Yesterday was still a bit of a blur. I know I attended my classes, but I know I learned nothing. I just tried to block out the chattering mayhem. Everyone had an opinion, everyone thought they had seen something untoward. At least they had the decency to leave me, the betrayed best friend, alone. Kate’s name was on everyone's lips except mine. Matt and Cherry were pretty quiet on the topic, thoughtfully holding hands and staring at their desks most of the day. Thankfully today is Saturday, no classes to worry about. Instead it’s just me lying naked in bed with Felix, my hands tracing lines on his bare chest as he holds me close to him. His double bed is hardly big enough for him, I have to be squashed right next to him. Not a problem when he is on top of me. However trying to sleep and have my own personal space to think, it’s fucking nightmare. His pine sweet scent is cloying, too sweet for me to bear. Weirdly, there were no racy dreams of Dex last night, my mind was placid and
I will murder whoever has just opened those wooden shutters. Letting the fiery sunlight in is the last thing my pounding head needs. I’ve managed what many considered practically impossible. A shifter getting so drunk they’ve got a monster hangover. Our ferociously quick shifter healing normally handles alcohol with ease. However when you’re seething with betrayal and you hit litres of the stuff, you get a raging hangover. Silently I came up with some simple, easy to follow rules. Every time I think of Kate in my bed, naked and sumptuously perfect, take a shot. Every time I picture those strands of red silk in my hands, take a shot. Every time I replayed our conversations, asking her who those clothes belonged to, at least five shots. It burned me how she had squirmed in my arms, even with my fingers deep inside her but saying nothing. She had just shivered with pleasure, her eyes flashing the most amazing silver and chuckled. “You know why I’m not telling you don’t you?” “Why
The past couple of days have certainly given me time to think. After standing outside in the chilly early evening air for what felt like forever the wooden doors had finally opened. The tall blonde woman had reappeared, accompanied by a man clad entirely in grey. A long grey button jacket and grey trousers. At his throat shone a large emerald brooch glinting in its gold casement. He was shaved bald, glaring at me like an emperor with his mossy green eyes. Saying nothing, the young woman did all the talking, her hands fluttering nervously. “Come in, please follow me and Alpha Austin will see you soon.” We had walked in single file as she led me down a long corridor. I couldn’t believe the wealth on display as we silently threaded through. Marble floors covered in sumptuous long rolling gold-coloured carpet. Every item of furniture had a golden gilding. It was so over the top. So much wealth in one go made it feel cheap. One clock from a mantlepiece probably contained enough jewels t
Despite my doubts, within a couple of weeks I find myself in a strange new routine. My room is bright and airy, next door to the girl who opened the door to me when I arrived. Her name is Mina Frist. She ensures I am fed, bathed and comfortable and has seems kind and willing to listen to me Except I won’t be sharing any secrets. Every morning I now dress myself like Seraphine. Mina warns me that to look less than a perfect jewelled trinket is to insult Alpha Austin’s generosity. I wore chunky golden chokers for the first day, to hide the lingering neck bruises. Not that Austin called for me. I was trussed up uncomfortably like a toy on a shelf, waiting to be called for and it was maddening. I felt like a stabled horse except I had no idea what race I was to be involved in. Yet to complain was to invite my own death. I realised Seraphine wore mainly burgundy, red and purple silks, whereas my wardrobe was orange and gold. It matched my hazel eyes, but I couldn’t help wondering if
Felix and I are struggling. Well, Felix is trying everything he can think and I’m batting them all away. Now the taut, exciting tangled mess of our sex life has withered, what is there left? He offers to listen to me, buys me the most thoughtful presents and tries so hard but I’m numb. “Talk to me Roxie,” he must have said at least a dozen times this week but there’s nothing to say. Instead I take myself to my room more and more often, losing myself in bonfire scents and self-pleasure. I do miss Felix, I miss the warmth of his strong muscles when he holds me close, the feel of his cock inside me, the way he could make me feel safe against anything. The only time I’m feeling anything like myself is when I’m thinking about Alpha Dex, the next steps. So I’ve spent the past couple of weeks keeping a fairly low profile. I’ve not talked to Berlarot since Kate was exiled either, after hearing from Sinead that extra patrols had been added to try and ensure she didn’t come back for vengeanc
If I thought I was decked out like a trophy before, a whole new level has been reached. In order for me to be deemed fit to attend the Greenway Council meetings with Alpha Austin I needed gold plating. Mina laughed at my grumbling, fetching more silks, even ruby covered slippers which I pointed at her with a sarcastic eyebrow. A deep, sunset orange silk gown was shrouded with a long, wrapped see through shawl bejewelled with crystals and rubies. My hair was covered in so many golden butterflies I was finding them on my pillow each morning. I wore heavy, black-kohl makeup that apparently livened my eyes but just left me unrecognisable. “You will do,” Austin had declared as I entered, “You sit behind me and to the right, no more, more” he snapped as I shuffled the wooden chair across. “I want to be able to see you writing. Clicking his fingers so I looked at him, “If I want you to not record a discussion I need to catch your eye. Keep looking at me for instruction.” “Yes, Alpha,” I
The conference is a few days away, over at Luna Madeline’s dingy, misty Foxton Pack and I appear, to the general public, my father and Beta’s to have my shit together. I don’t think so. I’m angry, a deep burning anger that fuels my day and keeps me awake. There’s still no answers to any of my questions. No definite guilt or innocence for Kate, she's still a mystery. The rumour mill has even swung the other way. A girl named Rochelle, the one Kate won her fight against, has been the victim of the whispers. Further adding to my anger, and against my better judgement I find myself at another bonfire party. The same bands, the same flat beer and I’m bored stupid. “Why am I here Rhett?” I said ruefully as he passed me a beer and stroked his blonde beard. “Because Glenn said you would be a massive pussy if you didn’t come?” “That’s true. Where is he then?” “Over there with Clara,” Rhett said, pointing over to the far corner away from the band. Glenn and his girlfriend were talking he
I was sound asleep, a dreamless black space thanks to my relentless meeting schedule. Being so heavily draped in fabrics, sat perfectly poised, smothered in jewellery left my body aching. Which is why, when my door creaked in the middle of the night I didn't stir. It took being roughly shaken for my eyes to flicker open. Staring at me, a blazing fire torch painfully close to my face was a familiar pair of mossy green eyes. "What, what are you doing in my room! Get back!" I squealed, pulling the sheets up across my chest. Hauling myself against the wall, I needed distance, urgently. Beta Zaw's face was unchanged, though the rare twinkle in his iris showed he enjoyed my fear. "Put on your robe. I will be waiting outside," pausing for a few more seconds. I wore a tiny silk vest and pyjama shorts. I could not hide the repulsion on my face, imagining how long he might have been watching me. "It's the middle of the night!" I whispered furiously. "Alpha Austin demands it. Now," he repl