I don’t have time to react. One second he’s there, the next he's gone. I hear growling and snarling a few feet away. I have to do something, but I’m frozen with fear.
What can I do? I don’t have a wolf to protect me. I need to run.
Before I can roll over, someone else yanks me out of the truck bed by my arm. I hit the ground hard with a startled yelp.
I’ve had enough junior warrior training to know if I can’t run, I need to defend myself until help arrives. I jump up as quickly as I can. As soon as my feet touch the ground, I throw a combo of punches, combined with a knee kick, into a monster’s bloody ribs.
The thing expertly blocks every shot. It’s as if it already knew I’d come out swinging, but it doesn’t hit back. Why isn’t it hitting me back?
“Leni, what the fuck do you think you’re doing?” Familiar eyes shine through the dripping blood with a snarl.
The monster grabs my wrist before I can pull back from a hard strike to its neck, and twists my hand painfully, bringing me down to my knees.
Wait. How did it know my name?
“OOwwwW!” I howl in pain and glare at the monster. “Let me go!”
It takes a beat for me to look past his bloody appearance. Those eyes. I know who this fucker is.
The coagulated blood he’s covered head to toe in isn’t blood at all. It’s the red mud of the Blood River. The natural iron deposits make the water blood red. It’s so potent that it turns the mud on the river banks blood red as well.
“Bronx?!” I gasp at my brother. “What am I doing? What the fuck are YOU doing?”
“They assigned us a shift as guards for this sector and we heard… noises.”
His scowl tells me everything I need to know. I feel my face flush. My brother caught me having sex with my boyfriend. How can I get out of this?!
“We?” Who else is he talking about?
I turn my attention to a playful growl behind Bronx and gasp. Bronx’s best friend, Milo Stone, has Marco in a headlock on the ground a few yards away.
Marco has his hands raised in surrender. Milo, a perpetual dunce, looks like he’s having a blast trying to choke Marco out. Marco outweighs Milo by at least fifty pounds, but Clash won’t let him attack his Beta Scion.
“It’s time to go home, Leni.” Bronx impatiently secures the blanket from the truck around my body and tugs on my arm again, bringing me back to standing.
“No! Let Marco go and leave us alone!” My embarrassment fades, replaced by anger. “Milo! Get off of him!”
I pull my arm away from Bronx and jut my chin out. My brother intimidates most people. Not me though. He can kiss my ass. “Why are you harassing us? Don’t you have better shit to do?”
“Saving my little sister’s dignity hardly counts as harassment, Leni.” He snarls and wipes his hands over his face to clear mud from his eyes. “You don’t even know if he’s your mate.”
My jaw drops. “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me, Bronx! My DIGNITY is none of your damn business!”
“Well, Dad is on his way. He’ll probably disagree with you.” Bronx folds his muddy arms over himself.
“YOU MINDLINKED DAD! You’re an asshole, Bronx. Grade A, capital oh, asshole.” I shove him, but I may as well have hit a brick wall. I’m five feet ten inches tall, but Bronx is six foot six inches. He has well over a hundred pounds on me.
“Leni, knock it off. We’ll deal with Sanchez. It’s time for you to go home.”
“Fuck off, Bronx.” I rush over to Milo. He's laughing like a damn hyena at Marco, who is struggling to break free of the choke hold before he passes out. I pull on Milo’s arm, getting leverage with my foot against his ribs. “Milo, let Marco go! NOW!”
Milo slides off Marco’s back and leans back on his hands casually, as if he wasn’t trying to murder my boyfriend for the fun of it two seconds ago. He keeps his leg draped over Marco’s back and bobs his foot in the air like he’s bored.
“Leni, why are you always so damn serious?” He smirks at me. “We were just fucking around. Marco can take a joke. Can’t ya, big guy? Nothin’ wrong with gettin’ your dick wet now and then. Right?”
