he is willing to do for me go far and beyond anything you could expect from someone, and he never asks for anything in return. Being this close to him gives me the strength I need to push forward. The bond between animais is an amazing thing and I think itās only now that Iām truly understanding it. I feel like Iām hanging on the edge of a cliff, holding on by my fingertips with no way of pulling myself up; just waiting until my fingers give out and I plummet. But then thereās Chris right there reaching his hand out to me. No matter how many times I slip or fall he will always be there to pull me back up. When I begin to panic or feel the walls closing in on me, there he is. Itās not that he takes away the pain or the trauma, but our bond takes the edge off. It gives me a chanc
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āMei?ā I hear Eric ask. I zone back into the conversation; I really need to learn how to stop doing that. āSorry, Eric,ā I say sheepishly. āItās okay,ā he assures me with a kind smile, āNow that I have your attention again, thereās something I wanted to ask you in todayās session.ā āWhatās that?ā I ask curiously. āIn the past couple months youāve interacted with Irshiusts on numerous occasions, but you havenāt once thought to ask them what became of the Alpha and Luna of Albus Mons.ā āThatās not a question,ā I point out. āYouāre right,ā he smiles, āIām just wondering why.ā āBecause I donāt want to. Itās not something I ever think about. They were brought to justice and canāt hurt me or anyone else again, I donāt need to know more than that.ā āDoes that mean youāve forgiven them?ā I feel taken aback by his question. Forgiven them? How can anyone who has done such monstrous things be forgiven? āWhy would I do that?ā I ask warily. āForgiveness isnāt about the other person; itās
I take a deep breath as I eye my target. Everything is resting on what happens next. One wrong move and itās all over for me but Iām not about to let that happen. Iāve come too far to lose now. I watch as the puck glides quickly in my direction and with a quick flick of my wrist, I hit the mallet at the puck sending it across the table where it shoots right into the gap at the end of the table. I throw my arms up in victory and dance around. āOh, come on!ā Vitali exclaims, āThereās no way youāve never played air hockey before. Youāre a devious snake and I think youāre hustling me,ā he accuses, pointing a finger at me. āWhat does hustling mean?ā I ask, stopping my dance to look at him curiously. āIt means heās a sore loser,ā Amelia teases from the couch where she and Marcus are cuddling. āI am not a sore loser, I just find it hard to believe that someone who claims to have never played air hockey has beaten every single one of us,ā he says, narrowing his eyes at me. āI swear Iāve n
There hasnāt been a dull moment since the coronation. Aulen returned and put up a permanent portal between Longsang and Invictus. Mei requested it be placed in a specific room in the palace so that it would be easy to find and prevent anyone from stumbling upon it by accident. My sweet, little Empress is a genius. Amelia followed her lead and requested the other side of the portal open inside the Temple of Morrtemis, again so no one would accidentally find it. Within days of the coronation, several members of the den packed up their belongings and came to live at Invictus. Their new homes arenāt ready yet so in the meantime, theyāre staying in the guest house. Mei and I have been helping them to integrate into the pack. Some pack members ā the troublemakers and the old-fashioned people ā werenāt as welcoming to our new members, but theyāre smart enough to keep their mouths shut. The rest of the pack, however, welcomed the nagata with open arms and have been helping them assimilate, es
After the ceremony, everyone gathered outside and what I saw was like I was seeing colours for the first time. More red lanterns hung from strings reaching from tree to tree and as the sun set they cast a soft red glow over everyone. There were performances, music, and plenty of food to go around. Everyone was together celebrating what just happened and if that wasnāt enough to make me happy, getting to see more of my Chinese heritage in action, was. For fourteen years I never even dared to dream Iād experience a day like this one, and yet now it kind of feels like a dream. A beautiful dream that I never want to wake up from. Logic tells me fate brought me here, it wasnāt an easy journey, and it wasnāt one I wish on anyone else, but boy does getting here feel worth it.Iām sure that sounds crazy. Who could ever feel the horrors Iāve lived through are worth it? But the truth is, those horrors allow me to appreciate all of this so much more. Joy, pleasure, love; I treasure and feel thes
Watching Mei take her oath standing before me looking like a Goddess has me captivated. I hoped and prayed every day and night since we met that she would find her strength and become who she was meant to be. I never knew this was what the future had in store for her, but watching it happen before my eyes, it feels right and as I feel the pride radiating off her, Iām filled with pride for her.I force myself to focus back on Qiang as he begins to address the crowd one more time.āToday is a day of many firsts, for today we not only welcome our new Empress who is the first of her kind, but we welcome our new Emperor, the first mutolupus to govern over our people. To those who may disagree with this, I remind you of our most sacred beliefs. The bond between soulmates is the purest gift of love and strength ever given to us by the Goddess Zarseti. It is through our soulmate we find peace, wholeness, and a pillar for life. The Gods have chosen this man to be not only the pillar for our Em
I canāt believe this is really happening. Iāve spent all day in Nuoās bedroom as she helped me get ready for the ceremony. Iām used to the women back at Invictus helping me get ready for something, but those times took maybe an hour at the most. This, however, has been a day-long process, one Iām very grateful to have had Nuoās help with. Looking at the final result, I no longer recognise myself.My creamy skin is glowing and luminescent from the makeup she did, shaping and accentuating the shape of my eyes while giving them a small cat eye and a dusting of gold on the lids to match the gold lipstick on my lips. My hair has been pulled up and styled into I guess what looks like several buns elegantly tied together and golden clips pinned throughout. I donāt have pierced ears so finding earrings was tricky, but she managed to find a beautiful pair of gold chandelier clip-on earrings, but all of that is nothing compared to the stunning gold embroidered hanfu Iām wearing. The inner layer
Itās one week till the coronation and things have been hectic as hell, although Mei seems to be thriving. Sheās embracing her new role with gusto and watching it is inspirational. Sheās been working closely with Nuo, who is overseeing the entire ceremony. Sheās organised the decorations and what weāll be wearing and teaching Mei and myself the words and customs of the ceremony. Itās a lot more than what I experienced for my Delta ascension and to be honest, Iām getting excited and to top it off itās a crash course in Mandarin. Iām also anxious as hell, but I think it would be weird if I wasnāt. In between learning the words for the ceremony and the ceremony itself Iāve been juggling the fittings for what Iāll be wearing and doing a lot of finance work not just for Invictus but Longsang as well. The people of Longsang know how to be self-sustaining but so much there has been left in squaller because of their selfish prick of an Emperor. Oh sure, he had no issues with buying jets and ex
We had lunch with Qiang and Nuo and then they took us around showing us more of Longsang. Seeing this place as a guest instead of a prisoner helps me to appreciate it more. Longsang is a truly breathtaking place, even Chris was in awe as we walked around. It did give Chris and me a chance to see what changes need to be made. The school here looks like no one has cared about it in years, which makes me sad. It hurts to think there are children here growing up without an education just like I did. The medical centre has definitely seen better days. Everyoneās homes are in good condition because they take care of them themselves, but anything that involves community or public wellbeing has been horribly neglected. When I think Iāve learned all there is to know about Zixinās cruelty I learn something new that devastates me. Nuo, however, told me that my mother loved the school and actually was one of the teachers. Hearing this has made me even more determined to fix this place up and turn