Jackson's POV
Fifteen years and sitting across from her made my heart palpitate the same way it had done as a goddamn teenager. Although her deep brown eyes and plush lips remained the same in our time apart, everything else seemed different in an unfair beauty. Her hair was longer and her skin looked softer. A few more beauty marks that came into view from what I could remember. But it was that look she gave me as we sat in silence that was almost my undoing. It was the way I always wanted her to look at me. I could easily become addicted to it.“What do you want to know first?”“You died…”“Is that a question?”“What happened?” I refrained from telling her why I was attacked to begin with as she'd only feel guilty. I glazed over that and let out a sigh and focused on what brought me here now.“I did die, Maree.” The shortened version of her name was a bittersweet relief on my tongue. I was fearful the day would never come in which I could speak it again, but I was almost more worried of what was at risk now that it had. Once she understood what I'd done to get back to her. More importantly, what I was now willing to do to keep her.“For twenty minutes. They had me on one of those machines that breathe for you. Something kept me from leaving you and I came back…” I explained in truth as I felt wholeheartedly that whatever rough draw I'd been given in life took pity on me in death in knowing I couldn't leave her.“Why didn't you tell me?” Her question was laced in venom as she ignored the champagne I offered her.“My mom…She moved us.”“Because of me?”“No.” Because of her father. But she didn't need to know that yet.“So for fifteen years you've been…” She waited for me to fill in the blanks.“Waiting.” She scoffed before standing to leave, my shirt loose over the curves she'd more than grown into as I fought to admire them openly.“So while I have had to carry around a broken heart for half of my life you've just been…what? Clubbing it up? Getting a…gang together?” She almost chuckled with disbelief from the farcry it was from the boy she thought had died.“I couldn't come back until I could protect myself.” I was honest, hoping she could see that behind my eyes.“From who?”“It doesn't matter.” I explained.“It does do me.”“What matters is the future, Maree.” My eyes fell to the ring on her left hand. That damn diamond I wanted to grind to a powder. But was he really the worse option considering my sins?“No. I still have too many questions…”“And there will be time for answers but we have to go…”“What? I'm not going anywhere until you tell me everything you're hiding. I can see it. You still play with your inner cheek when you're hiding something from me!” I fought a smile that came from her noticing a detail like this.“In time…”“Don't do that! Don't write me off because you were the one person who has never done that.”“I promise you that you'll know everything.” I pulled my watch beneath my gaze, struggling to find a viable excuse to keep from looking at her.“But right now we are on borrowed time as it is. After tonight, I will explain the rest of it…” Because after tonight she won't be able to be taken away from me again.“Why not now?” She set her hands at a purchase on either hip. What was once a simple act of immature defiance had me fighting a smirk to how attractive it was now. Good to see some things never change.“Because we have an appointment…” I finished my own glass of champagne before striding to the door of the board room. Out of curiosity, she went through the frame I held open for her. Halfway through, she turned to me with a finger to my chest and suddenly she was close enough to smell all the scents she had as a woman. The childish perfume she used to layer a bit too thick was now delicate and rich-like honey. Her shampoo or hairspray was a slight hint of raspberry that complimented her and it has my mind conjuring all the ways of forcing that smell into me. My sheets. Our sheets…“The only reason I'm letting you whisk me away without answers is because I know deep down inside you'd never hurt me. But make no mistake that I already impaled one man today, I'm not above doing it to two.” I didn't care to hide my smile to her threat as it was more than just humorous-it was downright sexy.“I'd never hurt you, Amara.” Her eyes dropped to my lips as I spoke the name and I hope for once she felt the pull to close the distance as I used to all those years ago. But what was once a pull was now an inevitable magnetism. I wouldn't close it until she wanted to. If she ever did. Until she knew everything and still chose me- chose us.“But I am not the same scrawny kid who couldn't defend himself. Now, I can easily throw you over my shoulder if need be.” She swallowed nearly audibly as I grinned at her reaction.“After you…” I led her into the direction of the elevators and into the private garage at the very second my phone informed me of her father's search team. By the time they would consider coming here we would be far enough away from his reach. As long as she didn't fight me as she had my men.“How didn't I know you were alive?” She asked just before the doors came open to my waiting Cadenza.“I made sure you didn't…” I opened the passenger door and watched her hesitate before slipping inside. She faced me just before bending, leaving us only a few inches apart. A champagne kiss just within reach.“Are you going to kill me?” Her question broke my heart as I gripped the door to keep from caressing her face.