CHAPTER SEVEN: HIS GAZE

LIAM’S POINT OF VIEW

The wind blew against us, little particles of sand and other things from the ground rose slightly, it is about to rain, I can smell the mix of water and Earth already, the scenery looks tranquil almost therapeutic. He looked into my eyes, that icy blue eyes stared into my brown one, I tried to look away but the force of his gaze made me continue to look at him. There was something in his gaze, something that is almost always absent, this gentleness, a slight shyness even and this is very unusual because this is Alpha Zyn, he is never gentle or shy, he is everything else; confident, rude, cocky, authoritative, mean even but not shy never shy.

He must have noticed my hand shaking from how cold the weather is getting because he draped me in his jacket leaving his own arms bare. Selfless? What is happening? Is this the real Alpha Zyn or a clone?!

“I love you Liam.” Alpha Zyn said, his voice slightly shaky. I gasped In shock, His words echoed and re-echoed in my head. I love you Liam… i love you Liam.

I looked at him not understanding… not wanting to believe him, there has to be a mistake. Did hell freeze over?! Did London bridge finally fall down?! Is Alpha Zyn a clone now?!

“I love you Liam, I have loved you since the first time we met I just wasn’t sure how to say or show it.” He added looking the most sincere I have ever seen him.

I notice the sincerity in his eyes, the emotions in his voice and I immediately feel bad, I want to feel what he feels, I want to say that I love him too but for some reason I cannot say it, for some reason I…I don’t feel it. I had felt it for a long time, I had spent most of the time wishing he would say these words to me, that he would feel this feeling for me, I have spent most of the time loving him, wanting him, wanting all of him for myself, I had felt all this feelings before but now it’s just… gone, now she is the only one that occupies my thoughts. Annalise, Alpha Zyn’s Luna, my mate.

I want to love Zyn, I really do, I want to feel that fierce need to have him, that pacing desire burning but for some reason it’s… all gone, in its place is this numbness.

I said nothing to him in response.

The dreamy look on his face quickly turned into a frown and then it became the emotionless look that I have known for the longest time.

“I need to make a call.” He said and walked away, soon a tinted black SUV drove by, it stopped and we got in we drove back to alpha Zyn’s mansion sitting side by side in the back seats of the car. An awkward tension filled silence filled the air, my mind ran a mile, his words re-echoed in my head. He loves me… he has loved me from the first time we me, he loved me when I loved him and now that I want someone else he still loves me.

I closed my eyes trying to escape the awkwardness in the car, my mind conjured up her face. Annalise, my mate, the one person I want more than anything else…

ANNALISE’S POINT OF VIEW

After kicking and screaming and trying to literally tear down the gate of the dungeon for hours I finally got let out. I stayed in my room for a while just thinking back on how perfect my life was before Alpha Zyn showed up. The sadness from those thoughts was getting a bit too much, I was staring at the knife by my bed side a bit too hard, the willingness to pick it up was getting too strong, I know that it would not kill me because of this stupid curse of being immortal, I know that I cannot even be granted the good fortune of joining my family in werewolf paradise, however i stared at the knife wanting more than anything to hurt myself, wanting to leave a mark, wanting to feel something more than this numbness. I lost my village, I lost my family I should be crying all the time! I should feel something but I don’t, all I feel is numb, I want to feel numb, sad, I want to cry, i want to mourn them the right way, I want to think of them and cry but for some reason it feels like my mind would not think of them no matter how hard I try.

I stared at the silver knife on the small table in the room, I picked it up but for some reason I couldn’t get myself to slash my own wrist. Self preservation. I soon gave up, I stood next to the last window in the room, I opened it allowing the chilly wind in, I looked at the garden and soon I was on my way to that garden in nothing but my not so thick night gown hoping that catching a cold would be a good enough punishment for my not being able to mourn my family properly.

I sat on the wooden chair, throwing small pebbles into the clear looking lake in front of me.

LIAM’S POINT OF VIEW

I sat in the small cottage close to the garden trying to clear my head, trying to wrap my head around what Alpha Zyn had said earlier, I was about to leave and just go back to my room at the east wing of the castle when I caught a whiff of her scent. As I moved closer to the garden her scent got stronger and then I saw her sitting on the wooden bench.

On seeing her, a strong desire enveloped me, a lust stronger than anything I have ever felt. My wolf moved restlessly, urging me to go closer to Annalise…