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I stare at the women organizing pack house groceries, and I can't help but smile at the sight. They'll do anything I ask, that too to my liking because it's easier to please me than get on my bad side. That too, a side I don't have, I'm an exemplary mate and woman, as well as a mother in the eyes of all these women. Ever since Knox put the huge diamond on my hand, they've been extra nice to me but I choose to be unbiased unless otherwise. My two friends, loyal as a dog sit with me. We've been friends since Thalia left the pack grounds, it was hard to connect with someone else because I dedicated my whole life to Thalia, but thankfully that's no longer the case. I've not heard or dealt with her for four years, and I refuse to do it now. “Do you think you can change the criteria for qualifications?” Kennedy asks me, a topic we've tackled more than once but this time I'm more confident in my ability to make things happen to my liking around her"Why you little..."Ezra slams his hand on the table. "Enough, let's have a quiet family dinner and—""How is it a family dinner if your wife isn't at the table Dad?" Valerie darling counters, "Why not tell Aunt Eliza that you fucked that up, tell her why she won't come to the table. What did you do to her? She hasn't left her room at all, not with you around.""Young lady, be respectful.""I'm done," she huffs, pushing away from the table. "Boys, come with me. I'll cut your stake and give you dessert.""Can I come too?" Serenity quietly asks.Valerie darling grins, "Of course, princess." She says, going around the table to get my son out of his seat. She takes him, gives the rest of the kids their plates and leads them to the kitchen."I'm done here, I'll be in my prison cell." Valerie honey rises, "Alone, because my brothers are taken." She grumbles as she walks away.Landon walks into the room, whistling. "What a day, congratulations Ez, you're losing them one by one.""Shut up La
ELIZA I have a pack event to plan, in about three days we are expecting a certain older Alpha who is looking for a successor among the younger generation. His pack is not so large and Ezra has a good shot at being the successor, more so because the packs are close, merging would be easier. I've been planning it with Cecily but then it hit me, we have a Luna now and she has to be involved partially or solely. My job is legalities only, parties or dinners are a Luna thing.However, Amelia said no when I asked and I'm not one to take no for an answer so I decided to come to the packhouse and convince her myself. Amelia was out when I arrived so I had to return home but I'm back again, because I'm a relentless pest.The living is busy, with Valerie sitting on the sofa while the boys chase each other around, and no one hears me until I speak. "Good evening, everyone." I greet them, setting my son down on the floor."Hi Aunt Eliza," Valerie says, not bothering to look up from her phone.
The sound of my alarm clock stirs me awake, but I'm too weak to reach for it, too drowsy and clinging to the five more minutes I can get while attempting to mute the sounds in my ears.I'm nearly successful with my deluded plan but then I hear ruffling, and then a scream. Only then do I remember I'm not alone in this bed. My eyes snap open and I'm met with Ezra looking around my bed with wide dilated eyes."No, no," he repeatedly chants, shaking his head. "God no.""Ezra?" I frown. What's wrong?" I softly ask, reaching for his arm, but he pushes me away."You," he says, almost breathless. "You-you're wrong. How...how...how did this happen?"Half relief floods through me, so that's why he's panicking like he's seen a ghost. "Ezra, it's okay." I try to him, I know we never planned on sleeping together or anything near close to that but he's fine. "No, it isn't okay," he snaps, scuffling out of bed. He finds his pants easily, hands still shaking as he tries to put them on. He does so wi
AMELIA I lay in bed for a couple of hours later, tired, hot and failing to fall asleep. Valerie honey—my daughter decided to decorate her room like the one back home so that meant I had to draw on her and it left me exhausted but not enough to fall asleep. It takes me a while to realise I fell asleep, the soft caress on my cheek doesn't alarm me, it's the scent of lilac and wood mixed with booze that stirs me awake. My eyes fly open and I'm met with Ezra, the room is dark, but my curtains aren't closed all the way so I can see him in dim light. "Ezra," I gasp, jerking up."Sorry I woke you, Ame." He quietly says. It's the middle of the night, my mind is fogged with sleep but I know Ezra shouldn't be here, he left hours ago with Landon."What's wrong?" I ask, trying to make out his face in the dark but I see nothing from this angle, nothing to help me.He doesn't answer right away, but when he does, it's frail and broken. "I'm confused," he swallows. "Wha
"I'm sorry." I almost whisper.That's the only thing I can say. My ways have hurt everyone around me and they couldn't speak out because they were scared to address it with me. I've hurt Amelia too, I burdened her with the effects of a grief that isn't hers."You should be, but not to me." She sniffs. "You owe me nothing, but your kids? You owe them several apologies." She sniffs again, wiping her tears away. I want to wipe them away but my hand trembles and feels heavy to lift. "And for crying out please address your daughter by her name," she huffs, this time sounding more irritated than hurt. "I've seen how you wince at the mention of your mate but then, when you named your daughter, it was out of love, not pain or grief, just love so why is it so hard to say her name?""It reminds me of her mother," I swallow, my throat raw, chest burning. "It reminds me of how many times I called out to her knowing I failed her.""You didn't fail her," Amelia snaps, shaking her
EZRAAmelia went out with Cecily today, and I haven't seen her all morning. I've lingered to see her once more before I head out on my business trip with Landon. Our flight took off two hours ago, and we decided to fly private because Landon wanted to say goodbye to Cecily. I was okay with it; I wanted to see Amelia, too. I have a feeling she's ignoring me these past few days, and I can't fathom why.I'm loitering in the hallway upstairs when Amelia and Cecily walk in, laughing their hearts out. It's nice to see she found some friends here, and even better to hear her laugh."Hi," Amelia greets, at the same time that Cecily does. They're back, it appears they went shopping."Hi," I nod."Bye," Amelia says with a smile, turning in the direction of Landon and Cecily's wing. "Wait," I blurt out.Cecily proceeds, taking a few shopping bags from Amelia before she leaves. Amelia turns to me, "Hmm?""You're upset with me," I say. It's not just that she has no interest in conversing with me







