The walk was silent and awkward.
The Frostbites surrounded me as if I were a prisoner, which I feared I really was. Gregor could sniff me out if I was in danger, but as much as I wanted to deceive myself and tell myself it wasn't true, I knew deep down that he wouldn't come after me. Maybe he'd be relieved that I'd gone off on my own, maybe it'd be the highlight of his day. I don't know.
In any case, they didn't seem aggressive.
Viktor's companions whispered among themselves. They watched me, attentive to any movement on my part, as if I were planning to plunge a knife into their alpha's neck at any moment. I understood the caution. I would also be wary if I met a Frostbite in my condition; I would think it was a trap, a set-up.
One of them was in her wolf form. It looked like a female. She walked beside Viktor, and I wondered if she could be his mate from the way they communicated non-verbally, and how his fingers brushed against her hair at times.
She and he were the only ones who didn't seem so suspicious of me, although Viktor occasionally looked over his shoulder and let his eyes search for me. He seemed to be checking if I was alive or something.
I retreated inside Viktor's jacket and followed them, doing my best to keep a safe distance from the escort they had assembled around me.
The Frostbite territory wasn't much different from mine. Perhaps a little colder, the plant life scarcer and the snow thicker. At least the weather was improving.
We went deeper into the territories until we reached the Frostbite settlement. It looked more like a suburb full of houses, some with several floors, made of cold gray brick and with a lot of rustic wood, which gave it an air of luxury. Compared to ours, it was very pleasant.
I didn't even look around much when a large mansion appeared, dominating the place - the residence of the Frostbite alpha. It was very different from the rustic style of the other houses. It looked austere. A fortress. The bricks had been shaped to give the place a solid, stoic look, while the corners had some stone walls, also cold.
All the Frostbites stared at me. I was being led around in silence and felt like a piece of meat, being the center of all those stares. No one said anything else to me, they just seemed to judge in silence.
Viktor walked straight past the mansion and directed me instead to a comfortable, slightly secluded facility, with the leaves of the surrounding trees creating a frame on the roof. The whole clan was dead silent, like a ghost village. Although everything seemed welcoming, the lack of sound disturbed me.
He opened the door. The other werewolves followed.A woman behind a counter smiled brightly when she saw Viktor. She was pretty, with hair almost the same shade as mine - a dull blonde, bordering on white. But, unlike me, she had short hair and kept it tied up.
"Hi, Viktor," she said excitedly, her voice slowly dying away as she turned her eyes to me.
I'm not sure why, but the look on her face embarrassed me. I turned my face away, idiotically, fiddling with my own fingers. "Uh..." Her eyes went to the other men following us. They all had a reaction similar to mine, clearing their throats and looking away, as if to rid themselves of a possible explanation.Viktor, however, continued to stare steadily at her. He approached the counter.
"Find her a warm, comfortable room. She's a guest today."
The woman squeezed her eyes, analyzing me. She said softly, "She smells like Ashenfur, Vik."
"I think she is," he replied, finally looking away. "She was lost. Hurt, and cold. Left for dead."
"I wasn't left for dead," I interrupted him. The men escorting us immediately took a combative stance, but I ignored them.
Viktor no longer seemed to consider me a threat, judging by the way he looked at me; a look I didn't want directed at me. PIty.
"So where are they?" he said harshly.
"I ran away," I said.
His eyes went down to my arms again. I hid them in my jacket, ashamed of those marks, and he turned back to the counter, "A room. Now."
The woman didn't question. She stooped to the bottom drawers and pulled out a key with a beautiful, wood-encrusted key ring. She slipped it into Viktor's hands, told him the room number, and he simply walked over. Now the receptionist was silent too.
I followed him, somewhat begrudgingly. I didn't know what else to do in my condition.
We went up a few steps and he unlocked room 202. When he opened it, it was really... good. The only good I've had in a long time. A soft gray carpet floor and warm wooden walls. A cozy little fireplace in the far corner, and a messy double bed with fluffy comforter covers.
I hesitantly walked in.
"This..." I said, "am I supposed to stay here?"
"Where else would you stay?" he said.
I turned to look at him, standing in the doorway. One of his arms was raised, leaning against the wooden frame, supporting himself, and I met his gaze. Unreadable.
Viktor put his free hand in his pants pocket. "Are you hungry?"
"No..."
"Do you need any help?" He gestured in the direction of my wounds.
The embarrassment grew. Instinctively, I covered my torso and turned the other way, as if looking at me was the height of intimacy.
"I can take care of this myself," I said, but my own voice betrayed me. I was tired, very, very tired.
Viktor narrowed his eyes at me.
"Good."
Then, with me inside, he closed the door.
"H-Hey..."
The click of the lock.
"Hey!"
I slammed my hand against the door. A prisoner. It was silly to expect anything good from a Frostbite.
"We don't trust Ashenfurs," he said from the other side, muffled. "That's not negotiable. You'll explain yourself later. For now, you can enjoy your little room in peace."
