CH 21

After the romantic date night we decided that we needed to connect a lot more we are missing the spark in our relationship, I know that I have tons of feeling for him and I want to be with him but sometimes I think that we are only together for the sex and the twins and I don’t want that, because if that is the case then we don’t have to be married and we could co parent together and I could go back to being the playgirl I was before I got knocked up.

 I asked him if he wanted to go with me to Japan next week, if I had to go alone I was only going to go for 3 days but if he was going to go with I was going to stay a little longer and probably end up in Figi, He told me that he would have to check his schedule which I kind of figured since they were close to the world tour and shit. But that is the only way we are going to be able to reconnect on a level that will make me want to continue being married. Because I can do just sex and co-parenting and be single, I thought