Mag-log inA sharp, splintering pain banged through Julianne’s head.
She groaned before her eyes even opened, her head feeling like it had been cracked open and stitched back together. Her throat was dry and she swallowed hard.
She blinked slowly and her vision blurred at first. She could see stone walls and a tall, arched window where slices of moonlight came in.
Then she saw three figures in the room. All of a sudden, the last few events came crashing in on her and her heart jumped immediately.
Headmistress Eldryn sat in a carved wooden chair, her posture stiff, hands folded over her lap like a queen on a cold throne. Beside her, Velvet stood with her arms crossed, eyes fixed on Julianne. She seem to be annoyed.
And then there was the strange boy. The one she’d seen at the restroom.
He stood in the far corner, leaning against the wall with his arms folded. His skin was pale, almost too pale.
"You’re awake," Eldryn said, her voice smooth as porcelain.
Julianne tried to sit up. Her wrists weren’t bound anymore, but her limbs felt weak.
“Where am I?” she croaked.
"Just an old abandoned building we are considering to renovate," Eldryn answered.
Julianne stared at the woman. Was this really Headmistress Eldryn? She thought.
Every time she asked Velvet when she would meet with the headmistress so they would discuss about her fees, it was always one excuse or another. Almost like she doesn't want her to meet with her. But maybe she was right in doing that. Maybe she was only trying to protect her.
Eldryn rose from her seat and crossed the room slowly, her heels clicking softly on the stone. She stopped beside the bed, looking down at Julianne with a strange expression. Not with concern. Not with pity.
“What do you remember?” she asked.
Julianne hesitated. Was this a trick question?
“I had a nightmare.”
Eldryn tilted her head slightly, as if that answer didn’t quite satisfy her. Then she raised her hand.
“Look into my eyes.”
Julianne tried not to, but her gaze was pulled to hers, helpless as the tide. Eldryn’s irises shimmered like dark glass, and her voice sank lower, softer.
“Julianne… what are you?”
Julianne felt drawn into something she doesn't know. It was almost like someone was in her memory space.
“What?”
“What are you?” Eldryn repeated.
Julianne blinked rapidly. Her body felt slow, distant, like her limbs didn’t quite belong to her anymore. Her mouth opened.
“I—I’m no one.”
“What blood runs in your veins?”
“I… don’t know.”
“Who sent you here?”
“No one,” she said. “I came because… I thought my father…”
Eldryn frowned. A small twitch of disappointment.
“She’s resisting,” the boy said from across the room. His voice was quiet, but it made Julianne’s skin crawl.
“Even without trying. That’s not normal.”
Julianne’s eyes darted to him. “Who are you?”
He stepped forward, the candlelight catching on his eyes. “Cassian.”
His name felt cold in her mouth.
“He’s a vampire,” Eldryn said casually, as if naming the boy’s specie was as normal as listing his GPA. “And he’s very good at what he does. Cassian, if you would.”
Julianne flinched. “Wait—what are you—?”
But before she could finish, Cassian’s gaze locked with hers. His pupils widened, consuming the red in his irises like smoke swallowing a flame. His voice slid into her thoughts.
“Forget what you saw.”
A pressure filled her skull, not pain exactly, but more like a pulling sensation, a ripple moving through her mind.
“Forget the wolves. Forget the trees. Forget their names. You remember nothing.”
"I remember nothing," she said unconsciously.
"Try it again," Eldryn said from where she sat, almost too curious.
Cassian asked, "Julianne, what do you remember?"
"I remember nothing," she said, almost like she was being controlled.
"It worked," Cassian said and stepped back. "Better not call me for things like this anymore. If you can't handle one person, it's better to just get rid of them."
Julianne’s vision blurred and darkness rushed in again. * Julianne woke up with a start.Sunlight poured through the dorm window, soft and golden. Birds chirped somewhere outside.
She sat straight up, breathing so fast. It was almost like she was panting.
She had just had a dream, or so it felt like. It was fragmented, almost senseless, but something didn’t sit right.
Her wrists, she thought and looked down. A faint red mark wrapped around one of them, where the leather had cut into her skin. She reached up and touched her temple where she felt a stinging pain.
Another bruise.
Her eyes widened at the realization. It wasn’t a dream. She had seen them. The wolves. Eldryn. The silver haired boy in her class.
And Velvet.
The door opened all of a sudden and Julianne darted her eyes towards it, only to see Velvet. She stood up immediately and was furious at the sight of her, even more furious when she saw the look of concern etched in her forehead as she moved closer to her. But then, she suddenly remembered the room with stone walls. Then Cassian. The unexplainable things that happened in that room, almost like she was being compelled to forget something.
Then she realized and quickly softened her expression.
"Julianne." She greeted casually, like she always does. "You look better. Must’ve been a rough night.”
Julianne could barely speak. She wondered what she was talking about at the moment. Was she trying to confirm if she already forgot everything she witnessed? Was that why she was here early? If she finds out she still remembers, would they get rid of her like Cassian said?
"What happened?" She asked instead. "How did I get to my room yesterday? I don't remember anything about yesterday. It's strange," she lied.
“You collapsed. I took you to the infirmary and brought you to the dorm," Velvet said.
Liar.Julianne grit her teeth together and couldn't believe the one she thought she could trust was lying to her face.
"Why can't I remember then?"
"Maybe it's best not to remember. It was scary. If I hadn't come to check on you, who knows what could have happened?"
Julianne pretended to go with the flow. She nodded and said to her, "Thank you for helping me. I think my body hasn't adjusted to the new environment yet."
"I was just like you in my first year also. I got sick most of the time and I had nobody to take care of me. But you have me. How lucky can you be!"
