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Always into You
Always into You
Author: JJ Dynamic

Chapter 1: Shattered Under the Stars

Author: JJ Dynamic
last update Last Updated: 2026-01-01 05:11:34

The air was thick with the scent of summer grass, cheap beer, and the faint sweetness of blooming jasmine from someone's nearby backyard. Fairy lights strung across the trees twinkled like a cheap imitation of the stars overhead, and the graduation party was in full swing. Laughter echoed, music pulsed from portable speakers, and clusters of seniors celebrated the end of one chapter and the terrifying freedom of the next.

Ethan Rivers stood at the edge of the bonfire's glow, his heart hammering so hard he was sure everyone could hear it. He clutched a red plastic cup he hadn't even sipped from, the soda inside long gone flat. Three years of stolen glances, brushedoff daydreams, and quiet longing had led him to this moment. Tonight, he would finally tell Caleb Stone how he felt.

Caleb was impossible to miss. Even in the crowd, he stood out: tall, broadshouldered, with that easy, golden smile that made teachers forgive late assignments and classmates orbit around him like he was the sun. His dark blond hair caught the firelight, and his laugh carried over the noise as he joked with his friends, mostly the football team and cheer squad who had claimed him as their king since freshman year.

Ethan smoothed his shirt for the tenth time, took a breath that did nothing to calm him, and stepped forward.

He had rehearsed this a hundred times in his bedroom mirror. Simple. Honest. No big drama. Just the truth.

"Caleb," he called, voice cracking slightly as he approached the group.

Caleb turned, his blue eyes bright and curious. "Hey, Ethan. What's up?"

The others quieted a fraction, sensing something. Ethan felt their attention like spotlights. His throat tightened, but he forced the words out.

"Can I talk to you for a second? Alone?"

A few eyebrows raised. Someone snickered. Caleb hesitated, then shrugged with that effortless charm. "Sure, man. Lead the way."

They walked away from the fire, past the clusters of people, until they reached a quieter spot near the edge of the yard where the grass met the woods. The stars above were clearer here, sharp and endless. Ethan stopped, turning to face him.

Caleb tilted his head, smiling easily. "So what's this about? You okay?"

Ethan's hands trembled. He shoved them into his pockets.

"I've... I've wanted to tell you something for a long time," he started, voice low. "I didn't know how, or when, but tonight feels right. We're graduating. Everything's changing. And I don't want to leave without saying it."

Caleb's smile faltered just a little, confusion flickering in his eyes.

Ethan swallowed. "I like you, Caleb. More than like. I've had feelings for you since sophomore year. I know it's probably a surprise, and I don't expect anything, but I needed you to know. You're... you're everything to me."

The silence that followed was deafening.

Caleb stared at him, mouth slightly open, as if the words were in a language he didn't understand. Then his expression shifted, something hard and closedoff settling over his features like a mask.

Back by the fire, someone must have been watching. A voice carried over, loud, mocking. "Yo, Stone! Rivers just confess to you or what?"

Laughter erupted.

Caleb's head snapped toward the sound, then back to Ethan. His face flushed red, but not with flattery, with panic, with something colder.

"Dude," Caleb said, voice louder now, carrying back to the group. "What the hell? I'm not... I'm not gay."

The laughter grew.

Ethan felt the ground tilt beneath him.

"I didn't say you were," he managed, voice small. "I just"

"Bro, that's messed up," Caleb cut him off, stepping back, his tone sharp and performative. "Don't come at me with that shit. We're friends, man. Or whatever. But no. Just... no."

He turned, walking quickly back to his friends, who greeted him with slaps on the back and more laughter. Someone yelled, "Nice one, Stone!" Another mimicked Ethan's words in a highpitched whine.

Ethan stood frozen under the stars, the weight of every gaze burning into him. Humiliation flooded his body, hot and suffocating. His eyes stung, but he refused to cry here. Not in front of them.

He turned and walked away, past the party, past the lights, into the dark. His phone buzzed with notifications he didn't check. He knew what they would say.

By morning, the whole senior class would know.

By the end of summer, Ethan Rivers would be gone, accepted to Riverside University three states away, determined to leave this town, these people, and the memory of Caleb Stone behind forever.

He would rebuild himself.

He would forget.

He swore it to the indifferent stars above.

And for three years, he almost believed he had.

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