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It was evening when her eyes had striked open. One look at the clock made her realize she slept for six hours straight. She was shocked to say the least and later she figured it out, her coping mechanism overcame her. Whenever she felt this entire sense of anxiety enveloping her heart, clawing its paws deep in the pit of her heart, she always slept. Slept as if there would be no tomorrow. Because if she won't, her overthinking would tenfold her anxiety. And she was aware of that. So sometimes she took the help of sleeping pills or other times, the sleep would naturally come to her. She felt her stomach groaning out of hunger so she got up and as she passed through her bed, her eyes fell on the mirror. Showing her reflection. She caught the sight of her lips. They were red. A little bit swollen with dried blood where Moosa had bit her. As she recalled those moments in the back of her mind, her heart began to beat out of rhythm. Skipping beats. All you have is two days Roshanay...M
Sitting beside Moosa in the backseat of the car, she tried maintaining as much distance as she could between them. Moosa had decided to drive the car himself to the destination but when she realized that they both would be alone and Moosa could kiss her in the same way as he did in the morning, she produced this slight whispery protest that didn't go unheard infront of Moosa and he agreed to let the drive take the wheel and they both were now in the backseat.The city lights were glimmering as she passed through big buildings. It made her wondered, how much progress man has made. If she looked half a decade back from now, things weren't so advanced and progressed as of today but still she was able to detect something in common. And that was patriarchy. Humans have made so many changes to this world yet still their mentality was still struck in those traditional norms that subjected women in many ways, exposing her to hostility of built-in perspectives. A woman was suppose to act in a
Her body quivered with cold. Lips turned white and shivered. She had covered herself with a worn out shawl that was stitched with patches at different areas. Her hair were untied-open and tangled, as if not brushed for days. She hid behind her mother, trying to save herself from the cold. Sitting on a corner of the street, she kept on observing with her half opened eyes, people strolling and having not even half of the worries she had. They paid no heed to her and her mother's despicable conditions. All they did was walk freely. As if a few months earlier massive bomb blast in their city had no affect in their lives. But here that blast changed her life in all sorts of way, bringing her out from the shield of four walls, protection of a roof to living under open sky. Sky. She once adored looking upto.But now this same sight of sky rose up a sense of terror and hopelessness in her.All she prayed for was to somehow remove this sight of sky and replace it with a roof so atleast the
That was the first time she met her Hayder. Yet to this date she was clueless, who used to pluck those roses before she could see them fully grown because she knew it wasn't Hayder who did that.But who...Nur peeked through the torn out area and observed all the poor and under privileged in the similar condition as them. Tired. Dying out of cold. And hungry. When she saw a couple walking and placing some pennies in their begging hands that brought a sense of happiness among them. Even many times, the same has happened with her and her mother. People giving them alms-pennies, and food and then walking away. But whenever someone did that, Nur would leave her mother's warmth and get to the individual who threw them alms before returning them their money. She wasn't a beggar. Her mother wasn't a beggar either. All her life, her mother fed her from her hard earned money. The circumstances in which her life has pushed them to didn't matter to Nur. She would never compromise on thi
Her mother had a little saving in her saving account that helped them to have some food but wasn't enough for them to rent a home. Often, her father fought with her mother to give him the saved money so he could buy beer for himself but since that money was the only source of providing them one time food a day, her mother didn't give in to his father's insults and beatings. Her father had been telling them about his struggle of finding a job in the town but they both knew that he was lying about finding a work. Because in the end of the day, he would steal, pick-pocket and from that money brought himself wine. That's all he did. And now it had began worrying Nur, since her mother's saved money was also concluding. Her mother also tried for looking for some work as a maid at people's home. But again whenever they investigated her past, and the charges against her, they didn't let her in their homes. Her mother couldn't even now look for a job at a hospital as a nurse since her license
The whole past played infront of Roshanay's eyes like a tape as without a blink she kept on staring at him. The man who was the sole reason behind her destruction.Behind all the chaos in her life. Tears filled up in her eyes.Her lips quivered. Chin wobbled. She was not able to perceive the chaos around her. All her mind was able to play was the last meeting she had with him.After that meeting, her uncle, Sufyan, took her away and she was given the name, 'Roshanay'FlashbackNur and her mother were stuffed in a car. A luxurious one. Her mother was crying and begging but she was quiet.Her thought process has zeroed. She had given up, going with the flow. Letting things happen.Neither begging nor crying.Was she a prostitute now?The question bubbled up in her mind.A prostitute....A sob got struck in her throat.A bed warmer...She tried to drink in her tears.A slut...No!No!NO!!!Covering her hands with her face, she let her tears flow quietly. Wasn't this man her uncle?T