"But I don't want that!"
"Get used to it."
He walked away.
Fuck.
"It was her memories."Huh?"That can't be possible.""Possible? You occasionally glow like the fucking sun and that is something you still can't believe? Come on."That was absolutely terrifying."But— I've never experienced this before! How do you know that's a memory and not just... anxiety?"He stared at me like I was a clueless child."A frozen forest, a betrayal and being split in two are pretty obvious hints. I could pretend it was just your anxiety but the split in two parts and the frozen forest aren't mentioned in the books Pandora lent you. It's just something in the original stories from many centuries ago."Oh, no. I think I'm gonna throw up.I breathed in deeply, trying to control my heartbeat, and covered my face with my hands. It was too much for me to swallow."Viktor," I asked in a shaking tone, "where did you hear about the split-in-two thing?"Viktor cleared his throat. "I... Arlo was obsessed with this story. He had the original edition and read it in old English.
That night, something happened to me.When I slept, my dreams took me to the frozen forests. I sat in the snow, and my hands had a different skin color, a paleness just like the rest of me. White, and crystal clear and glass. My nails had long claws and thorns. And on top of my head, I could feel a hard and cold crown that I somehow knew contained real ice. I could feel it without touching it.There was blood in the snow. A crimson red staining the remnants of a winter storm, and right in front of my eyes was the corpse of someone I'd once known, unrecognizable, their whole face torn apart. Limbs disconnected, throat ripped.Bile gathered in my stomach and rose up to my mouth. I knew that person, I saw the hideous remains of flesh and I was sure that I knew who had once lived in them; even though I couldn't even understand where his face was, even though I had no memory of who he was.He was someone important, and I couldn't remember a thing, except this emptiness and despair inside m
That night, a huge fire was spreading warmth, its little flames dancing a slow rhythm.I found very quickly that the Frostbites were a very close-knit community, and, almost every week, after a group of expeditions made their rounds in the forest that surrounded the territory, they would gather around a campfire to make offerings.These offerings were usually to Athelia, and that night everything was a little surreal. Many werewolves came to bring fruit and spices, but they offered them directly to me. Facing down and with hopeful gestures, they brought me baskets of gifts and repeated the words that Pandora had said to me during our training session: my blood is on your behalf.They were doing it with sincerity, each with a strange curiosity. Hope.Part of me felt wrong."Why do they keep giving me things?" I told Pandora. I wanted to go back to my hotel room, because I was starting to feel cornered. I couldn't bear the feeling of everyone throwing glances my way."If you're not Athe
LENAMaybe I enjoyed learning how to fight more than I thought I would.Each practice session was becoming an important piece in the puzzle that was beginning to form in my mind. Like a bigger picture of myself. It was less painful now."Again," Pandora said.We both circled each other, but this time, neither of us were attacking. Pandora got into a fighting stance, ready to stop whatever I threw her way."Survival should be your main concern," she explained, watching me as if I were one of her pupils and, at the same time, someone she could one day face in battle. There was always some ferocity in her expression. She wasn't as bad as I originally imagined, her tone being softer than it looked. "Do you feel something when we're fighting?""Like what?" "If the goddess resides inside of you, something should wake up when you train. Right? When you're reminded of it, I mean.""I..." I frowned, frustrated, "I don't really know."She lunged forward without warning.I was indeed enjoying o
VIKTORI was fine.Each breath burned like fucking lava. Unrelenting, like claws scratching at the walls of my lungs. The wound kept reminding me of its existence, throbbing with fire while my body screamed at me to go back to the fucking infirmary. But I never listened to their annoying pleas, to their shrieks and orders, even the ones in my own mind that were starting to sound like Pandora's voice in my brain.The wounds would heal, anyway."You're lucky," Falcon had told me earlier. He was our best healer, even with his latent disinterest and dead eyes, always tired, full of dark circles. "If any of those arrows had hit your spine, I wouldn't have had much to do."And he knew very well that I would rather die than no longer be able to protect the pack. If I was incapacitated for long, some rival might appear. Someone daring enough to take advantage of the fact that I couldn't get out of bed.A snowball crashed into my back, forcing my thoughts back into reality. That fucking sharp
A large blue leather book was dropped in front of me, and I suddenly woke up from my distracted state. I looked up and met Pandora's eager gaze. With a nod, she invited me to open it.My hands were full. Half a dozen other books lay scattered on my right, some of them smelling old and clearly ready to crumble if I tried to close them with too much force. I put the large one beside the pile."What's that?" I asked, arching my neck up to look at her, squinting my eyes from the bright sunlight reflecting on the library's wooden desk. Everything smelled old, of faded ink and preserved paper."A history book about Athelia," she said eagerly. Almost too eagerly, a little nervous, it seemed.It was easier for me to picture an insecure girl rather than the fearless ruler I had seen. The woman who threatened to kill me for whatever had happened to Viktor, although his condition seemed to be better, drowned behind that new mood.She was burying me in books, giving me scrolls, even parchments an