LOGINERDENFarouk should have brought her back by now. I pace my study, every second that passes only making me more worried. He had texted hald an hour ago to tell me she was still drinking with Riley, and that she was fine. Lyssandra being drunk was never fine. I had never seen her drunk before, and because of me, she was drinking that heavily. I stop pacing and stare out through the glass wall into the night. I can see the moon, and my body responds to her call. The pull is there the closer we get to the full moon. It's going to become worse; the itch to allow Axel free to run on the full moon. I won't be able to control him, or stop him, no matter how hard I fight him. He's already restless inside me, pacing the same way I am.You’re waiting for her, he snarls in my head, sounding almost feral. You shouldn’t be waiting for her.“I’m not,” I mutter, though we both know it’s a lie.I turn to the hidden door which is already open. I head to the walk-in freezer, and take out the syri
LYSSANDRA I know what Riley is about to say before she spits the word out. She frowns. “And that doesn’t bother you? That the one person who told you that is Cade? You trust him on that? That man is a freaking lunatic and you're going to take his word for it? I throw back the new drink thr bartender brings to our table.It burns in the best and worst way. “I can’t change it now. Meredith’s happy, she’s cared for. I saw it. And my life is a mess. There’s Erden and his brothers and Cade killing Sadie and running off with Arch. There’s Nyra, who apparently doesn’t even remember me. It’s chaos. I can’t drag a child into it.”Riley sets her drink down and reaches for my hand. “You’re her mother, Lys. That doesn’t change just because other people got there first.”I look at her hand covering mine and then back at her face, at the sincerity there, and it’s almost enough to break me into tears.“I can't do that to her, Riley. And what if she hates me? What if she hates it with me? I'd rat
LYSSANDRA Chest grits his jaw and finally speaks. “You can meet Meredith twice a week. It will be supervised by her nanny, and if we suspect she knows, the visit will stop at once.” Relief rushed through me so fast that it almost hurts. I not quickly, blinking rapidly to hide my tears. “Thank you.” The Chests nod, but before they can say a word, Meredith’s footsteps fill the room. She walks to Chest and hands him the glasses, then comes running to me. “I found it!” She says, walking straight to me with her palm closed. “I made this for you.” She opens her palm, reacekakng a small rock painted a dark gold color. For a second, I just stare down blankly at that rock. Then I take the rock from her, feeling the rought surface under my fingers. The paint is a deep, burnished gold color that reminds of me Erden’s eyes. It's the exact shade of gold they turned that day in his room when he injected himself with the serum. That day when his control almost snapped. I remember those feral
LYSSANDRAWhy do they stop and stare at me, waiting for me to take that rope and strangle myself? Because the silence after those words feels like a rope, wrapping around my neck and choking me over and over again.“How long have you known?” I whisper, my eyes fixed on Mr. Chest whose lips flatten with displeasure.“You're saying you knew she was your daughter?” His eyes darken. “Have you been stalking our daughter?” “I wasn't stalking her. It was a coincidence that the man tried kidnapping her. I had only found out she was my child that day.” I try explaining but neither of them look convinced. “We don't believe in coincidences, but this one sounds ridiculous. Fortunately, that isn't why we called you here.” Mrs. Chest sighs, her eyes filling with pity. I can't believe this is happening. I can't even breathe as I wait for them to tell me why they actually called me here. Mrs. Chest’s face is eerily calm, and her husband has his hand folded stiffly across his chest. He sounds icy
LYSSANDRAI’m still furious.It's not just anger I'm feeling, but deep down inside where I won't even allow myself explore, I'm hurt. I'm hurt that he lied to me, I'm hurt that I stupidly believed him, I'm just hurt. I'm also angry and, I tell myself it’s because of what Erden’s brothers said, because of the audacity of it all, but the truth is uglier. I’m angry because I want to talk to Erden.And that makes me even more disgusted with myself.I grab my phone before I can think twice and dial Meredith’s parents. It’s better to focus on something real, because obviously Erden is as real as a mirage. Mrs. Chest answers on the second ring, her voice as warm as I remember. “Hello? Who is this?” I stop, unsure how to answer. Then I go with tr easiest answer. “Hello, Mrs. Chest. I'm Lyssandra. You called earlier?” “Lyssandra, darling. I'm sorry to have phoned so early.” “Good afternoon,” I manage. “It's perfectly already. I wanted to ask what time would be convenient for me to come b
ERDENFarouk’s voice still rings in my head when I step out of Lyssandra’s office.Sir, your brothers are in Miss Veyn’s office.I’d been halfway across the city, already irritated after a board meeting that went longer than necessary. I’d driven back as though the hounds of hell were chasing me. Now that I’ve seen her with her face flushed with fury, her chest heaving, her eyes like sharp glass, I wish I’d gotten there sooner to intercept my brothers. She’d thrown a shoe at me, and the second I caught her eyes, I knew whatever they’d told her had hurt her like barbs. That was why I let the shoes hit me though she probably hadn't even expected it to. She had needed a release for all that anger festering inside her. I slam the door behind me, and find Kavev and Aksel waiting for me down the hall, both of them looking like they've just walked out of a bar fight. They're both tense and silent. “Outside,” I bite out, my voice hard enough to make Farouk flinch from beside me. I turn