Marco groans and coughs, grabbing his throat as he sucks in fresh air. There’s conflict in his eyes. If Milo wasn’t a future ranked member of our pack, he would already be dead.
Have you ever wanted to punch someone in the face? No warning, no explanation, or justification needed. Just haul off and throw your full weight into it? Enough to feel the satisfaction of bones crunching under your fist? That’s how I feel right now.
My wolf’s not awake yet. There’s no one to stop me. I step toward Milo, but Marco climbs onto one knee and grabs my hip through the blanket. “Leni, don’t. Let’s just leave.”
“Go fuck around somewhere else, Milo.” I help Marco off the ground and turn for the truck, but it’s too late. I can already hear the heavy paws of Dad’s wolf. “Shit! Marco, come on!”
“Why? You in a hurry, Leni? Mace is gonna be here any second. I bet he’d hate to miss out on seeing ya.” Milo wags his finger at me with an annoying grin.
I feel myself go pale as Dad’s wolf charges out of the woods into the clearing. I take a step back, but I can’t run. He would catch me in three strides.
“Mace, this isn’t what it looks like. Bronx has it wrong. I swear. Nothing happened.”
“Leni-” Marco steps forward, putting himself between me and Dad’s giant gray wolf.
Mace lowers his head with a rumbling growl, making all of us bow and show him our necks in submission. My knees shake under the blanket when I hear him shifting into human form.
“Alpha, sir, it’s not her fault. I br-”
“Shut it, Sanchez. Bronx, Milo, get him out of here.” Dad’s gruff voice booms. “Lieutenant Fortier is at the bottom of the mountain waiting for you.”
I don’t dare lift my head up. Dad’s anger hits me like a tidal wave, warning me to be still.
Marco’s bare feet walk away silently, except for the crunching of twigs below him. The sounds of people shifting to wolf form fill my ears. I swallow hard when I hear them take off down the mountain. The silence in the space between my father and me could hold galaxies.
My mind races so fast it feels like it might short circuit. What if I never see Marco again? My heart constricts. Nine months. What if he never makes it back? I’ll never forgive my brother for this. Never.
“Get in the truck.” Dad’s tone is deadly calm. He grabs Marco’s shorts out of the bed of the truck and puts them on, then opens the passenger door and waits for me to move.
I finally look up at him. “Dad, I-”
“Get. In. NOW!”
Shit.
I climb into the passenger seat and tighten the blanket around my body, trying to make myself as small as possible.
Dad slams the door so hard it makes me jump. I keep my head down, but flick my eyes up. He stomps in front of the truck and gets in the driver’s side, slamming his door closed. I can feel his anger when he revs the engine before he pulls out of the makeshift parking spot, down the unpaved path.
Disappointing my father is one of the worst things I can think of, yet here I am. If I open my mouth right now, I would choke on the tension in the air. It would be less painful if he just stabbed me through the heart.
After an uncomfortable minute of silence, I finally speak. Otherwise, it’s going to be a excruciating twenty minutes back to the packhouse.
“I’m sorry, Dad.” My voice sounds tiny under the noise of the engine. He doesn’t even blink. I shift uncomfortably in the seat and clear my throat. Maybe he didn’t hear me. “Dad, I said I’m sorry. Please say something.”
He doesn’t look at me, but he rubs his hand over his face and half snorts, half growls through his nose. The truck stops short, making me throw my hands out to catch myself. Dad puts it in park and gets out. I watch him stomp to the passenger side door and swing it open.
He points into the woods. “Out.”
“Out?” I look behind him into the dark, thick woods suspiciously. “Here?”
He puts his hands on his hips and leans on the edge of the door, raising his eyebrows dangerously. “Would you like me to MAKE you get out?”
“No, Sir.” I lower my head and slide off of the seat.
As soon as my feet touch the ground, Dad grabs my upper arm and drags me down a non-existent path into the thickest part of the woods. He pushes me down onto a large, flat boulder. “Sit.”
