Stephen’s POV
Losing Michael was like a knife to the gut. My lip wobbled as I crouched down beside his wolven body, my hand reaching for his soft brown fur.“Here,” Rhiannon rasped, passing me a raggedy bunch of drooping snowdrops. They looked almost as dead as he did. Goddess, what was wrong with me? How could I even be thinking such dark jokes right now? Tears blazed in my eyes, but I was quick to blink them away.
I was struggling to manage the dual fire of my emotions and Rhi’s. Hers were turbulent, more potent than any of my own had ever been. As I took the depressing bunch of flowers from her, I brushed my fingertips over her knuckles and held them there for a moment. My heart pulsed with wanton need – not for sex, but for comfort. I wanted to hold her, to be held, and to forget about all of this for a while.
Finding out we were mates had been one bright star amongst a heap of shit. In some ways, I counted myself pretty dang lucky – none of my family had died in the brutal war between our pack and Moon Chasm three years ago, which most of the other wolves in Night Wind couldn’t say. Not only that, but I’d found a second family amongst Rhi, Cin, and their dad. I slotted in there as if I’d been born to be with them. Now I was Rhi’s true mate, I knew why.
But that didn’t stop the Eternal Winter from trying to drag my optimistic heart down. The cold played havoc on Nana’s joints, and as Omegas none of us had eaten more than the odd scrap in the last year. Rhi and Cin’s birthday cake had been one heck of a treat – one that I’d eaten because they would’ve thought it odd if I hadn’t, but with every guilt-laden mouthful my thoughts had been with my starving family.
Early this morning, before Rhi and I had left for the hunt, I’d been alone in the kitchen with her twin sister, Hyacinth. Despite the fact we’d gorged ourselves on the birthday cake, there had still been a good third of it left. Her throat had bobbed as she’d met my gaze, and she’d ducked her head, white-blonde hair spilling forward and veiling her face.
My heart had been pounding hard, still thumping away from the raw excitement of mating with Rhi. My adrenaline had given way to ecstasy when that perfect, beautiful moment had befallen us, and my heart had thundered hard enough to shatter my ribcage. I’d never felt anything like it. I could’ve died happy as Rhi had kissed me, her familiar lips tasting sweeter than ever as a faint buzzing sounded in my ears.
Hyacinth had seen me eyeing the last of the cake. It was theirs, a gift from their pa for their birthdays, but…“Take some,” she’d said softly. “Take it all. We’ve had plenty.”
I’d just opened and closed my mouth like a fool. Cin had cracked a smile then, but something else, something other than amusement, had lurked in her pale eyes. “You want it for your family, right?”
I’d finally managed a nod. In silence I’d watched as she’d wrapped it up in a cloth, my heart thud-thud-thudding away the whole time. Distantly, I could feel Rhi’s drowsiness spilling through our new bond, and I’d smiled. She’d never liked waking up, but she did like being up early.
Cin had pressed the parcel into my hands. Finally I’d found my voice. “Thanks, Hyacinth. Oh – and happy birthday!” I’d nudged her, glee over my mate bond making me giddy. Tingles shot up my elbow where I’d touched her.
“Thanks, Stephen.” She’d pursed her lips. “You’d better take the cake quickly. My belly is starting to rumble.”
“Oh – I – you should keep it. It’s your birthday.” I’d tried to give it back to her, but she’d sidestepped me neatly.
“Shut up. I’m joking.” She’d winked, and then shooed me away with her hands.
My family had been hesitant to accept the cake, but their hunger had won out over their needless guilt. With the disappointment of my parents’ hunting trip hanging over their heads, they’d needed the sustenance and the pick-me-up that the birthday cake had provided.
I’d really thought we’d find something on the hunt today. I’d enjoyed feeling Rhi’s overwhelming emotions of passion and desire and longing, the spike of them making me shiver, but the rest of the hunt had been a heck of a disappointment.
And now this. I pulled Rhi to my side, wrapping an arm around her firmly.