"Alright," Saying that Moosa hung up, got into his car, brought the engine to life and drove it to its fullest speed to the desired location. Within minutes, he reached there and saw the security guard standing there."They're still inside,""Is Roshanay with him?""Yes sir."As soon as Moosa got inside, the atmosphere got thick. Gunshots were heard. Smoking grenades were thrown. Smoke rose everywhere hindering his vision."Take me to Roshanay," he ordered the security guard as he quickly took his gun out of his holster and unlocked the safety, trying to see through the thick smoke. The guard held his wrist and led him to Roshanay and what he saw there was the shock of his life.His wife, Roshanay was in the corner of the room while an unknown man.... kissed her?His back was towards him but Moosa was able to see Roshanay's face. Moosa's anger knew no bounds. Being quick on his steps, he rushed towards them and with one harsh tug pull that man away from him that he lied on the floor
It was 4 in the morning when Roshanay's eyes fluttered opened. Her eyes connected with the ceiling. A dimly lit bulb was turned on and she realized she was not in her room.An instant pain bubbled up from her lips. She rubbed her tongue on her lips. They were dry and cracky with a metallic taste. She sat up on her bed to observe her surroundings. She had seen this room before since she stayed here when she first came in this mansion. Her gaze went to Moosa who was offering his prayers. She waited for him to be done with his prayer so she could request him again to allow her to meet her mother. He can punish her, brutally punish her for all she cared now. All she wanted in this moment to somehow hear these words, 'you can meet your mother' from his lips.Her eyes were aching with the need of witnessing her mother's face. Hear her voice. Touch her hands. Feel her warmth.Roshanay had thought her mother had died. When she was told about the news of her return, it felt as if someone ha
Burhan sat next to her on the dining table, observing her for past fifteen minutes. The table was filled with dozens of dishes. All laid out for her but she kept on staring at the food with soulless eyes. The food was tempting. She was famished but she made no attempt to fill out her plate.Her lifelessness was creating a fury within him. His hate for Moosa was growing with every passing second. He wanted to harm him in an unimaginable way and he would have only if his sister wouldn't have fallen head over heels for him."Nur," Burhan said, making her look at him. "Why are you not eating?" He began to fill her plate with a persian dish that she loved as a child. He had specifically instructed the chefs to prepare it. "Please call me Roshanay," She whispered, "Nur is not my name."Burhan still hasn't touched those topics again with her. Whenever he brought up a question, tears filled in her eyes. She wasn't in a mental state to answer his questions. A lot of things were still a myste
For hours he had been struggling to process what was told to him. By a woman who crumbled down near his feet, loosing consciousness when she ended up narrating her story. There are still marks on my back of the lashes he gave me. But I love him, brother. I love him. The last words she uttered before succumbing to darkness. In that moment, he had kept on staring deeply in her eyes. That was his sister. The light, soft hazel color in her eyes was some thing she took after from their father. The only blood relation in his world. He had specifically asked everyone to find Dilshad when he resumed control because his heart had gotten immensely attached to the girl Dilshad took away from him. He always saw the baby girl as the one and only blood relation he had in this world apart from his father. A lot of her habits were similar to his. She was four years old when Dilshad had run away with her. He knew she was in right hands and that was why he wasn't worried about searching for her unt
The car maneuvered through the city of her childhood-Tehran. The entire journey she couldn't stop her tears. She missed him terribly. His presence. His scent. The moments they have spent together. But one thing for sure did surprise her. Whenever her mind tried recalling Hayder, Moosa's face appeared. It was as if Hayder was never there. And Moosa has always been there. Whatever he had put her through, she couldn't delete him from her mind. She was drawn to him, developed an attraction towards him, the day her eyes had connected with him while she fell in his arms. She had felt an instant protectiveness in those strong arms. As if those arms would protect her from all harm in this world and that had given her system the encouragement to shut down and rest in his hold. It was the sound of his footsteps that had headed towards him, the mere sound, causing her heart to beat wildly. Similar to the hooves of horses galloping on the ground. There was something about him that had her heart