I let myself fall onto the rock and look at him with a furrowed brow. He has never grabbed me like that. I get that he’s mad, but he’s making a huge deal out of this. He paces for a moment, then fixes his glare on me. His stare is full of daggers, making me turn my eyes down.
“Is there any chance that you’re pregnant?”
“Dad!”“Don’t ‘Dad’ me. You reek of sex, Leni. I don’t smell blood, so I’m going to assume it isn’t your first time. Is there any chance you’re pregnant? Be honest.”“No.” I say with a defiant growl.“Sass me again and it may be the last thing you do, Lenora Jane Mason.”No one calls me by my real name. Everyone calls me Leni. Dad has only used my FULL name twice in my life before. Once when I was ten and I told Bronx I hated him and once when I skipped school to go to the mall with Ashley after she got her driver’s license. I shrink back and soften my tone. “Dad, I’m not pregnant. W-we’re careful.”“I need you to be one hundred percent certain, Lenora.” He says with anger and disappointment mixed in his voice.I’m not sure what kind of answer he’s looking for more than a simple ‘no’. How detailed am I supposed to get? The more I say, the more likely he’s going to shift and go murder Marco before Bronx gets him to the packhouse. “A hundred percent certain? We use protection every ti
“Leni? It’s Ashley. Can I come in?” The soft knock on my bedroom door is unwelcome. Ashley isn’t the one I’m angry at, though. I roll over, staring at the door. Should I answer her? I guess I should. She knows I’m in here. “Come on, nerd. I brought you luu-unnnch… it’s a ham sandwich with diii-jjjoooon… on a crois-aaannnt.” Her voice gets higher pitched with a sing-song tone. “Carly snagged some jalapeno kettle chips, tooooo!” I can’t help but smile. Ashley loves making people happy. Of course, she would bring my favorite food. The fact that she got our friend Carly involved makes it that much more her style. “Come in, Ash.” I sit up and rub my eyes. They still feel puffy. My nose is completely stuffed and my throat is raw. Mom didn’t say a word to me when Dad dragged me into the apartment. She just stood by my bedroom with her arms crossed, glaring at me until I closed the door. She and Dad had a hushed conversation about what happened, and he left again. I didn’t really sleep a
— Flashback— “All of our intel shows they’re gathering traction with the propaganda they are feeding the locals in Eastern European villages. Larger packs are being influenced as well. We have to act now or war is imminent.” Daddy walks back and forth. He sounds angry. “Mama, why’s Daddy mad?” I pull on her shirt, but she doesn’t look at me. “Mike, you sent for the kids?” Mama interrupts him. He stops talking and gives Mama lovey dovey eyes. That’s what my big brother calls it. I bet if those old men weren’t here, Daddy would give Mama a big kiss. Then Bronx and I would say EEEWWWW! Then Daddy’s wolf would chase us away. “Gentlemen, you all know my Luna Regent, Sandy. Most of you have met my son Bronx, but only a few have met my daughter Lenora.” Daddy picks me up and kisses my cheek. I try to show him the picture I drawed of me and Mace, but he doesn’t look. “Say hello to the Elder Council, my sweet girl.” “Daddy! Loooook!” I hold my picture up higher. I don’t want to say hell
“Leni, time to wake up.” Mom rubs circles on my back through the covers. “Happy birthday, honey. I didn’t get to speak to you last night before Saint took you home. How do you feel?” “Sore.” I groan into my pillow. “That can happen after your first shift.” She tugs playfully on my ponytail. I hate when she tries to pretend everything is hunky dory when it’s not. She and Dad always preach telling the truth, but the last couple of days have shown me they hide the truth more than anyone I know. “Your wolf will heal you. I saw how beautiful her white and tan coat was when you shifted. What’s her name?” “Her name is Justice.” I lift my head and squint in the bright room. “What about my back?” “Ahh, what a wonderful name.” Mom quips, then pauses. “What about your back? What happened?” “Bronx pushed me and I hurt my tailbone yesterday. It still hurts.” “Well, I’m sure whatever happened with your brother was an accident.” She dismisses the incident. “It doesn’t matter if it was an ac
