Chapter 5 - Elizabeth

A cop? I’m a con artist posing as a nanny for a fucking cop. What the hell did I get myself into? I can feel the blood leave my face at a dizzying rate. Stay calm. Freaking out won’t do me any good now. I need to hold it the fuck together.

I squeeze my eyes shut. How did I get things so wrong? I wasn’t paying attention, but how did I miss this? Surely that Maggie chick mentioned she was hiring me for her brother.

Her apparently single brother just happens to be irritatingly sexy with that whole dark and brooding thing going on. I can say he doesn’t want me here, that he’s reluctant to accept help, and I’m trying really hard not to find that attractive.

“Have you always been a nanny?” he asks after a beat of awkward silence passes between us.

Sweat rolls down between my breasts.

“No,” I say with a shake of my head. “I was a waitress for a while.” I swallow hard, carefully calculating my next move. It’s not too late to back out and find a family that has money to blow. I could be gone in the morning and put this whole thing behind me. Move onto a bigger and better target.

Or I could stay and actually work as a nanny. You know. Do the job I was hired to do. But that’s not my style.

“How long have you been a cop?” I ask, body going on autopilot.

“A while,” he says me, turning away from the stove just long enough to look at me. “I was in the Army before then, and served two tours in Afghanistan before joining the police force.”

“My brother is in the Army,” I blurt, breaking one of my cardinal rules of don’t get personal. “He’s overseas right now. I haven’t seen him in a few months.”

Jon’s brows push together and his gaze drills into mine. “Next time you talk to him, say him I thank him for his service.”

Suddenly flustered, I bring my hand to my chest, tugging at the T-shirt. Why is it a million degrees in here? “I will.”

“How long has he been in?”

“He joined a year and a half ago and has been somewhere in the Middle East for the last five months. I’m not exactly sure where he is.”

“He probably can’t say you,” Jon goes on, turning back around. His whole demeanor has changed, and I know his mind is taking him back to the days when he was overseas too. I’ve been soured by corrupt cops before, but I have the utmost respect for our military, especially soldiers since Jason is one.

God fucking dammit. Now’s not the time to get a conscience, Scar.

“Edward seems like a great kid,” I say.

“He is.” Jon grabs a wooden spoon from a drawer and stirs the spaghetti. My heart is beating with fury inside my chest, so loud I think it’s going to give me away. I can’t think, I can’t feel. I just need to focus on the job at hand.

And that job is hustling every penny out of Mr. Jonathan Mount that I can.

I sit on the edge of the bed, running a comb through my damp hair. The window is cracked behind me, letting in a cool breeze. Everything is silent. Freakily silent. No one is yelling or drunkenly arguing with a street lamp outside my window. The walls aren’t shaking from the Chicago L going by, and I haven’t heard a single gunshot all night.

It’s eerie as fuck.

Jonathan put Edward to bed a few hours ago, and I basically just watched, getting familiar with their routine. It was pretty standard, I suppose but wasn’t something I’ve seen before.

My own parents didn’t give me the time of day, and I suppose they couldn’t even if they wanted to. Mother was drunk, high, or in jail throughout my youth, and Father didn’t enter the picture until I’d already dropped out of high school in order to take care of Heather and Jason. He stuck around long enough that time for me to go back and graduate the next year.

The family I nannied for in the past didn’t have children out of love, and that love didn’t foster and develop slowly over time as the children aged. I can’t recall a single time either parent went out of their way to do anything for those kids, which only furthered my belief that loving and caring families only exist in movies.

But what happened tonight is shaking everything I’ve built my life on.

After dinner, Jonathan went over letters and numbers with Edward and then gave him a bath. He read him a few books before tucking him in and stayed in the room with him until Edward fell asleep.

Jon might seem a little cold and callous, but there is no denying he loves his son.

Pulling my hair into a braid, I wonder what happened to Edward’s mother. She’s probably dead because I can’t see how anyone could leave that sweet little boy…or that beast of a man.

He’s unlike anyone I usually work with well if you can call what I do work. It enables me to bring home money to pay bills, which is what work is, right? But Jonathan…he’s closed off, and if he even has any weaknesses at all, he’s not going to let me in on them.

