Chapter 60

Hope

I still didn't know how I'd managed to live through my 31-day post-Killian syndrome but for the past four weeks, everything hurt.

Fast forward to two weeks back when I had decided to move out of my mum's house.

I tried not to be bitter about how easily she had forgiven Killian and asked me to go back to him. I couldn't blame her for it. She'd always been conversational and believed a woman ought to remain with her husband at all times.

I wondered if that ideology would've changed if I had explained to her how he'd slapped my bottom so hard and wicked that they were sore for weeks.

God, I should hate him, but the truth was, I didn't. I couldn't, not with the way he occupied my thoughts.

I couldn't even escape him in my dreams. Torturous memories flashed through my mind every night and it didn't help that I'd forgotten my vibrators back at his place.

Nonetheless, I knew I still loved him more than he was capable of ever loving me back and a lopsided relationship would destroy m