Milo’s eyes flash to black and Ghost growls dangerously. “Mate.” I suddenly feel like prey. I take a slow step back from the menacing wolf. Can I get in my room fast enough to close the door? As if he was reading my mind, he grabs my arm and yanks me to his chest. His razor-sharp claws grow out of Milo’s fingernails and dig painfully into my arm. He buries his nose into the crook of my neck, breathing in my scent. My feet are glued to the spot, but I want to run away. At the same time, I feel like I want to stay here with him. I want to be closer to him. What am I talking about? Marco Sanchez is supposed to be my mate. I hate Milo Stone and he's currently assaulting me! “MILO, STOP!” I cry out and push on his chest. “LET ME GO!” “Mmm.” Justice coos. “He’s so romantic.” “Justice, it’s not ROMANTIC! He’s ATTACKING ME! Do something!” I scream at her. “Say ‘mate’. He’ll calm down.” She muses, as if she is completely unaware that blood is pouring out of my arm. “You need to acc
Mom helps me into my room and lays me on my bed. I don’t think I could manage to do anything else, even if they ordered me to.I hear the howls of the pack saluting the warriors as they leave. I try to howl with them, but I can’t stop crying. I clutch my aching heart and whisper a prayer to the Moon Goddess to forgive me and to send my mate back safely.Ashley appears in front of my face. She’s even more of a mess than she was earlier.I lift the covers and she joins me, back in the faux safety of my duvet fortress. Justice and Zinnia sulk along with us. We stop pretending like we’re going to be okay and cry ourselves to sleep. Everyone leaves us alone. Someone knocks on the door around dinnertime. They slide a tray of food into the room, but don’t come inside. Ashley crawls out of bed and takes a few bites, then abandons it. She comes back to bed so we can console each other until we cry ourselves back to sleep.Justice wakes me up when Dad comes in the middle of the night. He kisses
“Lenora, this brownie is delicious. Are you sure you don’t want a bite?” Ashley mumbles with her mouth still full.“Bitch, you’re worried about a brownie right now?” I push open the garage access door. “I’m wondering how we’re going to figure out where Milo’s car is?”I have no clue where to begin because the pack garage is massive. Three levels are the entire footprint of the packhouse.“You mean YOUR car? He gave it to you as a gift.” She slows down and looks up and down the aisles. “What would he have bought you for your birthday if you weren’t mates?”“He wouldn’t have got me anything. I don’t think he even knows when my birthday is.” I shrug. “Before today, I’m sure I was just Bronx’s little sister. I’ve only ever thought of him as Bronx’s obnoxious friend.”“Let’s seeeee…” Ashley turns in a circle while she walks. “His parents are Betas, so it makes sense for it to be on the first floor? The second floor only has pack fleet cars. Then again, he was away for six months and he’s al
“ASHLEY! Hold on!” I grip the wheel tighter and swerve into the wrong lane to avoid the collision. There’s too much traffic. A minivan is going to hit us head on. I jerk back too soon. The front corner of the third police car hits Ashley’s door. Her window shatters into a million pieces. She screams and puts her arms up to protect her head. We bounce off the front of the cruiser and hit the side of the minivan. “Don’t stop, Lenora!” Justice commands. “Keep going!” I press my back into the seat and turn the wheel until I’m able to straighten out the car. When I have control again, I look in the rearview mirror. The two police cars that were chasing us are still close behind me. “Shit shit shit!” I look forward, focusing on not hitting any more cars. “Ashley, are you okay?” “I think so?” She looks up with blood trickling down her face. “Lenora? What happened? Are you okay?” Dad asks. “Dad, another police car just hit us! And I-I hit a car. I don’t know if they’re okay. What shou
