Se connecterEdwinaBy the time we reached our suite, the weight of the day had settled into something quieter, more intimate. Max shut the door behind us, and for a moment neither of us said anything — just stood there, still in our wedding clothes, looking at each other like we were both still catching up to the fact that this was real."Mrs. Sebastiani-Jonas," he said finally, testing the name like it was something precious."I like the sound of that." I stepped closer, fingers finding the lapel of his jacket. "Almost as much as I like the man attached to it."He laughed, low and warm, and pulled me into him, resting his forehead against mine. "Three years," he murmured. "Three years I imagined this moment, and it still doesn't compare."Neither does anything I imagined, I thought, closing my eyes. This is so much more.His hand came up to cup my face, thumb brushing my cheekbone with a tenderness that made my chest ache. "I love you, Edwina. Today, tomorrow, every day after.""I love you too,"
EdwinaKing Leonidas placed my hand in Max's, his own eyes suspiciously bright for a man who prided himself on his composure. He didn't have to do this, I thought, throat tightening all over again.He didn't have to be the one to walk me down here. But he wanted to. He gave my fingers one last gentle squeeze before stepping back to take his seat beside the Queen.I turned to face Max fully, and for a moment the church, the guests, even Esther and Evelyn in the front pew, all blurred into the background.Here he is, I thought. The man who waited three years for me to stop running from my own heart.The pastor cleared his throat and opened his book, and the congregation settled into a hush."Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today in the sight of God and in the presence of these witnesses, to join together this man and this woman in holy matrimony." His voice carried easily through the church, warm and unhurried. "Marriage is not to be entered into lightly, but reverently, deliberat
EdwinaTwo months laterStanding in front of the full view of the mirror in my wedding dress, I still couldn't believe it was me. The woman staring back looked like a stranger wearing my face — softer somehow, lit from somewhere she couldn't name. If anyone had told me, heck, prophesied to me that I'd ever wear a wedding dress, I'd have laughed at that person first before whacking them upside their head. Life had a strange sense of humor, dressing her in white lace after everything it had put her through.Yet, here I was, wearing a beautiful wedding dress, waiting for the event planner to come in and tell me it was time. The silence in the room felt heavier than it should have. Tears glistened in my eyes as I realized that my father wasn't here to see me get married, which was the one thing he'd hoped for. Maybe even wished for. I could almost hear the gruffness in his voice, the way he always cleared his throat before saying anything sentimental."I'm happy now, daddy." I said, s
Maximillian A month laterIt was probably childish of me to avoid talking to Edwina at her father's funeral, but there I was, doing everything in my power not to go anywhere near her. Not even when Mom asked if I'd offered my condolences did I tell her the truth. I lied and said I had.If it had been anybody else, I probably wouldn't have shown up at all. But Edwina's father had been like a second father to me, and I loved the man very much. The church ceremony was quick, and even the procession to the cemetery moved faster than I expected. Before I knew what was happening, the whole thing had ended.I stayed back for a bit after assuring Mom I'd be right behind them. I wanted to pay my last respects to the man who'd taken care of me when I was on the brink of death — a stranger who'd lied about his identity to avoid being sent back home. A stranger who'd unintentionally caused a deranged woman to almost eliminate him and his entire family out of jealousy.I'm never coming back he
EdwinaThree years laterI've regretted many things in my life. At one time, I regretted not trying harder for my friendship with Steven. It wasn't my fault, not really — it had been his doing more than mine — but I still wished I'd handled it differently.But my greatest regret, the one I carried heaviest, was pushing Maximillian Sebastiani away. I was scared. Stubborn. Too foolish to see that he'd been right about everything. My father had gained a son the day Esther married Julian, and over the years Julian had become the brother I never had.I was so stupid, I think, even now. I didn't understand that letting go of him meant losing him completely.Max officially relinquished his claim to the throne. Julian was named second in line, which meant Esther — my sister, the person I trusted most in this world — was going to be the next queen of Mercia. Max left the country two days after the wedding and never came back. Not when Esther gave birth to the twins. Not when Evelyn married L
Edwina Two words, plain enough to be nothing but exactly what he meant. Simple. Honest. Certain. No flourish needed. The kind of words that didn't need embellishment because he meant every single letter.I wanted to say something else. I had a whole different word lined up, ready, the one every part of that meadow and that ring and that man kneeling in front of me seemed to be waiting for.My eyes burned.This is everything I've ever wanted... isn't it?No.That wasn't true.It was everything I'd ever wanted until it became real.Because loving him and marrying him were two completely different things.I loved him. God knew I did. More than I'd ever loved anyone. I loved him enough to imagine a future I'd never thought I deserved.Enough to believe happiness wasn't just something that happened to other people.But marriage...Marriage was another promise entirely.One I couldn't make.One I wouldn't make.Not because of him.Never because of him.Because of me.Because I knew myself.







