LOGINCaroline After watching the hockey game, I’m still sitting on the bleachers. Rebel and Alice have left, but I’m waiting for Andrew to come and find me. My heart is pounding in my chest, and as soon as I hear a door open to my left, I realize that it’s now or never. I have to tell Andrew how I fee
Caroline Shame fills me when I look down from my seat in the ice arena. I'm here to watch Andrew's game, but so are Rebel and Alice. They are sitting a few rows below and shooting glances that fill me with guilt. I'm a terrible friend. Rebel had her operation recently. I never went to visit her
Caroline It feels weird sleeping in the same bed as Andrew. After the drama with Jonatan, Andrew refused to go home, and we fell asleep watching a movie. The problem is that I jerked awake again, and now my heart won't stop racing because my ex-boyfriend is cuddling with me. I glance to the side w
Caroline This must be hell. Andrew gave me time to think about us, and I didn't have it in me to turn him down right away. I will turn him down, but I will pretend to think about it to make him happy. In my world, that is giving someone false hope, but Andrew doesn't seem to agree. He is happy I
And what the hell, I didn't know he still liked me?! "Andrew... we were toxic together. All we ever did was fight and have makeup sex. Then we fought again. It was destroying us both. So no, I don't miss us at all." I'm a liar. I miss us, and we both know it. Andrew and I had bad days, but when he
Caroline "Take this pea package and hold it against your eye," I give the package to Andrew. He is sitting on a chair in my kitchen, shirtless because his t-shirt is red from his bleeding nose. Jonatan punched him in the face, which wasn't smart. Out of the two, my hockey friend is the better fig
Rebel My eyes widen when Alex tells me his real name, and suddenly, I'm having this eureka moment. Faster than lightning, I'm putting all the pieces together one by one! Yesterday on the phone, Logan told me that a girl had turned him down for being too nerdy in the past. I did that to a guy last
Rebel Call it love at first sight or second sight—whatever. All I know is that I think my heart might already belong to Logan. You should never judge a book by its cover; Logan is a big fellow and quite scary looking. Being carried by the brute was a surprise. I thought people would laugh at us,
Logan After ordering me a cinnamon roll, Rebel is sucking liquid through a red and white straw. She ordered an iced coffee not long ago and seems more at ease than when I first sat down. We have talked about random things for an hour. On the surface, platonic questions, but now the conversation i
Rebel After I've spoken, silence falls, but it's not a comfortable one. It feels like knives are poking holes into my heart. Logan hasn't said a word. It makes this even harder. Truthfully, I don't want him to leave. Not when I'm so lonely in my suffering. This stupid cancer is tearing me apart.