“Did you talk to Bronx?” I ask while looking in the vanity mirror.“Lenora!” Justice yelps out of nowhere, scaring the shit out of me.I grab my chest to calm my heart. “Justice, Codi is fine. She’s sound asleep in her crib. Anne is going to stay with her.”“It’s not that. Well, it is, but… something’s happening. I can sense it.”I try to calm myself as I weave my fingers through my hair. “We’ve spoken to Doctor Berra about this. If there’s something wrong, we need to talk it out, not freak out. So, what do you sense? I’ll try to help.”“If I knew I would tell you, child. It feels like-” She gets ready to go into a rant, but gets interrupted.“Yeah, I spoke to him when we were lifting yesterday.” Milo replies from the bedroom. “He hasn’t talked to Kas about your goddess stuff yet. He doesn’t know how to break it to her, so he’s been avoiding her, I guess. It sounded like it was really stressing him out.”“And she thinks he’s fucking around on her.” I mutter under my breath while smoot
Lenora’s POV“You see?” Musu puts her hands on her knees and pants. “A few hard workouts every week are all you need. No?”I lower myself to the floor with a groan and roll onto my back. “I don’t know about that, but I’m definitely too tired to worry anymore. I guess now that my back doesn’t hurt, I have to make up for lost time.”It’s been over a month since I tried to explain to Milo why Randall criticizing me was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Between Justice trying to stop me and Ghost… Well, I don’t know if Ghost was trying to protect our secret from Milo or if he truly doesn’t understand the gravity of the continuation of my life, but I failed miserably at trying to explain. Justice has even resorted to ignoring me unless she absolutely has to engage with me.When I got back from checking on Musu, Milo began to treat me differently. It’s like he was actually noticing me for the first time in a long time. He has been extra sweet and thoughtful. More than usual, I mean. He
Milo’s POV“I expect better from you, Bronx.” I let Ghost snarl at him. “Fuck off.” He murmurs with glazed eyes from the gurney.I don’t care that we had to drag him down to the hospital wing to be sedated. He’s gonna get an earful from me. He hasn’t been taking care of himself. He’s gotten angry with MasonCo employees for no reason and handing down unnecessary write ups to directors for various departments in the pack. The past few weeks, he has been more and more irritable. I know for a fact he’s been making excuses and dodging his therapy appointments. I bet he hasn’t been taking his medications either.He even left Codi’s birthday party early when his mom mentioned she was looking forward to Bronx and Kas giving Codi cousins to be best friends with. Kas laughed it off about it not being the right time for them to start a family because Bronx is so busy he couldn’t even stay for the entire party, but you could see how much it upset her that he walked out. I’ve also seen him brush
“As you know, the Goddess Project is funded with Council historical research funds and a MasonCo private client project. From a business aspect, what we have found so far, we consider a success. From a personal aspect, I cannot begin to express my disappointment in what we have found.” Bronx lowers his chin and looks around the room.“Disappointment?” Elder Karthik picks up his folder. “What do you mean?”“When you see the footage, you’ll understand.” I make eye contact with as many Elders that will look at me. I make a mental note that the ones who won’t make eye contact also happen to be on one of Randall’s ledgers.“We’ve included dossiers on the women we have confirmed in your folders. The details that we cannot confirm are from new individuals or the women we have found already are on a separate punch list. We are working on either matching them up to one of our suspects or identifying a new one.” Bronx looks around the room at the Council and motions to Elder Henri. “My Betas an
Lenora’s POV“Milo, get the camera!” I gasp. “Hurry! Come on, Codi. You can do it, my big girl!”“Mamamama mmmama!” She squeals and lets go of the side of the sofa.I want to reach out and grab her before she falls, but her pediatrician says to let her try to do things on her own.Doctor Berra told me she understands why it’s so hard to let our children become independent, but I don’t think she understands at all. She says bumps and bruises are a part of our pups growing up. I thought I wouldn’t be around to kiss every one of them.Ghost, Justice, and I are the only ones who know that I shouldn’t even be here to watch my baby girl wobbling next to the coffee table. He doesn’t seem to understand the significance of my presence after her birth, though. He’s just grateful that I didn’t die. I’m not supposed to be alive to watch her gripping onto the tiger rattle and flailing her arms with a huge smile while her daddy cheers her on as she takes her first step… and her next… and her next…
