~Avia
It's been a whole day, and Kadrick is gone.
Earlier, I woke, walking out my room to see he has been replaced with another man, far older, although looks equally as physically capable. Surprisingly, it didn't unnerve me. This is what we wanted, for Isaiah to get jealous, and with Kadrick out of here, it means one less thing to worry about.
Isaiah wasn't around for most of the day, tending to business elsewhere, and missed dinner. Now that it has fallen dark, my curiosity has lead me outside, after stalking through most of the manor trying to find him. I'm here for a reason, and it isn't to avoid him.
~AviaI stare out the window, brooding."Something on your mind?"Flinching, I whirl around, facing Kadrick. He stands across the room, looking at me with a raised brow. Ever since I left for the mission, he hasn't been looking at me the same. I know it bothers him seeing me going back to Isaiah so many times, especially when he has witnessed it himself, but I didn't expect him to still harbour those feelings when we aren't even talking about him.Even when I'm not looking at Isaiah, I'm thinking about him. It's plaguing me, that there is some kind of co
~AviaReleasing a long, slow breath, I relax back into my pillow.I've spent the better part of this morning following Isaiah and a few of his guests around. They were from outside of the Pack, so I was used to making Isaiah feel more approachable, more friendly and trustworthy. How well it worked, I'm not sure, but it felt strange trying to aid him and his reputation when in reality, I want this entire place to burn down around him.The sound of footsteps from down the hall rouse my attention, my eyes drifting up from my book. I've been enjoying lounging in the afternoon sunlight that cascades through my windows, and now it's about to be interrupted.
~AviaYawing, I settle into bed. Finally.I've only just returned from the compound. Visiting there so late has been weighing on me, but it's not like I have much of a choice. At some point I have to relay all the information I've garnered from being here to them, and this hour is the only possible one.Just as I turn my lamp off and my eyes flutter closed, the sound of footsteps out in the hallway rouse me. I don't remember anyone mentioning they would be up at this hour, and all the staff should be asleep.As I sit up, wary of the commotion, the door t
~AviaI sit on the edge of the bed, examining Isaiah with a cautious eye.It's the first time I've been in his room, and not exactly in the circumstances I would have presumed before I started this mission. We all stood silently in his room while he showered, neither me, Zire nor Elise having anything to say to one another. All the while, I kept my eyes trained out the expansive window and at the sunrise.Where all the time has gone, I have no idea.Once Isaiah stepped from the shower, no more than a white towel draped around his hips, it became clear th
~AviaI stare out at the crowd of people, hating the way they stare back at me.Isaiah stands at the front of the stage with his father, addressing the crowd. Something about a new development involving some disputed land. I suppose it's no longer disputed, which can only mean one thing...Isaiah or his father sent orders to their people to bust through the land and destroy everything there and displace the occupants in order to build other things that suit them."I hate these kinds of things," Mari mutters from beside me.All the girls have joined us for
~AviaI'm not sure how I've managed to convince Zire to take me into the family's private library, I'm just grateful he is upholding his end of the deal.I'm sure if I had asked Isaiah, he would have allowed me in here, but I'm not ready to arise any ounce of suspicion, especially when Kit is around. So now I sit, with Zire opposite me, flipping through his own book. I've searched throughout for history one the Alpha family, hoping to make myself seem more like a Noble's daughter over conversation at dinners.Even if being around Kit makes me sick."Do y
~AviaMalin stands in front of me, arms crossed over her chest."Absolutely not.""Malin...""It's too late in the game to be bringing in someone from inside Isaiah's home into the rebellion," she exclaims. Everyone else in the room, sitting at the table, doesn't say anything, knowing not to intervene when Malin and I are arguing. I came back here thinking she would be glad someone from inside Isaiah's estate would want to join our rebellion.I collapse int
~AviaFor the rest of the night, I couldn't sleep, and the next day, I avoided Isaiah until evening hit.Finally, I rise from where I've been curled up under the sheets, head crammed full of contradicting thoughts, the twisting feeling in my stomach not releasing it's tight hold. Through it all, I've devised a plan.I'm going to speak to Isaiah. What I'm feeling isn't real. He's an attractive man, whose way with words and brutal honesty shook me to the core. I'm not going to let myself mistake that for feelings for him...I'm in love with Kadrick, and the rebellion. Not the Alpha.