If it's not guilt, Julianne wondered what could suddenly make Velvet so chatty. It was unlike her to speak a lot.
The day went by really fast. Everything felt surreal. She watched the other students, laughing, chatting, like there were no creatures among them waiting to hunt them in the dark. None of them seemed to know. Or maybe they did and just didn’t care.
Except Ryker Wolfe, the silver haired boy in her class.
When she walked in and saw him, she felt her stomach turn and almost threw up. But instead, she stood there, as if frozen.
The memory crashed in again; the wolves, the transformation, the leather strap pulled tight around her wrists. The pain. The fear. The blur of voices.
She swallowed, but said nothing. He was still staring at her, like always. Even when she took her seat, she could feel his eyes on her.
Every time she looked up, his eyes were already on her. Not with hostility. But not with friendliness either.
Just… watching.
As they now took a diversion into the woods, Julianne hoped that Maximus was right. She couldn’t imagine finding Cassian in a deeply bad state. That would hurt her and she won’t be able to forgive herself. The reason why she threw herself like that earlier when she saw what happened in the classroom was because she knew it was all because of her. Cassian didn’t deserve any of this and she knows it. Even when she said those words to him the last time they spoke, it was enough for him to hate her, and yet, she was the very reason he was in whatever state he was right now.After a long walk, she could finally see lights and what appears to be buildings.“What is this place?” she asked as she walked out of the forest and now into the streets.“A town,” Remus said, barely looking at her. “Didn’t you come from one?”Julianne indeed came from one, but she was surprised that a place like this exist. The day she came to Blackthorn, she didn’t sight any towns or buildings. But this place was ju
When Velvet heard what happened, she hurried to the headmistress’ office. She opened the door without knocking and saw her close a book and slip it under the desk immediately.“Yes Velvet? Why would you barge in here?” Headmistress Eldryn asked.Velvet caught her breath and said with a tone of urgency, “It’s Cassian and Jordan.” She then went ahead to narrate everything that happened.Headmistress Eldryn stood up immediately and her eyes shot with anger and concern. “They did that in the presence of other students? That too, in broad daylight? But Cassian doesn’t act suddenly if there isn’t a reason.” She raised her eyes and asked Velvet directly, “Is it because of that Julianne girl? I did hear that there was an incident in the gym. Was it Jordan’s doing?”Velvet couldn’t ignore the question. She had heard about what happened in the gym from a student after she heard whisperings going around. She couldn’t go and see Julianne last night because she didn’t know how to approach her yet,
As Julianne walked to the class the next day, she could hear the students whisper about the incident that happened in the gym. Lately, her ears have been very sharp. She could hear the silent conversations of people and it was very disturbing. Her mind wasn’t quiet anymore. She couldn’t even go to sleep until around 2 A.M. when everyone had already fallen asleep. She wondered if it was normal or if it was as a result of what she was. It made her anxious about the days that were proceeding fast. What if her body was changing as she is growing?“Senior?”Julianne stopped walking and raised her eyes to see a female student standing in front of her.“Uh? What did you say?” she asked, knowing she had said something but the voices of the others in her head had mixed up what she must have heard.“I said Senior,” the girl answered. “I wasn’t sure how to address you.”“I’m Julianne. Is there something you want?” she asked her.“Ah! I see you don’t remember me. We met in the gym yesterday,” she
“Julianne! Are you okay?” Lucien came kneeling in front of her and holding her face up, checking if she was hurt in any way. “I’m sorry for not coming to you quick. I shouldn’t have left you there alone.”Julianne could now see more students gather to check if she was fine, especially the girl who had asked for the ball to be passed before the incident. She looked sorrier than anyone else, as if what had happened was her fault.She moved her eyes, looking for the boy who had saved her, but he was nowhere in sight. Her eyes then moved to look at where Maximus and the others sat through the opening. Marianne had a frightened expression on her face while Maximus and Remus looked somewhat angry. But Cassian was the only one who had his head lowered as both his hands hung down on either of his legs. Just then, she saw him get up and turn, making his way out of the gym. Maximus didn’t hesitate to follow him while Marianne gave her another stare before leaving with Remus.“Julianne,” Lucien
When Lucien noticed the look on Julianne’s face, he looked towards the direction she was staring at and he saw the reason. Turning back to face her, he used his hand to turn her face slightly, making her look at him and he said, “You don’t need them. They left you in the first place. Don’t look so pitiful because of them.”He took her to the other side of the bench and made her sit. “I’ll come running if you need anything,” he said.Julianne gave a nod and watched him walk to where a team of students were. She tried not to think about anything else and just focus on Lucien. She watched his posture and how he moved. About a year ago, he was the kind of man she had wished for before Shane came. Shane was quite the type himself, except when she started to notice the signs, just like she is now…‘Julianne. Hey Julianne. I don’t know if this is working, but if it is, can you look at me?’A boy moved past Julianne with a trolley and she looked at him as he went. The auditorium was quite big
Ryker clenched his teeth and fists tightly. Maybe Cassian was right, but how can he say those words like that? Right now, this wasn’t about getting his feelings out. He doesn’t know what it was that he felt for her, but whatever it was, it had a great effect on him. However, he didn’t think it was the same for Julianne. She would never look his way or even have a conversation with him. His presence only makes her want to retch and it makes him feel more like an animal whenever she makes that expression.Seeing that he didn’t reply within estimated seconds, Cassian let out a dry laugh and the smile on his lips faded immediately. “I guess I wasn’t the only one after all.”Ryker raised his eyes and wondered if Cassian was expressing how he felt also about Julianne, probably to make him back off. But why was he saying that in front of him? It was not like he was unaware about their chemistry. At least, he witnessed those nights where they were alone in Julianne’s room together. Those nigh