Musu’s POV“If you have photos or videos-” I tap my fingers on the keyboard.His muffled voice sounds like he’s speaking to someone else.“Ilya, I will hang up and remove you from my call list if you don’t take this seriously.”“My apologies, Miss Goba.” His gruff voice is thick with phlegm. The sound of it makes my stomach churn. “I just got another tip for you.”I roll my eyes in frustration. I hate this part of my job. Greedy, underhanded, low life creatures. That’s who I have to work with to get what I need. I suppose it could be because he’s part warthog, but I believe it is more because he’s a chauvinist pig. If Marco ever found out the things Ilya had proposed to me, he would find himself squealing, not me. That much I am certain of.“This man is a fraud, Musu.” My wolf Mercy is ready to hang up. “Move on.”“I need to know you are good for the money.” Ilya snorts.“I’m done with these games, Ilya. You already know my employer has deep pockets for useful information.” I let my a
Kas turns on the nightstand lights in my bedroom and turns off the overhead light while I wait impatiently for her to be ready. Her movements remind me of a bird who can’t decide which branch to sit on. When the lighting is just right, she looks around the room and breathes a sigh of relief.“Okay, Lenora. I’m just going to place one hand by your tailbone and the other on the middle of your back. All you need to do is close your eyes and clear your mind.” She smiles at me with shining violet eyes as she mimics the placement of her hands in the air. “It won’t take long. Fifteen minutes tops.”I take a deep breath and shake my hands out. “Okay. So, just sit cross-legged on the floor?”“If that’s the most comfortable position for you. I just need to put my hands on your back.” Kas gently pulls me down. “This won’t be like when I helped you and Codi. It should feel… relaxing. Some people say they feel a warmth spread out from my hands, so that’s not unusual, but if you feel any pain say s
“Oh! That must be my mom. She’s bringing snacks.” Carly hops up to open the door.I roll my eyes, but deep down I appreciate the effort she’s put into making me feel comfortable while Milo is out of town. I groan as I stand up, feeling the strain on my lower back. Justice slipped when we were conducting perimeter inspections earlier in the day. Even with as fast as she can heal me, aggravating the old injury takes longer for the pain to subside.“Sorry, child.” Justice frowns. “I should have been more careful.”“It’s alright, Justice. Neither of us could have known how easily that bit of river bank would give way.” I secure Codi in her bouncy chair and let her kick her legs happily so I can greet people.“Hello Beta!” Mrs. Miller comes in with one of her employees, carrying several giant platters covered with lids. “I put a little of everything for you ladies. Hot wings, salami, cheese, crackers, fruit and dip, chips, salsa, guacamole… Oh, popcorn. Extra butter, salt, and garlic. Just
“I think I cracked it, Sugar!” Milo bursts into my office with his arms raised in victory.Musu turns to look at him and tilts her head. “Good morning, Beta.”“Oh. Sorry.” He drops his arms. “I didn’t realize you ladies were meeting right now.”“It’s alright, Milo. We were just talking about Paars. Musu is going to look through Bronx’s library and see if she can find anything helpful.”“Look for Paars in the history books?” He stops short and tilts his head. “You think she has something to do with the Menae?”“I think a female wolf who makes people sick just by being around them is something to consider. Oh, Alpha Lowe left me a voicemail. She skipped town like she said she would. Gone with the wind.” I sit back in my seat and fold my arms over myself. Having to keep everything Justice has told me a secret is so frustrating. “Musu, I think we’re done for the day. If you come up with anything, please let me know.”“Of course, Beta.” She stands and bows. “Beta Milo, it was good to see y