He continued to take small sips of the liquid of hell. His pinning green eyes fixed on nothing particular. His mind in a whirlwind of thoughts. Counting on his options. Strategizing and then re-strategizing. His large office quiet but his mind was filled with chaos of his thoughts.He felt euphoria. Pure. Blissful euphoria. Pain. Torture. Tears. All these gave him euphoria. Especially when the victim was someone, he had been trying to get his hand on for a long time. And torturing the victim filled him with tranquil. He was aware of his sadistic tendencies. He loved seeing pain. Pain inflicted on specific people. He was a selective sadist. Only for those who dared to challenge him. Or those with whom he had some accounts remain to be settled. He was looking forward to pay a visit to the cage he had set up. A smirk came up on his lips on remembering those eyes. Innocent eyes.He felt himself being drawn to them for some reasons. Though all he wanted was to see pain in those orbs b
Roshanay's eyes opened and the first thing she saw was the dark sky. Immediately, the parchness of her throat hit her, fueled by the intense thirst and she sat up, looking around for water. And her eyes fell on the jug and glass on the table. She immediately poured herself a glass and chugged it down the throat. But only one glass was not enough to satiate her and she gulped two more. She instantly felt the coldness of water spreading in her dry throttle, bring her peace. It was then she realized where she was. At Moosa's office.And fear was quick to grasp her heart. She quickly sat up, pushing the comforter. Her heart beating hard and fast in her chest. She looked around the room to confirm that he wasn't there. The struck breath partially released upon not finding him there. She thought of leaving the room but that cautious part of her brain told her otherwise. She thought she wasn't suppose to leave until he permits so she waited patiently for him to come and grant her permiss
Roshanay stopped dead in her tracks, her back straightening. Her heart began to shiver with fear. Agonizing fear. Her body began to tremble with dread.The marks on her back began to throb as she remembered the belt treatment that was given to her by him.She heard the door closing but she didn't turn back to look at him. Her heart palpitating in her chest.Dread creeping up her nerves. Knots in her stomach tightening painfully.She heard him getting closer and closer as her nostrills got enriched with his scent. And after a few moments, her vision filled with his sight as he sat on the sofa, the table infront of which, she was cleaning.Roshanay was on her knees, her hand holding the cleaning clothe of the table. She didn't dare looking up at him. Not even for a second.Her hands began to shake as soon as she felt someone was looking at them.She was visibly shaking."Alright. I'll talk to you later," with that being said, he cut the call.And then she knew, she was now center of his
Horror etched on Roshanay's face as she turned towards the crowd who stood at the door. Next, she climbed up the bed and reached for the door so she could run away. She didn't round the bed to reach the other side since Moosa was standing there in the center. "One step out of this room, Roshanay, and you'll see a fate worst than this dead man," Moosa said, without looking back at her. This ceased her movements immediately and she stopped. She saw everyone leave. Every maid. Every servant. Not even one stopped to help her and she stood helplessly near the frame of the door. Farah left as well. But when his mother was about to leave, Roshanay held her dupatta, glancing at her with pleading eyes. "Please... save me...s-s-s-ave m-m-me... I am...am innocent," she was hiccupping but in a low voice. Her eyes full of tears. "Mother, you're still here?" Moosa turned towards them, "please close the door once you leave," he said and Afsheen passed a sympathetic glance to her before leaving
Roshanay was in her room when a maid entered to serve her the dinner when she asked the maid, "what is this noise outside?" "This doesn't concern you," the maid's response was dry. The servants have begun to treat her differently after the truth of her past was revealed. And she knew it was Farah who spread her. She now practically controlled the house. All the servants and maid bowed to her. "Tell me or I will complain to Moosa," At this, the maid laughed. "Madam don't try to act like a respectable women. Or don't act as if you are the wife of the owner of this house. Also, Sir Moosa is getting engaged with Ms. Farah. That is why the noise," The ground slipped beneath her feet. "What?" She whispered to herself as the maid left. Grabbing her dupatta, she stood up and stepped out. Though, the door wasn't allowed to be locked after her claustrophobic episode but he forbade her from going out of the room. She went towards the lounge where the noise came from and was surprised to se
The next morning, Afsheen woke up and found Farah sleeping beside her. Farah has shifted to her room after Alizeh's kidnap to mentally and emotionally support her. Afsheen really appreciated Farah's efforts towards her. A smile came on her lips as she caressed Farah's hair. All her efforts in the previous days proved Afsheen that how much Farah loved her. And all Afsheen wanted was to equally love her back. The day after Roshanay's truth was revealed to them, Farah has told Afsheen about the love she had always carried for Moosa and then placed her request infront of Afsheen- helping her in marrying Moosa and in the divorce of Moosa and Roshanay. Afsheen had told her that it was Moosa's decision to take but then Farah countered arguement of Roshanay being manipulative and would pull Moosa back again in her charms and there were chances he might end up forgiving her. Slowly, without even realizing, Afsheen began to dance on Farah's tunes. Farah has completely manipulated her. Sh