I blink several times when I look in the mirror. The first thing I think about is, is this me?
-Wow- I say, turning over myself. You did a great job.
-I know- Gigi says proudly, pretending to wipe away a tear.
I do not know where this dress came from and it is not for throwing me flowers, but it seems that it is made to measure for me. It is pastel pink and with them back in the air, two thin and long straps hold my shoulders and make me double my neckline. It's perfect, although I see it a bit risky for a party at a teenager's house, full of teenagers with bouncing hormones, Gigi has insisted. I check my hairstyle, I wear my hair down, wild style with ringlets that fall almost to my waist.
I can't help but think of Ali. The one who used to fix me was her. I remember when she tied me to a chair just because I didn't want to wear makeup and she didn't convince me. If only I could see her one more time ...
A tear is about to fall down my cheek but I
- I do not know what to do- My eyes dart everywhere in a panic- How can I help you?-I know I don't deserve it, believe me. But I need it. You just have to watch those guys realize I'm in danger.I see through the stairwell as they begin to spread through the house and that's when I appreciate that it is as huge as it is. They are registering it.- Are you hiding now, Azael? -the same man shouts again.Azael runs his hands through his hair and looks at me anguished.He deserves it ... Let them catch him- my conscience tells me but ...-That I have to do? -I speak gulping.Why am I such a good person? fuckSure you deserve this. Apart from causing the death of the person I loved the most, the only thing he has done since I met him is get me in trouble and make fun of me. But despite that, I don't want him killed. I d
-Wake up fucking! What do I have to do to get someone to listen to me in this house !?- I hear a shrill voice yell in my ear. Someone is shaking me and touching my balls. Not literally.I open my eyes and see Lailah taking the sheets off her, but when she sees that I'm in boxers she turns red and puts them back on. She is wearing pink pajamas with bunnies.-You know, you should get up now, because ...- Now you see- she interrupted when I get out of bed and stretch.-Oh God! - she covers her eyes with one hand and turns around in shame- My parents are downstairs! What do you think you're doing?!I yawn. I don't care. Her parents shouldn't be surprised that her daughter had someone sleeping in her house and boxers. She is a teenager, right?- And?- I ask with a shrug- You're very exaggerated, Lailah.She puts on that incredulous face that she makes when I hurt her pride.-Lailah, honey! -the voice of her mother sounds downstairs
When I saw him kiss the girl next to him, something had exploded inside me and that had prompted me to kiss Derek. Why I don't know yet, but I felt like he should.The only thing I know, although not with absolute certainty, is that Azael was kissing that girl to feel superior to me, to show me that he is capable of making me fall in love with him while he kisses other girls right in front of him my nose. And I wasn't going to let that happen.Derek has his hands pressing on my waist as he kisses me like the world is going to end today, I can only feel some disgust towards this way of kissing, so I appreciate it when someone pushes us apart.Then everything happens very fast. I see bare-chested Azael punching Derek's face and gasp. The people around them enthusiastically approach and circle them to begin observing what is happening.-Can someone separate them !?- I cry in anguish. Derek manages to turn Azael around and get on top, but when he goes to hit
I get out of bed and head to the closet nervously.I wear denim jeans with a sweatshirt and trainers, since it's cold at night, and I put my hair in a ponytail. The sound of a message enters my cell phone and I guess that must be Scott sending me the location of his house.I approach the bed and strategically place some pillows so that covered with the sheet, they look like my silhouette sleeping. Just in case my mother shows up. If she works in the movies, why not give it a try?I pick up my cell phone and dial Jason's number, when several rings pass, she answers.-Jason, I need you to do me a favor- I hear a yawn from his side- You trust me, right?-Lailah, what's up? You are scaring me...-I need you to take me somewhere, but please don't ask questions. -If Jason finds out that I'm going at this hour to the apartment of the best friend of the boy who killed our best friend, who is drunk, it is clear that he would never agree to take me.
And I kiss him.And there is nothing else in this room, no one else. It is as if all the problems that prevented us have disappeared. What else gives everything? Now it's just him and me.With a simple brush of lips, so neat, so innocent and so tender, I get something to light up inside me, something new, a mixture of the desire for more that I feel right now, the desire and the adrenaline that runs through my veins. Maybe that's what makes it so tempting ... to know that it's forbidden. It is as if our lips fit together perfectly, even though we only press them, and we pass like this second after second, maybe a minute, who knows.I feel her breathing calming down; however, mine, as well as my heart, are going a hundred an hour. Neither of them moves, and I'm afraid that if I make another move, I might get away from him.I open the eyes that I had unconsciously closed and plant my feet back on the ground, forcing myself to pull away. Th
I cross my arms over my head and look at Lailah with a mischievous smile. She is sitting on the edge of the bed, right next to me, with the bandages and alcohol in hand, waiting for me to remove my pants to heal, but she is ashamed to ask me, and I want her to. Scott's sucker looks at us from the entrance of the room, it seems that he is also having fun with this situation.-Come on say it already! -she shouts enthusiastically- This turns me on.- Scott ...- I warn in a threatening tone.-What?-You're a fucking horny, leave her alone.Lailah lets out a clear throat and stands up, looking down.- I have forgotten the cotton...- he murmurs- I am not going to touch that with my hand.-That's what they all say- Scott says with a laugh. Lailah rolls her eyes as she walks past him, leaving the room. I take the opportunity to take off my pants, the truth is that it amuses me to see her suffer for not wanting to
Gigi squeezes my hand tightly as the doctor runs the small device with clear liquid all over her belly. On a screen, next to the table, you can see some white, black, and gray spots.-The fetus is three weeks old- murmurs the doctor, lowering his small glasses over the bridge of his nose. Gigi loosens her grip on my hand and I move my fingers to get the circulation running through them again. She lets out a sigh and I see her more relieved. The doctor extends a white towel towards her. - Here, clean yourself and throw the towel in that basket. Then you can go home. See you in a month to see its evolution and check that everything is correct- he says before disappearing through a door and leaving us alone.- Oh god ... it's from Mark- she murmurs as soon as the doctor disappears- I don't know whether to be happy or cry ...- she says, wiping his still flat belly.-Within what fits is good.-Yes, but not quite. I have been calling him every
The game begins and we all raise our cards. Azael looks at his and mine and smiles. But these are not normal poker cards.The player on the right starts, and when it's our turn Azael throws my card. When it is the turn of the player to our left, he rolls an even number and leaves a thousand dollars on the table, the right amount to start betting.-Shit- Azael whispers with an amused expression. But he seems to take it personally and leaves another two hundred dollars.Azael looks at me, licks his lips, and leans back in his chair.The game continues to advance and one of the players challenges another to fight the strongest man in the room. Luckily no one gets too hurt, so we keep playing. Notes and coins are piling up on the table, and I have already lost count of how much money there may be. On another occasion, Azael challenges the boy at the entrance (who keeps watching us) to leave double the money on the table above it, and he does, but