‘Poor Michael,’ murmured my wolf, Brian. ‘He was a good man.’
Michael had been one of the few Warrior Wolves to bother with us Omegas. He’d even trained the worst of us personally, eager to help us avoid the scathing, mocking remarks of the others on the training grounds. That was what he’d said, anyway. We all knew, deep down, that it was to keep us alive should another war break out.
‘He was,’ I echoed weakly, standing up and leaving the snowdrops resting against his fur. He looked peaceful; he could’ve been sleeping. I pictured his eyes opening, his jaw lolling into an easy grin…
But his eyes did not open, and his mouth did not grin.
“I’m sorry,” Rhi muttered, pulling away from me, “I have to go.”
* * *“Rhi? Rhiannon?” I called out after her, jogging to catch up.“You don’t have to come,” she called back to me, not even turning to look. I could feel her uncertainty through the mate bond, though, and that settled things. She needed support in this – whatever this might turn out to be.
“Yeah, I do.” I snagged her arm and fell into step with her. “You aren’t sure about this.”
She gave me a sideways glance and, heck, my heart dang near combusted. With her silver hair and grey eyes, Rhi had always cut a striking figure. Paired with bronzed skin and the heavy eyeliner she always wore, she looked like some sort of vengeful goddess or spiteful fallen angel. Right now, her small, slightly upturned nose was creased, and her full lips, which were red from how much she’d nibbled at them, were pursed.
Even if I hadn’t been able to feel her emotions through our mate bond, I knew her well enough to know she wasn’t okay. “Is it Michael?” I pressed.
She sighed, running a hand through her hair. It got caught in a tangle; she wrenched it free with a snarl. “It’s everything,” she snapped.
That stung. No matter how bad things got, I’d never say everything was wrong. Not when she was a part of my everything. “Even me?” I asked, wincing before she’d even answered.
Another sigh. “No, it’s not you.” Her expression softened slightly, and she slowed. “This might sound… odd.”
“Hit me.” She lifted a hand in jest, but let it drop before even committing to pretending to slap me. She sighed for a third time, and I really started to worry. Pulling her gently to a halt amongst the bony branches and snow-covered grass of what used to be a vibrant wildflower garden, I said, “Tell me.”
“My birthday always makes me think…” She cut herself off, shaking her head. She chewed on the inside of her cheek, her grey eyes drifting up to the endless blue bowl of the sky, broken this afternoon by the ominous clouds of a snowstorm to come, and then tried again. “Seeing Michael like that, I…”
I didn’t interrupt or try to guess what she was trying to say, even though I was pretty sure I already knew.
And part of me thought it was callous. Even thinking that made my heart clench guiltily, but… it was true. Rhi, despite being incredibly kind-hearted, could also be short-sighted. And by short-sighted what I really meant was selfish.
‘You did not,’ gasped Brian.
‘Stop listening in, bud. It’s creepy.’
‘Don’t call me bud. I’m not some young and hip skater dude.’
‘You’re literally twenty.’
‘In body, perhaps, but not in soul.’
‘We were born at the same time. I don’t get why you like to pretend you’re, like, ninety.’
‘It’s not pretending for me. It’s how I feel.’
‘And I don’t judge you for that – so don’t judge me for my thoughts. Thoughts you shouldn’t even be privy to. I don’t listen in on your ramblings about ancient castles or whatever history documentary you last watched.’
‘The rose-tinted glasses of matehood already turning clear, are they?’ he said, ignoring my remarks in favour of giving me (what he would call) a good talking to.
‘What? No.’
‘You’ve never thought anything bad about Rhiannon before.’ He sighed dreamily. ‘And I certainly haven’t had any ill feelings about that foxy wolf of hers. What a catch!’
‘Ew, gross.’ I wrinkled my nose.
Rhiannon blinked at me. Then she smiled in understanding and said, “Hi, Brian.”
“No, don’t let him distract you, too.”
‘You can be so mean sometimes, Stevie,’ cooed Brian.
‘Don’t call me that!’