I set my brush down and lay back in bed, grabbing a yellow stuffed unicorn. I’ve had the thing for years, and I’m well aware of how weird some people think it is that I’m a grown-ass woman sleeping with a stuffed animal. But the thing brings me comfort, which is something I desperately need most nights. The mattress is comfy, and the quilt is thick and warm. I should be able to pass out, sleeping soundly, but I can’t. I’m unnerved, but I’m not afraid. Jon won’t hurt me, and unless the neighbors actually turn out to be Stepford wives, I’m as safe as I’ve ever been.

After an hour of tossing and turning, I’m risking a run-in with my conscience. Normally, I’d toss down a shot of whatever’s cheapest at the corner liquor store, but I didn’t bring any booze and I can’t exactly go downstairs and start raiding Jonathan’s alcohol stash. Assuming he has one, that is.

Nevertheless, I get up to go downstairs for something to drink. I slowly open my bedroom door and look into the dark hall. Red light from Edward’s nightlight spills into the hall, but he’s not in his bed. I panic for a brief second, thinking I lost the kid my first night on the job, and quickly tiptoe down the hall.

Jonathan’s door is cracked open, and I can just barely make out his form laying in the bed. All rigid and muscular, he’s a hard shape in the dark, and nestled up against his chest is Edward.

I’m fairly certain the kid didn’t have a nightmare. He was still in his bed after I got out of the shower, and the only reason he’s in here, still fast asleep, is because Jonathan went in and got him, not trusting me enough to let Edward sleep in his own room tonight.

Without meaning to, I find myself smiling. Jon is smart. Maybe too smart. The smile wipes off my face fast. I’m one wrong move away from being arrested and thrown into jail. Whatever I do next, I must proceed with caution.

The stairs are creaky, and long shadows are cast on the walls in front of me. Going slow so I don’t trip, I hold my hands out in front of me and feel for the wall leading into the kitchen. I slide my hand up and down it, feeling for the switch.

I pour myself a glass of orange juice and slowly sip it, wishing for some vodka. Sitting at the farmhouse-style table, I look out into the dark backyard. It’s illuminated just enough by the back porch lights to see the outline of a swing set, and the whole yard is enclosed with a white picket fence.

Freaky, indeed.

Finishing my orange juice, I put the glass in the sink and kill the light, taking another minute to stare into the dark and void my mind of all thoughts. Suddenly, the lights flick back on and I jump.

“Jesus!”

“No, not Jesus. Just me.” Jonathan stands in the threshold of the kitchen, eyes narrowed as they adjust to the light. He’s only wearing navy blue boxers and all the self-control in the world can’t keep me from sweeping my gaze across his muscled torso, down to his defined abs, following the happy trail of hair that leads right to his—

“What are you doing?” he asks, diverting his eyes. Looks like I’m not the only one having trouble tonight. I’m wearing white underwear and a gray Columbia University shirt that barely covers the bottom off my ass.

“I came down to get a drink.”

“In the dark?”

“I had the lights on, and then I turned them off.”

Jonathan raises an eyebrow, bringing a hand up to push his hair back. I want nothing more than to run my fingers through it and see if his body feels as hard and chiseled as it looks. I want to slam him up against the wall, putting a crack in that shield he has around himself.

“What are you doing?” I shoot back.

“I heard something.”

“Oh, I didn’t mean to wake you.”

“You didn’t.” He scrubs his chin with his hand.

I go back to the fridge and grab the orange juice again, pouring him a glass. I set it on the table and take a seat. Jon stares at the drink like I just poured poison in a glass and added a skull-and-crossbones warning for good measure.

“Can’t sleep?” He finally takes a step and my god, men like him aren’t supposed to be real. They’re supposed to exist on the cover of romance novels or in magazines, digitally altered and giving us all a negative complex about the way we look.

“No,” I reply.

“I suppose it’s weird being here.”

“A little. It’s very quiet.”

“I’ve never been a fan of big cities.”

“You should go back to bed,” he says, voice gruff again. “It’ll be loud tomorrow once Edward is up.” And without so much as a look back, he crosses the room and disappears up the stairs.

He’s brazen, a little rude, and it unnerves me. Jon Mount is the last person I’d try to con, and not just because he’s a cop. He’s not looking for a hookup. He’s not desperate and needing to prove something to himself.

Though deep down, everyone wants something, and finding out what drives Jon is key to getting what I want. I’ll crack him eventually…as long as he doesn’t crack me first.