“I'm making sure nobody else can. Please, get inside…” I asked in near desperation for mercy. I was driven to protect her but the only thing stronger than that was my desire for her. Because of that, I needed to keep a distance until it was her decision. If it never was, I would still protect her above all else.She finally moved inside as I came to the driver's side and began our journey across town. Passing several personnel on her father's payroll who were searching the city for the car on the hotel's security footage, we made our way around them unscathed.“Is this like a hair appointment or something? I thought you always liked my hair long…” I wrapped my hand tightly around the steering wheel in the same way I imagined it in her hair. I couldn't look at her as I’d very well pull the car over and prove it, and so I continued to stare ahead.“Not a beautician.”“Then tattoos? You seem to have a few…” I nodded. One day I'd explain how every single one has been inspired by her one way or another.“Not tattoos…”“You aren't gonna tell me are you?” She conceded as I grinned.“Can you open the glove compartment?” I motioned as she obliged before finding the gift I left for her. Wrapped with perfect corners and a satin bow, she pulled it into her lap.“Go on…open it…” She hesitated just long enough to process my words. When tugging it open, her mouth came apart in awe. Dammit. I made a note to myself to keep from giving her sentimental gifts in closed spaces if she's gonna look like that as a reaction.“A first edition?”“The only edition.”“You remember?”“There's nothing about you I could ever forget, Maree…” The rest of the ride was silent as she read her gift and I basked in the presence of her comfort. It gave the distraction I hoped before the car came to a stop at our destination.I took the time she was engrossed in her pages to analyze her. The same way she was engrossed with literature was how I was with her. But where I hid it as a teenager, I didn't care to do so as an adult. I wanted to admire her openly, even if she reciprocated or not.“What? Do I have something-” I reached for her hand and stopped her from reaching for her cheek.“You're unfair.”“Unfair?” She narrowed her eyes in confusion.“I love watching you read. If there is ever a man you look at the same way you do with books, he'll be one lucky man.” I was selfish to hope he could be me…“Jackson-” I ignored the way she spoke my entire name as one of my men came to the car.“Everything ready?” I asked as she preened forward to make more of where we were.“Jackson?” Cutter, the man at my side, gave wide eyes to his she addressed me and I simply sighed. She could call me whatever she wanted as long as those around me knew it was a luxury only she held.“Everything is as we discussed.” I gave a handshake to the man before coming to her side of the car.“Why are we at the courthouse?”“We're gonna be late…” I pulled her forward before she hesitated.I would never force her in anything past this, she'd just have to forgive me if she didn't agree to it.“I am protecting you…” Her brows furrowed as we came inside the town hall.Separate office buildings were closed for the night. All but one I paid a pretty price to keep available just for us. Once she read the vinyl across the glass above the door, she looked at me in something between fear and anticipation.“Jackson Maldori…” She began to ridicule, an interruption came in the form of words I'd always imagined to tell her.“We're getting married.”Amara's POVFor as long as I could remember the idea of marriage had been business. The public would see a union of smiles and the entire parade of glamour one would expect from any wedding. It was for that very reason that I couldn't even fathom the idea of marrying Jackson. It was too…personal.“I…I can't marry you.” He expressed a sigh before taking one of my hands, lifting it to view to showcase my ring between us both. Before I could speak, he collected the heavy stone and left my hand naked. “What are you-”“I know you don't love him and I also know that you're doing this because you had no other option…” He leaned slightly closer so only I could hear him among his brigade of black suede soldiers. “Let me be that other option.”“How would it even work? You're…” His brow cocked in intrigue. The reason our friendship was frowned upon as kids were why a marriage would be disastrous now. The Brady family was resilient and dangerous, all
Jackson's POVShe was silent from the second we left the courthouse. What I wouldn't give to know the thoughts in her mind.Did she resent me for forcing her into a similar situation her father threatened against her the entirety of her life? Did she find it secretly thrilling at the idea of being together as I did? Did she hate me? Did she want me? Dammit, I didn't think this through when it came to how obsessive I would become to the “what-ifs”. Everything else, though, was thought through to plan a to z.“I'll make sure you have a phone and computer tomorrow, but for right now, we both have to stay under the radar.”“Alone?” She was quick to ask, a twinge of fear in her question contorted my heart.“Your father is going to have everyone and their right-hand men looking for you. It will only be a matter of time until he learns what we did-&rdqu