“It’s okay,” said Rhi. “I can’t word what I wanted to say, anyway.”
It was my turn to sigh. “Seeing Michael… like that, on your birthday, made you wonder about your mother. If she’s dead, or alive, or if she’d care if you died, or if your dad would have told you if she had.”
She frowned at me. “How–”
“I’m your mate. I know you better than anyone.”
I took her hands in mine and squeezed. Snowflakes started to spiral through the air, blowing on a bitter wind that hadn’t existed moments ago. A shiver wracked through her.
“Come on,” I murmured, holding back a shudder of my own, “let’s get inside.”
“Yes.” Her voice had a core of steel. “I think it’s time I spoke to my dad.”
Rhiannon’s POVI straightened my leather jacket, touched the ring in my nose, and ran my hands down over the loose waves of my silver hair. As I stared at myself in the mirror I worried my bottom lip, watching as it started to swell. With a sigh I reached forward and plucked my liquid eyeliner off my desk. I unscrewed the cap and swiped more across my eyelids, making the existing wings darker and thicker. I felt like I was smearing my cheeks in war paint – but I looked just as unprepared as I had when I’d stumbled in here, my heart pounding a million miles a minute and tears prickling the back of my nose.The door groaned open and Cin shuffled inside, frowning at me the second she saw my expression. “You okay, Rhi?” she asked.My emotions were too fragile for me to speak, so I just nodded. Dropping the eyeliner back onto the pile of mess covering my desk, I sloped over to my bed and flopped backwards onto it. My room was small – we were only Omegas, after all, so our cabin wasn’t big
Rhiannon’s POV I reared back, hurriedly wiping tears from my cheeks. I hadn’t realised I’d been crying until the cold air outside had chilled them upon my burning skin. “You,” I spat. His face crumpled, but he slid his cool mask back into place so quickly I wasn’t sure if I’d ever seen the flash of hurt there. His throat bobbed. He opened and closed his mouth. Then: “Can we just… not do this?” His green eyes, bright as summer sunshine cast through leaves, even in the dark, grazed over my swollen lips and puffy eyelids. “You don’t have to hide with me.” “Yes,” I snarled, taking another step back, “I do.” “Look.” His shoulders sagged, and he ran a hand through his tousled dark hair. Most of it was stuck to the side, but a single strand fell in a jagged wave down over his forehead. He blew a puff of air at it; I lost myself in his lips, pursed almost as if in a kiss. His shoulders were broad, too muscular to belong to anyone but an Alpha. I was tall, especially for a she-wolf, bu
Caleb’s POVAmelia was reading in bed, a frown marring her perfect face. The lamplight warmed her dark brown skin, glinting off the shimmering gold she wore across her high cheekbones and the metal beads dotting her cornrows.She was beautiful. I wouldn’t be able to find a single flaw on her perfect face even if someone was holding a gun to my head. I’d grown to care for her, to rely on her, to love her over these past three years. She was the right choice. The only choice. I couldn’t be stupid enough to risk what we had for a feeling.But I had the horrible feeling I was going to do just that. Even as I sat on the bed beside her, her warmth spreading into me as she leant against my side, I couldn’t dredge up a single bit of emotion towards her. I was thinking about Rhiannon.I chewed on my bottom lip. Everything in me wanted to go to her. Taking a deep breath, I forced myself to focus on Amelia. She turned a page, huffed, then grinned. My gaze darted to the cover.Alpha Enzo, the tit
Hyacinth’s POVI tugged on the moonstone stud in my ear and chewed on my bottom lip. I’d heard bits and pieces of Rhiannon and Stephen’s conversation, and my heart ached for them both.If I were being honest, though? It hurt more for my twin sister’s boyfriend than it did for her. Rhi had a short fuse and a smart mouth. Stephen was kind, and thoughtful, and sweet. And I had loved him for as long as I’d known him.Sighing, I dropped my hands to my sides and started drifting listlessly around my room. It was the same size and shape as Rhi’s, but where her room was cosy and cottage-y, mine was bright and pink and downright girly. A fire crackled in the hearth, under a mantelpiece draped in burned-down candles and empty vases that had once housed flowers. Flopping down on my bed, atop the huge bound of fluffy blankets in a myriad of shades of pink and purple, I pulled out my old diary and stared at the first page.Under the date, which was marked ten years ago, my handwriting stared bac
