LOGINNIKOLAI
"Father," I greet curtly as I walk into his office. I notice my mother standing behind his chair, where he sits behind his desk.
"Ah, Nikolai. Take a seat," he says, acting as if his entire fucking board did not disrespect me mere days ago.
I remain standing with the same poised expression on my face. He sighs. "Figlio, marriage is vital to becoming a man of full potential. Your mother is the reason I have gotten past the stress and burden it is to be the Don," he says. (Son)
"I cannot give a woman what you have given Ma. I do not love." My voice is cold, the words leaving a bitter taste in my mouth.
"The bond of a marriage is powerful; it gives you the strength to love, share, and express feelings—"
I cut my mother off. "I refuse feeling. I refuse to share my life. I fucking loathe the idea of sharing anything with a mere stranger," I spit out, venom lacing my tone.
"That does not change the truth. The Don must take a wife before he takes over; that is tradition. That is the rule. And we do not bend the rules," Father says in a final tone, his fierce green eyes clashing with mine—identical to his.
"Yeah? Who is going to replace me? Have I not practically run this Mafia for the past three years? What are you going to—"
"Nikolai Moretti! Respect your father and your Don!" My mother raises her voice, making me shut up.
She never raises her voice. I look at Father and release a breath at his angry expression. I can see disappointment lacing his eyes.
They are hell-bent. And he is right.
No one bends the rules. Not even a Moretti. A Made Man is powerful only so long as he is able to uphold tradition and the sanctity of the Cosa Nostra.
I can deny this now and push the limits. I can buy time because I have until I am 30 before I absolutely have to marry. But I know why they are pushing this.
They think I am unhappy. They think that is the reason I am angry and short-tempered and that a wife will fix my rage. What a pathetic reason to marry.
But I can be the man I know I am and face this challenge—like every other challenge in the way of my becoming Don—head-on.
"Bene," I grunt. They are not going to drop this. Tradition means more to them than anything I have to say. "If you insist on this, then so be it. You are my Don." I meet his eyes. (Fine.)
And my father.
"Good." His cool green eyes glint with satisfied pride. "We will go to Carlo Romano's house tonight. His second-born daughter is yet to be betrothed, and your aunt seems to think she is quite the beauty. So I have already accepted her for you," he informs me, making me steam with anger.
A Romano's daughter. For the Don. Christ.
I release an angry breath, exiting without responding. I do not care who it is; it's not like it would be a real marriage anyway.
I hate the idea of a woman being dependent on me again. I cannot take care of someone. I cannot be trusted.
“I’m scared, Colline,” she whispers, gasping with the loss of blood.
“It will be okay, Colline. Papa is coming soon,” I say, desperately trying to free my hands from their tight bondage so I can help my baby sister. “Colline, I’ll even go flower picking with you! I won’t say no again, just—” I grunt, frustratedly kicking my short legs.
“I love you, Nikolai,” she says, her pale lips trying to smile.
“I love you too, Colline,” I say as I watch her bright green eyes slowly become less shiny.
Fuck.
I shake the memory away, heading to the gym to blow off some steam.
ELISSE
It is 7:00 PM, and I am sitting in the smaller common room in the East Wing, reading.
I think the guests are here, but I cannot be sure. It is not a concern of mine anyway. However, Mrs. De Luca has asked me to change into something "more presentable" a total of four times now.
I have not bothered because I doubt they'd even know who I am. I have never stepped foot out of this house. They only take Celeste to the balls; I doubt the guests even know I exist.
I sigh, pushing away thoughts about my depressing life and slipping into the fantasy world of these books.
I hear the door to the East Wing slam shut, and Celeste comes storming toward me.
"You fucking slut," she seethes, making my eyes widen at her use of profanities.
I have no idea what I did, but I am terrified. She can be so mean when she's angry like this, and I never want to be at the receiving end. But somehow, I always am.
"Celeste, w-what—" I sputter in surprise as she grips my arm, pulling me from my comfortable seat.
"You took my heels so I wouldn't look perfect for the Don, didn't you, you pathetic—" She gets cut off by a maid rushing inside, screeching,
"I found them, Ms. Romano! They were hidden under your hair extensions, ma'am!" she breathes heavily, her eyes wide with fear.
Celeste drops my arm and smiles at me menacingly.
"Don't think I don't know how jealous you are that you have to marry some random associate in the Mafia while I get the Don. But don't even think about sabotaging my wedding, Francesca Elisse, or I swear I will break your bones!" she shouts, stomping out after pushing me to the floor.
I groan at the pain that shoots through me and will myself not to cry. I do not even care for ranks and titles. I just wish for some respect.