Amara's POVThe house itself was definitely beyond what only two people would need. It left me to wonder if we would be housing staff of any kind and how trustworthy they may be. As it seemed I was a captive, I had to find a way to survive from one gilded cage to another. In hindsight, I knew I was cruel to Jackson when all he had done was try and protect me, but I was too angry at him to see anything beyond my rage. Maybe if he would have come back into my life before now things could have been different. Maybe this night wouldn't be forced…maybe it wouldn't be fake. The mudroom opened to a small entryway directly across from a staircase set on a far wall and archways leading to different sections of the house. To the right was the kitchen, silver and cobalt details that looked untouched and pristine. Wrapping around to this had been a dining room with enough room for approximately eight guests and a small candelabra at the center. Beyond this was a study decorated i
Jackson's POVHow is it that even with a scowl, messy hair, and day's old makeup that Amara Brady could pull me to my knees. If her safety weren't a factor I was tempted to drop down on them and beg for her forgiveness for my treatment of her the night before. But as I refrained at least one hundred times from coming to her room that I paced behind the door that separated us, I could find the strength in addressing her now. But for the moment her eyes seemed to feed off of my naked chest-that was a bit harder to ignore. “Why did you bring me here?” She asked as if suddenly some CEO of some kind with fingers folded in wait for an answer. “I was tired.” I was short with my answer, hoping she would be too annoyed to dig into more details. “Tired from throwing away the candles? Maybe the flowers? The book looked kind of heavy…” Dammit. I didn't think she was going to go full raccoon in the night and find any of that. “Must have been from the owners
Amara's POV It was a tortured silence as we made our way to the private airstrip just outside of the city. I wanted to apologize and be apologized to but all I could think about was what happened in that kitchen before we left. More specifically what could have happened if we weren't interrupted. As infuriating as it was to be both a captive and a willing hostage, I was constantly torn between trusting Jackson and wanting to get the upper hand over him. Maybe figure out a way to dethrone my father from his patriarchy and find my freedom in a way that didn't depend on me marrying someone else. But all I could think about were Jackson’s hands holding mine flat. His tense body curved into my own. His breath at the shell of my ear as I turned to face him. As I said, completely infuriating. “Where are we even going?” I asked with frustration more on myself than him. “Away.” “That was helpful, thank you…You know if you wanted to be a-” I beg
Jackson's POV“I'm fine.” I urged as she had already made at least five trips through the entire plane to try and find the first aid kit. While my eyes shifted here and there on the instruments of the plane, she was on her sixth trek before I captured her hand on my own.“Maree…please…You're making me dizzy…”“You're burning up and are still actively bleeding! I'm not stopping until I-” The eureka moment spread across her face was enough to blaze a grin across my own. I basked in her happiness and wanting to be a part of it- wanting to be the cause of it.“Stay here.” I chuckled with the lack of a choice as she sped back into the cabin of the plane and returned with arms full of alcohol.“Uh…”“I wasn't sure if you were a whiskey guy or more of a vodka but…”“I'm not drinking when I still have to help you land this thing in a few hours.”“It's to help the infection.”
Amara's POV I woke up completely disoriented in an unfamiliar bed, a cold damp between my legs, and the scent of Jackson surrounding me at every turn. My cheeks flushed immediately as I understood the reason behind my ruined panties had been from the vivid wet dream. His scent was from the space we shared, I was certain. But how I got into this bed was a theory of his caring arms lifting me against him, despite his wound and his fever. And just like that the tension of my lust and sanity wound tight enough that I might as well have kept my fingers in place throughout the night as they did nothing to end this rigidity. Maybe I'd be lucky and he wouldn't remember the moment in the cockpit and we could go back to that dishonest distance. But I was never a lucky girl…“Sorry-” He uttered when coming out from the cockpit, crashing into my chest and I was returned to the visions of last night's dream. Tangled sheets and heavy breathing were on a repe
Jackson's POVI shouldn't have done it but I needed to take the edge off. I didn't intend to until I saw those damn panties hanging over the shower and I had to hold them to be closer to her. I behaved until then, at least to a desperate man's standards, and convinced myself it was a reward of sorts. But now I could barely look her in the eye with how risky I'd been. What if she heard me? She'd be disgusted no doubt. I needed to keep myself under a damn microscope to not rush against her and frighten her with how my body came alive to her touch. “We’re here.” I explained as we came to the apartment complex we'd be staying at until further notice. It was under an alias and private enough that the only staff was a single maid that came once a week to change out the plants and dust. Now it would be a place we shared. A place that was suddenly too small for how being close to her made every curve of her was a damn homing beacon. “Let me know what room you pick and