Share
Chapter 37
I cant believe this. I cant believe them.
How could they keep this from me, didnt they understand what these past years have been like for me?
Did they not understand me at all?
I feel cheated and lied to. And that's not okay with me.
I'm not given a chance to drown myself into my overloaded thoughts, by the interruption of the door opening.
"Is it safe to come in?" Roman asks, peeking his head in.
I don't answer but rest my forehead against my knees, that are brought close against my chest. I'm not in the mood to talk but I dont have the heart to tell him.
I hear the door open wider and then his footsteps which draw closer, before a sigh above my head makes me to look up. He stands before me and he holds out his hand for me to take, which I do after a minute of hesitating.
He pulls me up from the floor
Related chapters
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 38
He didnt sleep over last night.I know this, because there is no sign of him in the house. "Morning family." I say, entering into the kitchen."Morning." A chorus of voices say in unison.I walk on over to grandpa first and kiss his cheek, hug grandma and lastly wrap my arms around Dad's shoulders since he's seated on a stool, reading the newspaper and then kiss his cheek before taking a breakfast bar for breakfast."Put that down young lady, I'm making something that can put some weight in you." "Granma, I look fine." I say in disagreement, giving myself a look over with a frown.I look fine. She's just exaggerating everything."No, you are far from fine and I refuse to let you shrink down before my eyes. Now sit down and let me put something in you." She says, turning back to the stove.I open my mouth to say someth
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 39
Danny hasn't said anything yet about what I had told him, that Roman and I have reconciled. I waited, feeling anxious of what he thought."Please say something." I say."So you two are talking now?" He asks, wanting clarification."Mhm." I nod." I still dont get it." He shakes his head. "You two didnt get along before, what changed?" "A misunderstanding was cleared." He frowns at this. " My initial thought of his return was wrong, just like I was about everything else. I recognise my faults and -""You told me that the reason for all this, happened in your childhood" I nod. " Then you had no control then, so don't go blaming yourself. It's not your fault okay?" He says, placing his hand on my face, looking into my eyes.My eyes drop to my lap." Mhm." " Hazel, you know I don't like it when you blame yourself with something, in which y
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 40
I'm drowning.I can't breathe and cant get a grip on anything. I'm struggling to swim my way back to the top and my body is ready to give up at any moment.No one is helping me and that's the frustrating part. I keep calling out for help yet my words are drowned out by the water I swallow. My body feels heavy yet I push through that, using all my strength to try pull myself back up and for my face to be out of the water.My arms are flapping about and my feet are beyond exhausted from working. I'm not a strong swimmer, I made peace with that fact a long time ago, now I'm paying for this. I can't even get myself out of this situation.A situation I'm not at fault at, I didnt end up here by my own will, I wouldn't have. The last of my strength I can feel, I decide to use, recalling every type of lesson taught and
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 41
Silence had long taken over because neither one of us, has attempted to say a word after what he has revealed.All I can do is just stare at him since the news are too hard to grasp, it's too heavy to bear and my heart pains for him. He lost his mom." Hazel Grace no, no don't cry for me." He sighs when he turns to look at me.I cant help myself, the tears are too heavy to contain and that's why I let them freely fall." But it's your mom Roman." I whisper out." Hazel -" " I'm sorry Roman, I'm sorry." I say, launching myself to him and wrapping my arms around his waist, resting my head against his chest."It's okay Hazel.""No it's not. I wasn't there when you needed me most and I know that you needed me more then ever then, I bring comfort to you. Me being where you need me most makes everything okay for you. It's always been this wa
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 42
Two Weeks Later.....I have never seen Danny as shaken as he had been two weeks ago, it's still affecting him until today and his actions prove my point as he is relunctant of leaving for his college visit. He's visiting two colleges and both offer sport scholarships. His uncle will be accompanying him today.His uncle has been like a second father to him and though he can be a little intimidating, he's an okay man I guess. He never gave me problems when I first met him and seemed to think that I was right for Danny.He and Danny have a close relationship and Danny values his opinion very much. I was glad that his uncle jumped at the chance of accompanying him on his trip."It would have been way more awesome if you were coming with me." He says, pulling me closer." I know but, I have a heck lot of work to get into, just to get the teachers off my back." I explain.
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 43
Left me to die?No, no, I must have heard wrong.I slowly turn around to face him. My eyes follow his every move, where he walks towards me." Hazel you have to listen to me, let me talk and explain to you-" "Why did you say such a thing to me Roman?....Why would you say that to me?"" Danny is not good for you Hazel Grace. He is not." " Roman, not this again." I say through a sigh, dropping my eyes to the ground." Hazel." A gasp slips out when his hands cradle my face and tilt my head up so I am looking into his eyes." Hazel I am here, not as your enemy. I am your bestfriend, your Roman. Eversince we were young, have I ever given you a reason to not trust me?" "No, but - ," I pull out of his touch but his hands are quick to hold my shoulders, keeping me from taking another step further.
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 43 part 2
"How's your head now?" He asks, after I'd taken a pain killer, to relieve me from the pounding headache." It's not bad anymore." "Are you sure about this?" Roman asks me as we arrive at my destination."No, but I know that I have to do this. It's better now then later I guess." I respond, turning to look at him.His eyes search my own and I just stare at him. He's concerned, I understand but I need to do this. I want to get everything over and done with." I don't know, let me go with you." He says, a plea in his tone." I have to do this on my own." "You don't have to do this on your own, let me be there for you and - " " Roman." I cover his hand with mine and look him straight in the eyes." Let me do this on my own, I can't be dependent on you for everything, there are some things that I will sometimes have to face on my own. And
BEGIN AGAIN Chapter 44
It's my fault, it's my fault.It should have been me and not him.The thoughts repeatedly play in my head as tears stream down my face. Tonight has been the worst night of my life and I wish, more then ever for someone to tell me that this is all a bad dream. That I'll wake up and he'll be fine. All he wanted to do was to protect me but I couldn't do the same for him. I couldn't protect him. I couldn't protect my best friend.He called out for me. Oh my gosh he called out for me and I should have answered, maybe then he would have stopped. This is all my fault."Hazel!" I jump off my chair when I see Sam and Avery coming my way.I rush towards them, literally throwing myself to him and wrapping my arms around him. " Hazel, hey hey are you okay?" I shake my head, burying my face in his shoulder. I can't stop my bo
Latest chapter