FRANCESCAI should have asked for Father's approval. I shouldn't have assumed it would be okay just because Donna had sent the dresses.Father is right; I learn nothing. Even after I am punished, I do not learn. That is why he has to keep teaching me. It is painful because he has to teach me so many times.If I could just remember his preferences.I feel numb as Donna leads us from person to person, introducing me. I give out polite greetings, but all I can think about is Father's words and his look of warning.I shiver, thinking of how the sky had heavy clouds today. It will rain.He's going to lock me up again in the dark, and the storm will come.I accidentally whimper out loud, making Nikolai's head shoot towards me. His eyes question me, but I quickly look away, avoiding them.He suddenly excuses the both of us and leads me through the crowds of people, holding me by the elbow. We stop on a secluded balcony that is hidden away by heavy curtains."What the fuck is wrong? You look l
NIKOLAII can almost feel her shaking in her shoes as she stands there after having listened to my speech.I might have been unnecessarily aggressive, but I need her to know her place in this marriage. It is unfair; she is a beautiful woman in her prime. She could get married to someone who is offering her more than just a title. Does she deserve to know that? Yes, she does. And I will tell her."Before we go out there and declare this facade of a marriage, you must know everything so you can make an informed decision," I tell her, to which she barely reacts, just numbly nods her head."I will allow you to live however you want when we are married; you will be free of any and all expectations. I expect the same back. As long as you do not get in the way of my business, I will not get in yours, and our lives will pass in peace," I tell her. I expected her to scream, to protest, to say something—anything. But her expression remains the same, and her gaze remains fixed on the carpeted flo
FRANCESCAI nervously put on the expensive-looking diamond necklace with some help from Donna as I thanked her. Nikolai got very upset with me when I initially refused it.I will admit, it was my fault; I handled that horribly and ended up being rude.The necklace feels heavy and foreign on my exposed neck. The cold material makes me gasp lightly as it touches my warmer flesh, and goosebumps rise on my skin as I suck in a breath.I never noticed that my neck is so sensitive. I do not recall ever owning a necklace, let alone wearing one. I peer down at the necklace, trying to see it on myself, but it is impossible to get a clear view from this position.I huff, looking back up, only to see my future husband staring at me with a distant look, his green eyes darker in color. I quickly look away, feeling heat rise to my cheeks.He saw my failed attempt at trying to see it."Well, I will have to get used to seeing two beautiful ladies in this room now, instead of one, huh?" I hear a loud, d
NIKOLAII button up my dress shirt, tucking it into the pants, then get my jacket, putting that on as well.I know I am late to Mama's pre-engagement gathering, but I had business to take care of. That will always come first.I make sure I look presentable before walking out of my room, then out of my chamber's doors, and taking the stairs down.I see Griffin also heading in the same direction, and when he sees me, he stops so we can walk in together.Griffin is my parents' second oldest. He is what people would call a right-hand. He is why I am capable of being called Don soon and one of the only two people whom I trust with everything. He understands me and my need to protect this family from even themselves.The other is Damon. He is like a brother to me as well.Our other two brothers are great soldiers of the Mafia, but they have not seen what I and Griffin have.Griffin used to be a twin. Our sister Elena and I were kidnapped when I was 10 and they were 9. I saw my baby sister bl
Francesca As the woman leads me inside the door, we see the woman that I met yesterday. I am assuming she is the Donna.I have heard idle gossip about the Don and Donna and about their family, but they had merely been a concept to me until yesterday. I had never really seen them in person before."Oh! Buonasera tesoro. Come here," she says, motioning me closer, her tone suggesting excitement. Her aura radiates a positivity that puts me slightly at ease.(Welcome, darling.)I bow down in respect, making her quickly reach out. I flinch a little in anticipation, but she just helps me stand upright again.She either ignores or does not see my embarrassing behavior."No, no tesoro. You are famiglia now; you never have to do that, si?"I nod quickly. "How are you, dear?" she asks me. I look at her for a minute, taking in how nice she is being.(Darling. -- Family.)Does she think I am someone else?"I, um, I am okay," I tell her. My voice comes out scratchy, making me realize I have not spo
FRANCESCA"Which dress do you choose, ma'am?" Mrs. De Luca asks me.I feel dazed and completely overwhelmed. Yesterday, I meant nothing. No one paid attention to me or asked me anything. Today, I am being polished, prepped, and dressed for an engagement party.My engagement party.A celebration the whole Mafia is going to celebrate. The marriage of the future Don. I cannot help but be dryly amused at my own unrelenting bad luck. It was bad enough that I was going to marry a Made Man who would be exactly like my father. But now, I would be marrying a Don.I can't imagine how much worse it will be. And to think he caught me crying, and I told him to leave the room. A Don! I am sure he will be planning my punishment.I look back at Mrs. De Luca and the dresses she has displayed for me. They have come from my soon-to-be-in-laws, and I am to pick one to wear tonight."They are all so beautiful, but so revealing," I frown.The necklines are all plunging, and the slits are too high. The tho







