I wake up feeling like I've done some sort of marathon. My whole body aches, I feel weak and like part of myself is missing. Guilt fills me, knowing I'm feeling like this because of that pill and that probably means I was pregnant and my body is working on getting rid of the baby. I didn't think I'd feel like this, I certainly wasn't ready for a baby, but now I wish I could take it back.I whisper apologies to my stomach, as if the baby might somehow be able to hear me, praying to whoever is out there to somehow save my baby, regardless of what it might mean for me.Getting up proves difficult, but I drag myself into the shower, then back into my room to focus on the notes of dreams. I'm so thankful Gale wrote them down now, but it's still weird knowing these are memories of a life I don't remember.Darius brings me food and sits with me for a while, asking if I'm ok because I look pale, but I just pretend I didn't sleep well and eventually he leaves when Merida makes an appearance.
It's obvious something is wrong the moment I step across the border into the packlands. Two many wolves are patrolling the borders and when they see me, their eyes go wide and they scatter like flies, disappearing from my sight.My stomach becomes heavy, not wanting to consider the main reason they would be avoiding me, but I speed up anyway, knowing it'll be at least another hour before I reach the packhouse, even running.If Kade were here, he'd be able to mindlink, but it'll be tomorrow at the very earliest before he arrives, so my only hope is to meet someone who'll be brave enough to tell me why there's a morose atmosphere across the pack.After the group of patrol wolves, I don't see a soul the entire time it takes me to get back and my suspicions and anxiety are at their highest. My father's office door is closed but I'm headed upstairs anyway, straight to her room and, finding it empty, I go to mine and then each of her friends in turn.No one's seen her for hours and despite
"Run, run as fast as you can, you can't catch me, I'm faster than you." I cackle, sprinting ahead and aiming for the dense woodland, knowing that Cain will struggle to get through them as quickly as I can.I dive into a hole in a tree, backing up as far as possible and holding my hand over my face to cover the sound of my breathing.His heavy footsteps get closer and I have to resist the urge to giggle as he stomps past my hideout."Come out, come out wherever you are." He taunts, stopping to listen for any noise. Suddenly, I feel two hands grab me under the arms and lift me through the roots above me."I found you, little red." He grins, his eyes twinkling with amusement."Oh, Mr big bad wolf, what sharp teeth you have." The ring on my left hand sparkles in the fading light as I use my thumb to expose his beautiful white teeth."Mmmm, all the better to eat you." He smirks, tugging me close and whispering in my ear. "Let me demonstrate before the woodsmen ruins our fun."His lips mee
Her eyes meet mine and I refuse to believe she's telling the truth, but when I look around, I'm not sure I can everyone else is as confident as me. What she's said, what she's implying, that my Flame, my mate could be a traitor, no, she wouldn't. "Liar." It only takes a few seconds for my emotions to boil over, the wolfsbane seems to burn away instantly and Kade is pushing through to snarl at my mate's sister. "I'm sorry, Cain." She drops her head submissively and now I know she's lying. Too confident I would never hurt her for Flame's sake, she's one of the few who have never bowed to me before, so this act she's got on… I'm not sure what she's playing at but I refuse to believe her. She starts to babble on about what Flame did, how she almost orchestrated Chloe's death and I can see Jaden getting more and more worked up over the death of his mate. "Wait." My father's voice seeps into my mind when I'm about to silence Merida. "I know you're angry, but let the girl trip herself up
I convinced June I was tired and needed to sleep so I could be alone as soon as possible, but she was so worried about me after the whole debacle with the doctor she stayed for about an hour after I faked falling asleep.My hearing seems to be unnaturally good, allowing me to hear her footsteps go all the way down the hallway and down the servants stairs to the ground floor, lessening the chance of her being able to hear me moving about. I've never dressed so fast in my life, well, I can't imagine I have and even though I can hear her bustling about downstairs, I still hold my shoes in my hands while I tiptoe from the room and down the main stairwell, hoping anyone who would use them will be away in this war.Thankfully, luck seems to be on my side and I'm out of the door without being spotted. Now comes the hard part, I don't recognise my surroundings at all, so I have no idea how to leave or how to avoid coming across someone who might try to make me go back.Relying purely on guess
Sitting here in my father's office waiting for Levi to return with Harrison's first report from the inside of Eligor's camp, I'm trying very hard not to do exactly what that Maloney woman suggested and murder my father. At this point in time, I'd relish the opportunity to tear him limb from limb, but as both Kade and Darius keep reminding me, we are currently at war, we don't know why she wants them both dead and my father can wait. I will kill him though, there's no doubt in my mind about that. Not after Allison crept into my room the moment we got back and showed me the memory Tegen dreamt about, detailing exactly how my father drove her away from the pack the night she disappeared. He got rid of her, sent someone, I'm not sure yet who, to wipe her memory and let me believe all along that she was dead. Poor Allison witnessed the explosion of my rage when I read that, but then again, she's known me most of my life, I'm fairly certain she would have expected that reaction when she b
I'm in so much pain. I never knew my body could feel like this, it's as though I've been frozen solid and then dipped in scalding oil, the cold and the heat simultaneously burning me so it feels like my skin is blistering and peeling away all over. The pain somehow increases and I fall to the ground, clutching the mud, grass and leaves for support as I stare at the lifeless body on the floor.I'm vaguely aware of a battle continuing around me, more and more wolves arrive, joining in until it's hard to tell who's winning and who's losing but I can do nothing to help anyone because I'm hit by wave after wave of memories of my time with Cain.They start slowly: his face when he first saw me walk down the stairs in Ollie's house, the urgency of his kiss in the woods that evening, the mischievous glint when he slipped up and mentioned something about our joined past, then they start to speed up, flashes of our first ever kiss, the night we first said I love you, the first night we made lov
Flame's screams echo in my head as I open my eyes and look around. The battle is still raging, my father fighting Eligor, but he's getting weaker. Looking around I nearly leap for joy when I see Onyx. I knew she could do it! My excitement is short-lived when I see the wolf collide with her, the two of them rolling around trying to get the better of one another. I sprint across the woods to help her, but my hand goes straight through both of them. I try again and again but the same thing happens every time and when Samuel literally runs through me to protect her, I know something is terribly wrong. "Cain." I turn towards the voice and snarl at the woman in front of me. "Maloney, what have you done to me?" I snap and she smiles sadly at me, tears shimmering in her bright green eyes. "My baby boy, I watched you grow up. I've waited so long to hold you, but it's too soon." A cold feeling of fear runs down my back, but I refuse to acknowledge the truth that's staring back at me. She