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~Ava's pov~After leaving Logan's apartment,the air outside was cold but I barely noticed as I dragged my bag down the apartment steps. Every step felt heavier than the last, something inside me was resisting the urge to turn back and go back to Logan.But I couldn't.Not after everything that happened.I needed time to sort out my life first.I tightened my grip on my duffle bag forcing myself to focus on the road ahead. Charlotte's apartment was only a few minutes' ride away and she had been more willing and ecstatic about me crashing at her place until I figured things out.It was the right decision.The smart one!So why did it feel like I was walking away from something that I wasn't ready to let go of?โBecause a part of you wanted him to stop youI might be going insane!.I clenched my jaw, willing the thought away. Logan didn't stop me. He let me go .That alone should be enough proof of where we stood.I called a cab and waited, my heart beating fast against my ribs. My finge
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~Logan's pov~The apartment was a mess not in the way of scattered clothes or dirty dishes around,no! That kind of mess didn't bother me. This was a different kind of mess,the silence was suffocating,the apartment was empty, the emptiness suffocated me in a way I wasn't used to.Ava was gone. I should have seen it coming but now that she has already left, I don't feel good now.I ran a hand through my hair,my grip tightening at the roots. This was ridiculous. I had no right to feel this way towards her but I couldn't help myself.But I knew better! My kind of life didn't allow me to have the privilege of letting someone inโฆ not until my father is out of the picture.A sharp knock on the door. Yanked me out from my wandering thoughts.Who's it now?With a heavy sigh I pushed myself from the couch and made my way to the door. Levi stood there,arms crossed eyebrows raised in amusement.Levi looked exactly like me, he's my younger brother but we've always treated each other like twins. O
Last Updated : 2025-03-17Against the rules ย ย ย "Go out with me"
Ava's povโHurry up Ava! You're going to be late again" Charlotte yelled from her room.โGirl, chill out! I'm done" I said carrying my bag and exited the room. I had an early shift at the diner today, Debra had called me earlier today.โI'll see you later right? Or are you going out with Tristan again? I asked herShe grinned, she always does that whenever we're talking about Tristan. She's love sick I swear." Yeah! We're going out and I might actually spend a night at his apartment. You knowโฆ maybe rekindle our love..โ" Please! Spare me the details char! I don't need to know your love life with Tristan, it's grossโ. I covered my ears Even though she didn't say anything bad but I wanted to tease her.Charlotte laughed" okay Ava! Don't be dramatic,but everything is set, there's food in the kitchen and everything,so you don't need to worryโ.I nodded " I'll be fine char,now I'm gonna go see you tomorrowโ I reached the door and turned to her ,I waved at her then exited the room.I call
Last Updated : 2025-03-19Against the rules ย ย ย "Just one date"
~Avaโs POV~I stood there frozen, did Logan Carter just ask me on a date?. my heart beating faster against my chest so loudly that I was sure Logan could hear it. He had just asked me out. Logan Carter; the cocky, arrogant, undeniably gorgeous football player had just asked me on a date.My lips still tingled from his kiss, and my brain was struggling to keep up with everything that had just happened. It seemed like I was sent into a frenzy.โIโฆโ My voice came out hoarse, and I cleared my throat. That was so embarrassing! โI donโt know what to say.โLoganโs eyes searched mine, his brows slightly furrowed like he was preparing himself for rejection. โYou could start by saying yes,โ he said, attempting his usual smirk, but it didnโt quite reach his eyes. He was scared.I exhaled loudly, stepping back slightly, needing space to think, because every time he's near me I seem to lose all my abilities to think. Logan wasnโt just some guy asking me out. He was Logan Westbridge Universi
Last Updated : 2025-03-20Against the rules ย ย ย Arcade date
Ava's povThe next day, Charlotte nearly choked on her cereal when I told her about what happened with Logan."You did what?" She gaped at me from across the kitchen table."I said yes to a date with Logan," I muttered, sipping my coffee, trying to sound casual but inside I was freaking out.Charlotte slammed her spoon down. "Ava! This is huge! Logan doesnโt date. He flirts, he hooks up, and then he moves on."I winced. "Thanks for the reminder.""But," she continued, pointing her spoon at me, "he likes you. Like, actually likes you. I seen the way he looked at you everytime."I frowned. "What do you mean?"Charlotte smirked. "Ava, that boy is whipped. He is glaring at any guy who so much as glanced in your direction whenever you aren't looking. It is so hilarious."I blinked. Loganโฆ jealous? That didnโt seem like him. Am I too dense to understand anything?Before I could overthink it, my phone buzzed.Logan: Be ready at 7. Iโm picking you up.I stared at the message, my stomach flip
Last Updated : 2025-03-20Against the rules ย ย ย He's different now
Avaโs POVThe night air was cool as Logan and I walked side by side, the quiet sounds of the city enveloping around us. My fingers curled around the plush wolf heโd tried so hard to win, and I couldnโt help but smile.โSo, whatโs next?โ Logan asked, tossing the last of his fries into his mouth.I raised an eyebrow. โNext? Itโs almost midnight, Carter.โโAnd?โ He smirked. โScared to stay out late?โI rolled my eyes. โI have work tomorrow, unlike you.โLogan placed a hand over his heart, feigning offense. โAre you calling me unemployed?โI gave him a pointed look. โYou literally donโt have a job.โโTechnically, I do.โ He grinned. โI play football. Thatโs a job.โโFootball isnโt a job, itโs a sport,โ I shot back.โA sport I get paid for,โ he countered.I groaned. โYou get scholarship money for it. Thatโs different.โLogan shrugged. โDetails, details.โI shook my head, but I was smiling. Being around him was easy, even when we were arguing.We walked a little longer until we reached a sma
Last Updated : 2025-03-24Against the rules ย ย ย Reminder
Loganโs POVThe gym was empty except for the sound of my fists slamming into the punching bag. Each hit sent a sharp ache up my arm, but I welcomed the pain. It was better than thinking. Better than remembering.After last night, after seeing her, I hadnโt been able to get Ava out of my damn head. The way she looked at me like she saw me for the first time had messed me up more than I wanted to admit.I landed another punch, breathing hard.โYou trying to kill the bag or yourself?โI turned to see Aaron leaning against the doorway, arms crossed, his usual cocky smirk in place.What the fuck does he want?I rolled my shoulders. โWhat do you want?โHe strolled in, tossing a football between his hands. โI think you know.โI grabbed my towel, wiping the sweat from my face. โNot in the mood, man.โAaron let out a mock gasp. โNot in the mood? Thatโs funny because last time I checked, you had plenty of motivation.โI clenched my jaw. โDrop it.โHe grinned. โCome on, Logan. Donโt tell me you
Last Updated : 2025-03-24Against the rules ย ย ย My own place
Avaโs POVThe first thing I did when my salary hit my account was stare at my phone screen in disbelief.$2,000.I wasnโt used to seeing that much money in my account at once. I knew it wouldnโt last long rent, groceries, and bills would take a huge part but for now, I let myself have a moment to feel proud.Iโd earned this.The second thing I did was text Charlotte.Me: Weโre going apartment hunting today.Charlotte: OMG FINALLY! Iโm grabbing coffee. Meet me at campus in 20 minutes!I barely had time to pull on a decent outfit before running out the door. The sun was bright, and for the first time in a while, I felt like things were coming together.I was getting out of Charlotte apartment giving her a space with her boyfriend.โOkay, so I did some research,โ Charlotte said, sliding into the booth across from me at the campus cafรฉ. She had two coffees in her hands one for her, one for me. โI found a few places that are actually within budget.โI took the coffee gratefully. โHow much
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