Stephen’s POVI still wasn’t sure why I’d gone to Hyacinth’s bedroom. Something had called me in there, some urge knotting my heart and tugging me towards her. I’d written it off as loneliness, a need to discuss our shared pain, but there was a lurking feeling in the back of my head that told me otherwise.Guilt gnawed away at me for the way I’d reacted when I’d first seen her, wearing those tiny pyjamas and that see-through robe over them. My throat had bobbed, and a hundred indecent thoughts had burned through my brain as I’d gaped at her. I’d never looked at Cin like that before. She was Rhi’s sister, which meant she was like a sister to me, too. But tonight… holy moly guacamole, she looked beautiful. Even the way her hair had brushed the tips of her shoulders had me in a chokehold. She smelled of strawberries and vanilla ice cream and she looked even sweeter. Her blonde eyebrows arched over wide, pale blue eyes, which had held my gaze with an intensity I rarely saw in her. With h
Rhiannon’s POVWhat. The. Fuck?Was I dreaming? Or having some kind of delusion? Because I could have sworn that Alpha Caleb had convinced me to let my guard down, to let him in, and now he was walking – wait, no, the bastard was actually running – away from me.My back stiffened. I’d betrayed Stephen tonight. And for what? For a few mind-blowing, stolen moments? For a few hot-as-fuck kisses that had my lips still tingling? I gritted my teeth, glaring at his rapidly retreating back.“Prick,” I hissed. It eased my rage a little, but not enough. Curling my hands into fists, I marched after him. He couldn’t play with me like that. He knew I had a mate; he knew what he’d been asking me for, and that it ran way deeper than a quickie in the garden. For a minute, I’d…I’d believed in him. In us. As his hands had gripped my waist, digging in hard enough to leave bruises, I’d forgotten all about Stephen, all about Michael, all about my mysterious-ass mum, and even all about the damned Eternal
Rhiannon’s POVAfter I’d finally managed to escape, I’d spent the night in my wolf form. I hadn’t been able to go home and face anyone, least of all Stephen; I knew he wouldn’t have left, not while I was still outside somewhere. That was the problem: he was a good man, and an even better mate. He wouldn’t have followed me, knowing that I needed some time alone to process things, but he wouldn’t have gone home until he was sure I was safe, either.“For fuck’s sake,” I muttered, clenching one hand into a fist. Then, slowly, I unfurled my fingers. None of this was his fault.And I’d…I gulped. “Not now,” I whispered to myself, hovering on the doorstep of our family’s little cabin. The night’s events had left me disgruntled as fuck, quite frankly, and all I wanted now was a burning hot shower and a power nap. I had to be in the pack house for a lunch shift in the kitchen, so I had to sort myself out before then. If I saw the Alpha or Luna there, I needed to have schooled my reactions into
Rhiannon’s POVSomeone cleared their throat just as I knocked. “Excuse me?”I twisted around, searching the hallway for the voice, scanning over stooped bookshelves and polished wood and cream paint, my eyebrows pulling together. “Yeah?”Alpha Caleb’s Gamma, Nova, stepped out of a meeting room. She was a few years older than us and one of Caleb’s most well-respected warriors. Everyone knew her, not just because of her status within the pack, but because she was one of only three transgender members of Night Wind. She’d chosen a new name for herself and announced it to us – an announcement that had been followed by a party that had lasted all night. Her coming out had encouraged the others, and Alpha Caleb had given her the Chalice of Bravery that year at the annual Pack Awards.She had a chiselled jaw and a sharp nose, with wide, pretty brown eyes that were fringed with long, thick eyelashes. Her smile always looked genuine, even now, when she was clearly confused by the presence of