~Avia
For the rest of the night, I couldn't sleep, and the next day, I avoided Isaiah until evening hit.
Finally, I rise from where I've been curled up under the sheets, head crammed full of contradicting thoughts, the twisting feeling in my stomach not releasing it's tight hold. Through it all, I've devised a plan.
I'm going to speak to Isaiah. What I'm feeling isn't real. He's an attractive man, whose way with words and brutal honesty shook me to the core. I'm not going to let myself mistake that for feelings for him...I'm in love with Kadrick, and the rebellion. Not the Alpha.
~AviaI can't believe I've had the courage to do this.Writing the invitations this morning was like walking through mud, forcing out pleasant terms in hopes of luring my least favourite members into a luncheon with me. It just so happens that they may have the information I need about Isaiah.But I truly, deeply do not like Elise, or Mari.For once, it's less so about their position in regards to Isaiah, and more so the attitudes they have had since I first met them.
~AviaI'm nearly asleep. Nearly.My curtains rustle in the night breeze. It's cool, the blanket's wrapped around me as I watch the way the fabric undulates, thinking. I should have gone to the compound, but I couldn't drag myself rom the bed, couldn't force clothes over my limbs. Most of all, I can't face Kadrick, or Malin. And even I changed my mind, it's far too late now. Easily past midnight.I'm not sure what compels me, but I stand, deciding laying in that bed, staring at the moving curtain any longer is going to make me lose my mind.
~AviaThe fire has officially burnt out within Kenna.For the past week, she hasn’t had anything spiteful to say, and has instead opted for staring blankly at the wall. We’ve offered her books, pens and paper, anything for her to do in her idle time, which is all day, except when Malin is in here, questioning her. And now that Kenna isn’t fighting back, Malin is bored with her, and has sent me in here to do my part in convincing her that we are the good guys.Even though seeing her in this small room makes me think that we are becoming the opposite of the good guys."How are you feeling?" I ask softly. She’s lost a lot of weight, sometimes refusing to eat for days until she
~AviaZire yawns, stretching his legs out across my bed spread.I glare at him, but he remains unbothered, thumbing through a collection of papers he snatched off Isaiah's desk for me. I can't believe I've been ousted to the chair in the corner of the room so he can lounge on my bed comfortably. I would protest, but at this point, I'm not in a position to be telling him what to do, since it seems I'm relying on him now more than he is relying on me."Tell me about Mari," I muse, draping my legs over the arm of the chair as I contort myself to be as comfortable as possible."Never liked her," Zire doesn't even look up. "She doesn't talk to me ever, always right at her father's side."&
~AviaStifling a yawn, I stare bleary eyed at the car parked in front of me.The sun hasn't yet risen, the golden hue of the manor lights spilling out onto the driveway, leaving everyone to squint irritably. Isaiah stands beside me, some of our belongings at our feet. For the first time, it is time for me, as Kenna, to do my job in a foreign Pack. And accompanying me, is everyone else of vague importance to Isaiah, unfortunately."We are all meant to fit in here?" Elise question distastefully. Her coat is wrapped tightly around her, fur brushing her jawline. Where we are heading is cold; the Independence Pack, with snow capped mountains and icy winds."I can't risk us all going in two vehicle
~AviaIt's virtually impossible to look anyone in the eye.I've taken up almost permanent residence on the couch since Isaiah left this morning. It wasn't too hard to brush him off, considering he was in a rush to get to his meeting, and barely muttered a goodbye to me before he was out the door. Had I wanted to reveal that we are mates to him, I could have.But of course, I didn't.This means nothing and so much all at once. It means nothing, because of the rebellion. I mean, Malin would be done with me if she knew my mate is the Alpha whose life she is
~AviaI've decided I hate the snow.But what I hate more, is sitting inside the cabin up the hill more.This is because Isaiah is my mate, I know that. My patience has officially worn to scraps, and I can't be around these people anymore. I hate that I don't hate them. But if I have to hear Elise talk about marrying Isaiah one more time, I'm going to tear my hair out.I just wish there is somewhere else to go though, that isn't so freezing.At least the vie
~AviaShattered glass under my foot crunches as I walk into the home.I can think of at least five people that would be disgusted to find me here, but I can't help myself. Knowing how this Pack works, there is no guarantee there will ever be justice for the murdered, even if they are prolific families who have done nothing but bad for the rebellion.And mostly I want to know. Especially if Mari's family might be involved."This is dangerous," Kadrick mutters as he picks through the shattered glass, following me into what must be the main living area of t